Guys, I haven't had a girlfriend in over 4 years. I'm 20 years old now, and the fact that I'm still a virgin is literally eating me up inside.
I see couples every fucking day, and it keeps eating me up inside. A constant fucking reminder that I'm a fucking loser, who's single, virgin and just cries about how shit his life is.
I have a hatred for my race and I hate myself so much because I am like this. I'm considering to just suicide. I can't live like this, i'm too weak for reality and I accepted that.
what's an easy way to just off myself /r9k/, and I'm sorry you have to put up with my post. This is the only place I have to cry and whine like a bitch.
And nothing of value was lost. Don't let the door hit you on the way out.
Shit man, I dont know if youre that one dude who posts in the face threads but youre like an 8/10 to be honest. Have you made a good effort to get gf? I almost think youre lying because youre pretty damn good looking
>but youre like an 8/10 to be honest.
same structured sentencing etc. looks like OP'S replying to himself.
Im just a guy trying to point out some potential. Dont an hero OP. Just get off 4chan and see how it goes for a year. Try to get out more to meet qts too, fampai. When I look at you, I see a normie, and that is good
I've tried being myself, at my core I'm someone who smiles even under the worse circumstances, I'm outgoing and always cheerful. None of that led anywhere, people see me as a friend moreso than anything else and the girlfriends I did have made me feel so low about myself. I'll tell you about each relationship I had.
Spanish Girlfriend (1st): We get together and she starts telling me how great it would be if I wasn't black. Takes my first kiss and later dumps me because she was only using me to get another one of my friends who wasn't interested in her. he actually got to fuck her though
French Girlfriend (2nd): Exchange student, comes and after we was in a group project where we got to know each other. She starts spending every moment around me, following me and going with me everywhere. To the point our friends thought we were soulmates.
Dumps me ob valentines day after I spend over 80 bucks on roses and chocolates for her and tells me basically I was just someone she used until her real french boyfriend came to the states.
Black grilfriend (3rd): Nearly dies after we have an argument on facebook where she claims I tell her to off herself when I didn't. Started a police investigation, after I was found in no wrong. She refuses to talk to me.
Present day. I'm just in college and working at my job, just feeling like an empty shell. I have no ambitions, I hate myself, I envy others so much. I think I spend a bunch of my time envying others and enraged at how I was dealt the blow of being black. I hate this race with a passion. Its the worse on this earth. I'm just a sad guy who would rather die than deal with life.
Get a white girl ya dingus. Trust me, you are more than capable of doing that.
Also is that a dick on your shirt
>waaaah im black omg gibssympathy
you are literally cancer. jump into traffic you fucking retard. oh no wait, you're not going to do that. you aren't interested in suicide. you just want more dopamine hits from people masturbating you.
Honestly just take a break from 4chan. All the LE NIGGER shit here just fucks with your head. I personally can't walk past a white person without feeling like I'm making them feel scared of getting shot or robbed or something. You're already a self-hating nigger, honestly one of the worst kinds. Try your best to grow out of the /pol/ point of view and try to look at yourself as an individual rather than part of a breed of gorillas.
Dude, you got at least 3 gfs. You're already doing better than me. Fuck what people think, and fuck bitches. Don't ever be ashamed of who you are. You and me are in the same boat. I'm depressed almost everyday but I'm not going to kill myself. I'm not going to let these fuckers win. I highly recommend getting off this board, it's toxic. And don't kill yourself.
Get rid of that t-shirt. You need to forget about it because it has a stigma attached to it. Get rid of that sweatshirt, get rid of those goggles (???), and keep growing out that beard. Go to /fa/ or /r/malefashionadvice and get some nicer clothes. Stop going on 4chan, really. Surround yourself with positive things or events. Stop wearing that shirt man. Go to doc and get meds if you havent already. You've already had three gf's, I know you can get more
>in over 4 years
I haven't had one in over 26 years.
