How do i stop being a little bitch? Since I've gotten nofap in my life i feel too much, i cant take this shit anymore...
>I dont feel like i can allow myself to cry.
Well that was easy to get out of you. And the simple solution is stop doing this. Allow yourself to cry all you want, and to see it as natural, and a healthy release. Maybe you tried to act like a hardened toughass "real man" with the emotions of a rock? Is this is remotely accurate, drop the bullshit, no one cares but you.
>I feel like its some kind of defeat...
Quite the opposite. The defeat is then you stifle yourself and suppress your true nature to the point you're unaware of what your real thoughts and feelings even are. You win by overcoming your own self imposed barriers to personal freedom and clarity.
>And i have tons of bottled up emotional baggage
Well no duh. Be greatful you ar enow able to release it so easily. Man I wish I could just cry sometimes to let shit out, but I just can ever seem to cry hardly. Once in a while if I hear a melancholy country song my eyes get moist and a few tears roll, but thats about it, otherwise gotta just go eat an onion.
Well some would argue that being human means following your biological purpose of procreation, or succumbing to the urges that stem from it, like fapping. I really don't care. As I've seen it lately, fapping, having sex, cuddling, dating, fantasizing about sex, looking at porn, and all things related are what I consider "determinism" and avoiding that realm altogether is "free will." The former is a life motto of 'follow your balls' while the latter is choosing to go your own way completely from your programming. I didn't do nofap2015, but unlucked into a nofap streak recently due to illness and would like to keep it up. Problem is I don't know how to simply create new meaning to replace the sexual programming. Cause what happened all the times before is life is pointless, so that naturally results in gravitating back into the sexual. Right now my only purpose is to resist the sexual, and to live to tell the story of it and help others learn to live happily celibate lives.
>allergies and pressure headache full force
>in the middle of winter
>and it takes a couple of hours for my meds to kick in
I wonder what is worse to wake up, sudden physical pain or sudden mental/emotional pain?