>too shy to meet people in real life
>too ugly for dating websites
Is there any hope for me to find a companion?
Yes, go to a gun store and purchase a mossberg 500 with some slugs and then go home, drink yourself into a stupor and place the barrel it your mouth aimed at your brain and pull the trigger
That's worse than committing suicide. I would join the military if there was a conflict that actively needed me. But at the moment it's just glorified welfare for tough guy rednecks.
>Is there any hope for me to find a companion?
Are you male?
Then yes, it is too late.
Are you female?
Then no. All you have to do is state literally ANYWHERE that you're looking for a boyfriend, and you will have at least 10 men trying to get with you.
I was raised Catholic but I've drifted far away from that lifestyle. I wish I could have faith in God but he hasn't done very much for me. A benevolent God wouldn't have made me such a fucked up retard.