I sense a moodswing coming. Where should I be taking it, boys?
>virtually impossible to obtain
>objectively least unpleasant
>no outlets available
>need to self-harm to get down from it
Shit, sucks to be you.
Do you have paper and some colored pencils or paints? I know it sounds stupid but I usually manage to let go by just going berserk on a piece of paper. Don't even try to make something, just ruin everything that is still white on the paper.
I would if I could but I literally can't.
nah it's too late I'm already crying. C it is.
ohh for fuck's sake I knew I didn't have a blade in here but I don't even got a tissue my sister's gonna hear me sniffing fucking fucking fucking fuck
I don't have skype any more. It says it needs an update before I can log in and then the update always fails and I'd need to call some place but fuck that shit I'm not calling anyone.
I found more tissues and apparently there's nail clippers here. Leaves a bigger scar with less relief but it's better than screaming.
I'm just trying to help dude, I've been where you're at. Your home situation isn't helping anything, the necessity to keep silent is probably what pushes you over the edge.
Can't you bruise? Doesn't mess you up as much as actual proper cut but less satisfying. Still, I'd hate to know you're doing a full blown SI session.
I can't punch myself hard enough to bruise. I'm just nipping with the fucking clippers.
I guess I'm glad I'm allergic to all the filth in this house. Gives a constant excuse to always have my nose running.
You don't punch yourself, you hit the shinbones / ankles / inside of the elbow (not the outside, you have nerves there) repeatedly with a ruler. Like tap tap tap tap TAP TAP TAP until it hurst.
Was what I did.
Remeber to at least disinfect properly when you're done.