Do you ever wonder what you look like to other people as if the way other people see you is drastically different to how you see yourself?
What if I'm retarded and I'm just not aware of it?
>everyone has treated me like shit my whole life
>some kids even accused me of saying I'd bring a gun to school
>school searches me, of course finds nothing, suspends me indefinitely anyway
>a week after being in a mental ward from the breakdown I go back
>they kick me out half-way through the day because they didn't have a doctors note saying I was safe
I literally can't trust people, and there's just something about me that makes people seek to hurt me, everywhere I go. People give me shit for not being "confident" or whatever, but when I've literally been bullied every day for months, and the first time you push back you get suspended, and it goes on a record they use to punish you further and further, you just can't believe anyone could actually like you.
I can't tell if I'm just ugly as fuck, or if it's all about being a ginger.