family, in your honest opinion do I have reason to want to kill myself
> no friends
> no real family
> my job hates me and some roastie wants me fired
> 23 KV
> muh anxiety, I had depersonalization spells for a while that were scary
> can't fucking draw
> 14K debt for a degree I don't even want anymore
> helicopter dad cucked my childhood banning me from other people and now he's sick so I'm taking care of him and he's cucking my emotional state because he thinks he's going to die and I have to be strong because he's a robot too so no one else will talk to him
rate my need to kill myself
or offer advice on how to cope
> roastie thinks I'm incompetent and she feels oppressed because no one asked her if she wanted to be promoted after 5 years, I just applied and got her spot.
> has been sabotaging my work and telling supervisors I threatened her
> while my boss hates me, they hate her more so they do not want to have her around full-time being a bossy cunt to everyone
Also, depersonalization feels you're literally floating and separaing from your body. You realize that shit is terrible and yet you can never escape it and you want the ride to be over so hard that you start feeling like you might be able to step out of your body just to get away from the feels. What set me off was the thought of dying and going to hell.
>t is terrible and yet you can never escape it and you want the ride to be over so hard that you start feeling like you might be able to step out of your body just to get away from the feels.
I think I've had that. I was being talked at by my mother and it felt like I was looking through a camera that was zooming out.
I tried to off myself so I don't see why you shouldn't.
you shouldn't consider suicide until you're at least 25
you said you're working on a degree, how about you wait and see where it takes you
if your life is still still when you're 25+ then yeah maybe you consider it
Nah, it went away about a year ago. Get depressed though. I still wonder if I'm going to go full schizo one day, but I usually just call myself a fag and wait until the bad feels pass.