>have an abstract question
>end up getting deep with wikipedia for three hours
anyone else know this feel?
>read something about thinking
>end up watching/listening to lectures and reading Wittgenstein
>think a lot about thinking
>"lol thinking is dumb anyways tho" - philosopher guy who just explained a shit ton of stuff about all the things thinking is/isn't
>cry and remember things from the tao te ching
>make a big watercolor painting and try to fix my computer
it turns out I just gonna reinstall windows. sucks. maybe I should go back to 7, 10 is still sofucked.
you don't deserve pain. nor do you deserve happiness. "deserving" is like a cognitive glitch. we need some kind of explanation for why things happen and so we go "i dont deserve to be treated this way" or "I deserve to have that" etc.
so your life consists of a lot of pain but that doesn't really mean it sucked (was undeserved, not worth it, etc) or any more or less of a life than anyone else's.
how was it fucked up, anon?
For me wikipedia really gets my juices flowing, its like watching a great movie.
I think my reward system is different as I get satisfaction when I read factual stuff on the internet. Sometimes I'll even stop mid fap to go look something completely unrelated up.
for me it's always a particular topic of the week
Last week it was urbex, this week it's oil rig disasters.
human relationship ideas sounds like a category of things, not a particular problem.
don't talk about the solution, I'm just wondering about the things you approach.
I wonder a lot about objects and humanity, self and relationships (parent/child, siblings, extended family, friends, romantic partners, roommates, teacher/student, cashier/customer)
but the problems I look at deal with pain, especially how do I appreciate and hold pain in order to work with it since fighting it fucking sucks and doesn't work
Actually this has been proven to be true. The ball adjusts its trajectory due to sound waves pushing against it.
However the change is miniscule but science has proven it does move.
>now I can't sleep at night because I'm trying to figure out the meaning of existence