I think you've had both a bit of bad luck, but also you might have a distorted understanding on how easily other people have it or how good other people's relationships are. Other people aren't living awesome trouble-free lives either, and lot of the relationships you see might be like your thing with the French girl before things went south.
Just try to shift your thinking. That sort of negative thinking will unfortunately show in your behaviour and affect things negatively. Don't think that if you haven't found some awesome relationship by now you're never gonna get it.
People develop at different paces. I also had some mental problems, depression and the like, and didn't get my romantic life in gear till I was well over 25 (managed to lose virginity though but it was a clumsy affair).
Just try to shift your thinking and keep meeting new people. Unfortunately a great deal of people are assholes so trying to find a nice partner requires having skin thick enough to be able to take some trying and failing at first. It's all a learning experience, next time you'll know to look for the warning signs
Not sure why you're being mean to me, but alright.
Just, thank you guys. I Will follow through with the suggestions you all have given me. Truly thank you, It gets hard sometimes and I'm not a strong willed person. You guys, are like my only fucking friends. my only fucking brothers, the only people I can actually fucking love and I don't even know you. Fucking this world is one hell of a piece of work, just. Really fucking thank you.
Wow you're doing way better then me and most of us here. Also those pol statistics are inaccurate if you believe this you've been had lad. Just take a break and have some fun, do you have any hobbies outside of work? If not find one to do
>Guys, I haven't had a girlfriend in over 4 years. I'm 20 years old now
Also man, you should look into therapy or something. I don't mean that in a condescending way either. It helps me a lot just to talk to a professional about fucked up shit in my life.
>Fucking this world is one hell of a piece of work
Absolutely. The world really is a bitch but you can turn it into your bitch after you get your shit together. I truly hope the best for you anon, you seem like a genuine guy. Race really doesnt matter, people in the real world look at race differently than 4chan. Dont worry about the edgy kiddos in this thread, posting a thread like this is actually therapeutical, but try not to lurk around r9k or shitty boards too much, its pretty much the equivalent of hanging around a bad crowd. Keep your head up man, finish college and try to get a good job. What are you studying?
>I'm just in college and working at my job, just feeling like an empty shell. I have no ambitions, I hate myself, I envy others so much. I think I spend a bunch of my time envying others and enraged at how I was dealt the blow of being black.
I pretty much have the same feels except for the being black thing. I think there are MANY people with those feels.
Dont let the
>tfw no gf
thing get you down. Honestly, I've done my fair share of talking to normies lately (at work) and the ones in relationships may look happy but a lot of them sound really pathetic and dumb. Things like "oh im going back to school too and my gf helped me pick out classes." Really, you had to have your gf involved in picking your classes?
There will be no need for a gf soon enough my nigger.
I study computer science and electrical engineering bro, besides that on my free time I just hide in my room, animate stuff for 4chan, draw or just do yoyo videos.
I learned php actually, I use it with mysql, its so easy and simple. Its probably my favorite language aside from python.
I could say what really made me fall down this slope of self-shame was how when we first started out. Our small click of guy friends, we were all virgins and one by one things changed, until I was the only virgin left. It did something to me, I promise to get over it, you guys, fucking helped me.
>I have a hatred for my race and I hate myself so much because I am like this.
>Dumps me ob valentines day after I spend over 80 bucks on roses and chocolates for her and tells me basically I was just someone she used until her real french boyfriend came to the states.
I spent 210$ on a girl during Valentines day taht wasn't even my gf yet...
and she never became it eitherShe said it wouldn't work. But I'm over it now. I just wanna drink and sleep.
You aren't a loser.
I dare say if you were getting lots of women at 20 you WOULD be a loser.
Women at that age are generally attracted to people who become failures not long after such as the "drug dealer bad boy"
I'm not saying you should strive to be beta bux but really, not having a gf at 20 doesn't mean anything.
Try to focus on yourself and constantly improve. You are so young and this is the time to start so 5 years from now you can look back at all your accomplishments (which will probably inadvertently get you laid/a gf) and be thankful you started so early.