How many of have actually tried being yourself? Not that disgusting autist you think is yourself, but your actual self dude?
Some people hate me but I have a small group of friends. Not much on the dating market but I'm happy. The key to being yourself is acceptance of self. If you don't love or even like you no one will.
I'm already myself but poors man version.
I like reverse engineering, watching a children's card game on twitch, porn of the degenerate variety and my cat
I have long ago accepted that I am not normal and nobody gives a shit about what I like
My best bet at this moment is a gold digger or a really autistic girl
All my life I was told I was worthless. I believe in it for a while too. But something happened when I left all those negative people. Maybe it was anger or hope but I sat down one day and wrote all the postive stuff I love about me. It was a small list at first but now I can say I'm happier than before.
I found myself worthy of being alive. Sometimes I have moments of doubt but then I just pull out paper and write my list.
A pretty long story but back when I first enrolled at some academy for my college entrance exams, I made it a thing to spend my time in the academy in a state of constant nirvana. Everyday, I tried desperately to keep my mind in a blank state, trying to fully disconnect myself from my personal fears, worries, inclinations, and other useless thoughts. I kept this mentality and went about my day to day life in the academy. To my satisfaction, this resulted in me going about talking to whomever I wanted, doing whatever wanted, and saying whatever I wanted. The end result was surprisingly a pretty cool and very sociable version of myself and I ended up befriending almost everyone in the entire academy in a span of 3 months. I was like that super popular kid in high school. It was amazing how seemingly simple and incredibly effective this was.
Unfortunately though, it was extremely demanding for me to keep my mind in a constant state of nirvana and my facade eventually completely collapsed on itself and I became my usual tight-lipped self and started to distance myself from my new made friends.
They started remarking how quiet I've become and how I don't seem to be as frivolous as before. After a few months, the whole thing ended on a sour note but the experience itself was quite eye-opening and incredible. I found out the "real" and uninhibited me is an extremely caring, social, frivolous, and likable person, a complete contrast from my usual self.
Albeit, being an incredible experience, I couldn't be assed around to act like that again though, it was extremely taxing.
>be a genuinely vile person
>when I act like myself normies interpret it as being masculine and confident and love me
case in point: I got a gf by unironically threatening to rape her when she pissed me off when we first met
i dont know who i am because i dont trust myself and my personality changes with my mood
when i'm happy i'm super engaging and outgoing and fun and silly and people like me (which is why im a good waitress) i make great tips and people i serve leave their phone numbers and want to hang out but irl i dont hang with anyone or have friends
most of the time i dont smile or want to talk to anyone
my goal is he be a famous entertainer who lives most of their lives as a shut in
pretty cool life desu
This tbqh, I'm a pathological liar and have tons of different "developed personalities", it makes me feel like I'm some actor, who started to get to much into his play, so he forgets how he behaves when he isn't acting
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