So roboats how do you hide your apathy and depression from others?
Obviously there's nothing people hate more than depressed apathetic men. I used to hide it when I was younger but now I don't have the mental strength anymore. I'm starting to think I'll never be able to hold a job because I don't fit in socially and look "like I just got out of bed" as many say to me.
Any robot who managed to fake emotions, cheerfulness, "just be urself brah" attitude?
I just started shutting myself in recently. Go to work, go home, never leave. Never talk to people, just keep to myself. It's better to just handle life myself than try to deal with others actions towards me.
I try to hide it by wearing the mask of eccentric degenerate around peers. They think it is funny and invite me to do stuff sometimes. I say a lot of things deadpan and do funny shit because I feel like doing it. Comedy is one of the few things that keeps me going.
Around people I respect I just try and seem kinda clean cut and boring I guess.
People say I look tired or rough a lot. They are right. My passion in life is gone and I can't ever sleep.
My prime concern is work and "eccentric degenerate" won't do there. So I try to stay formal but no one likes that nowadays. they want the cheerful social type. I already quite one job because of that..
I can not weep on how I can relate to this.
Like, I try to keep to myself yet I feel so alone by shutting people out. Like it probably does more damage by keeping it all bottled up but nobody can relate and understand. I.. I don't even understand yet, the thought of time is scary and such...
Just don't think of the feeling or thought, plain and simple. Don't feel like smiling, then don't.. be stern about it. Make up excuses when your invited out at work. do all the time but make sure tthat its a reliable lie aha done it enough times, it gets old .. Be stuck up about it aha
I don't think that works. at my last job I quit because I felt like if I didn't become more social they would just fire me. I was on good work relations with everyone but it wasn't enough, people find it strange enough that you don't chat with others that they would fire you for it