>go to bed >feel a sudden urge to hug something >there's

HOPE U FINS SOME1 TO HUG AON

>tfw hold my own hand in bed as if I'm holding hands with a girl
>tfw circle my thumb on the back of the other hand as if it's a girl
>tfw rub my foot up and down my calf as if it's a girl
>tfw run my fingers up and down and through my chest hair as if it's a girl doing it
>tfw whisper to myself in a feminine voice and reply in a deep whisper complaining jokingly to "her" that I'm tired and need to sleep
>tfw lie in bed and pretend a qt girl is lying with her face towards mine and smiling at me
>tfw fold up my bathrobe and put it between legs as if it's a girl's leg
>tfw kiss empty air pretending I'm kissing a girl
>tfw lie on my back and hold my arm out and then folded at a ninety degree angle to pretend I'm holding a girl who's lying against me
>tfw go through each board on 4chan pretending I'm giving a tour to my girlfriend and giving her a humorous little summary about each one
>tfw watching home videos on my laptop of my family and me as a kid and pretending a qt girl is sitting beside me saying "awww" and smiling and asking who the different people are
>tfw walking home alone and pretending she's walking beside me and think up lengthy dialogue and occasionally laugh at something she or I said in the imagined dialogue
>tfw imagine meeting her family and having them like me
>tfw imagine her meeting my family and us sleeping and talking quietly in my room at home
>tfw imagine her and my mom preparing coffee after dinner and watching her laugh at something my mom says
>tfw imagine making her mom laugh and making her father a little annoyed when she and her mother tell him that he's probably boring me and that I probably want to get to bed after the long journey
>tfw developing several lengthy scenarios involving me and my qt crush and replaying them mentally each night while adding minor details and more dialogue and extending them further each day

>>25849418
get one of those big body pillows. they are comfy. don't get a lewd anime cover for it though unless you're prepared to take responsibility

>>25850306
This, this is actually really sad man. I hope this happens for you one day, anon.

>>25850480
In the context of my life thus far it's actually a very nice period for me. I realize I may seem insane or something like that but really the less I have to do with reality the less distressed I am. I suppose I'm too weak for this life, perhaps too cowardly. But my imagination has been my most loyal friends ever since I was a child, and it remains the only source of any happiness I experience.

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>have two pillows
>one for my head
>one to hold
I'm so lonely

>tfw thought people who got dakis were freaks
>tfw now you just want something to hold at night

>tfw play "Rhubarb" by Aphex Twin and imagine us lying silently next to each other and knowing without speaking that we love each other and that our love extends to a form of friendship as well as romantic attraction
>tfw ironing my shirts and turning around to my bed and smiling and performing a camp curtsee imaging her reading or on her laptop and smiling at me
>tfw imagine taking her younger siblings or cousins trick-or-treating around her neighborhood and walking slowly behind them along the sidewalk as they run from home to home
>tfw imagine the taste of her warm saliva and the subtle smell of her hot breath as we kiss
>tfw imagine cooking her a meal and pretending as if I cook things like that lot despite having nobody but myself to cook for and despite the reality that I only ever eat the same pre-prepared salad every night in my room so I don't have to talk to my housemates
>tfw sitting cross-legged on my bed and imagining her walking into the room in an oversized tshirts brushing her teeth and looking beautiful because of her lack of affectation
>tfw brushing the backs of my fingers against my throat because it isn't as stubbly as my jaw and pretending I'm brushing her cheek
>tfw hug myself occasionally and pretend she's hugging me from behind
>tfw sitting on public transport with my eyes closed pretending she's beside me listening to an iPod I imagine having through one earbud while I listen through the other
>tfw search the internet for songs with her name in the lyrics or the title and memorizing a small playlist of obscure but good songs including her name
>tfw imagining watching her family's home movies and investing genuine interest in her friends, family members and childhood experiences
>tfw imagine lifting the back of her hair up before going to sleep behind her and kissing her neck
>tfw imagine kissing her while running my fingertips along the backs of her ears
>tfw imagine kissing her while tracing her collarbone towards her shoulder

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>>25850548
Exactly the same anon

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>>25850853
Fucking STOP ITT

>>25850721
I'm never buying those lewd weeb fuckpillows, but I might maybe consider a bodypillow if I find a way to sneak it past my parents