>Supermodel back up gf didn't text me back >Now have to bang my 8/10 side bitch instead >4.0 GPA in Mathematics requires me to take days off from managing my trust fund >Scratched my Ferrari yesterday, have to buy a new one >Offered into a nuclear technician Program, NASA, Teaching at MIT, Google, don't know which one to pick.
ok shit I'll share some stuff. >half a year since I left school >have a place held for a course in college this september but i don't even want to go anymore >haven't told my parents this because I feel like I can't because no job >kissless virgin, although I'd rather get a job first >nearly all my friends from school were pretty much just for the purpose of not being completely friendless throughout school, the ones who I'd consider legitimate actual friends I still don't see that much
And in case you REALLY need something to laugh at: >I have only one plan for the future that's even remotely thought-out >it involves me becoming omnipotent and using that to just... do whatever I want, really
>>25798274 >>25798399 wait, no, there's more I feel I can add onto this I'm about 18 and a half years old, but last time I checked I sounded like.. i dunno, ten years old or something and i have a speech impediment where i mispronounce my r's and they come out sounding like w's
also i look more like a 15-year-old or something not 18 anyway
>>25798673 it'd probably take a bit of effort so that i could get that to be the default way i talk, which would mean i'd have to listen to my own voice, which... no thanks buddy
then again, the last time i listened to myself was ages ago, I don't even remember when it was. i skyped with a friend a few days ago and he seemed to think my voice doesn't sound awful m-maybe it's all just in my head at this point
When I was 19 I confessed to my own first cousin (18 at the time) that I was in love with her. It's almost been 5 years and I haven't heard a word from her back. All I can think about is just ending my pointless existence.
I was severely depressed before I fell deeply in love with her. I had many chances to kill myself but she kept me from actually carrying out my suicide. I would text her, chat for a while, and that was enough to diffuse me.
Now I'm a broken man. I try to avoid being depressed as much as I can because now that she's not around dying is an extremely likely possibility for me if I develop depression.
I've been medicated before but the pills make me feel "stupid" and numb. I prefer feeling my own misery and getting it over with.
I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. She's the only one I've ever fallen in love with.
>>25800268 Kind of fucked up you did that to her, of course, anyone would try to prevent you from killing yourself. You were her cousin, and you ruined that for her by letting your emotions get in the way, now you're just a disgusting sad relative that she won't associate with out of fear.
I'm fairly certain that people like and care about me, but I'm so paranoid and untrusting that I push everyone away and everyone else thinks I'm asshole. People defend me and I repay them by being distant and paranoid.
>>25800315 >Kind of fucked up you did that to her, of course, anyone would try to prevent you from killing yourself. You were her cousin, and you ruined that for her by letting your emotions get in the way, now you're just a disgusting sad relative that she won't associate with out of fear. I never directly told her I was thinking about suicide but she must have picked up the subtle details that something was very wrong with me.
They weren't just emotions, it really was love. I'd spend months doing nothing but whacking off to photos of her and dreaming us getting married. I'd become frozen at times when around her and my hear rate would sky rocket. She must have noticed the love vibe too.
Guess the only thing I can do now is not die. It's not like I want to keep causing her misery.
But you know what? I'm glad it happened. Me suppressing those deep feelings of love would have caused me to snap in some way. You can't suppress feelings of love, it's something that can't be bottled up no matter how hard you try.
>>25797820 I am a 33 year old friendless virgin. But guess what OP? Whatever is bothering you enough to want to feel better about yourself is obviously causing you more pain then what I feel. Therefore, I win. You are losing. Whatever problems you are having, they are going to only get worse.
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