Do you ever feel like killing yourself, but not because you're sad or anything, but because living feels like a chore? Having to work or study, having to pay the bills, having to talk to people, etc. And the world itself is so god damn boring, nothing to strive for, everything is like a big grey shit.
I want to explore the universe, learn about new galaxies, planets and what else the universe does in the extreme to what we're used to see.
But I also know we're stuck on this lump of rock having to drone just to stay alive so.. yes.
I wanna feel like I feel when I'm asleep
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me too man,,, just an observer, a spectator. i don't think there's any observer slots in this game
It's most likely going to be like when going under during surgery or before you were born, which is absolutely nothing, no more feeling, nothing. But you're right, I don't know if that's ultimately true. I wish there could be an afterlife where I can be with my family forever or an eternal dream, but I've lost hope.
It's not like you can feel relaxed/happy that now you're free from the burden of being alive, except in your last seconds. There's no gain from dying to stop the monotony because in the end yeah you'll stop suffering but you'll also not know what suffering/happiness is, because you're dead.
Feeling happy isn't the goal. If you wanted to feel happy then you would get therapy, not kill yourself.
You don't know at all. There is nothing like being dead. It's obviously pretty hard to put into words without sounding cryptic.
Think about it like a balance sheet for your life.
On the left are your assets. Family, friends, hobbies, moments that you cherish and enjoy, moments of pleasure and fun
On the right are your debts, the things that you regret, pain, suffering, loneliness, and loss
If you live enough days with more debts than assets, your life is bankrupt and it makes the most sense logically to just stop "playing the game" i.e. suicide.
All the time, it really confuses me that so many people are willing to become slaves to something they don't enjoy simply because they feel they have to if they want to survive. But really it's no skin off my back, as long as the government keeps paying me out.