What do you want, don't lie. What do you really want?
NOW NOW NOW!
list in order of mental preoccupation (though not importance)
>qt enfp gf
>some hope that humanity isn't screwed in the very near future
>a way to make a living that is actually productive and reasonably regarding
>recognition for my music
>a sense of belonging and deeper connection in platonic relationships
>to grow in skill
>to grow in knowledge
Some sense of importance and validation. I wan't to be needed and irreplaceable. All my life I've just felt like a nobody; a background character that nobody cares about. I'm sick of the world putting me down. It feels like every time I try to shine in some way, I just end up embarrassing myself. Maybe I'm just not good enough to be who i want to be. Hopefully I'll get what I want someday.
A close relationship with my female friends without my fiancee getting jealous.
Also, male friends.
That's a beautiful pack of cigarettes.
I've not had one for 3 years February.
Sometimes I really want one.
But then I really think about it and I don't.
I wish I had a better memory.
>asked a boy out today
>he said yes
>tomorrow we'll go to the park, play pool, eat weeb food, and watch Star Wars while
cuddling and holding hands
I want him to like me back.
Don't you just love the way it feels. Breathing it in from someone walking on the street. Doesn't it feel the way you do. For me, it puts into words exactly how I feel. Just slowly burning
I want to gamble. Thats all I want to fucking do. I dont want drugs, I dont want vidya, I dont want a gf. I want to experience the feel of winning big over and over again for months on end. God, nothing in this world is better than gambling.
I want to start living. Right now I'm a 24 year old neet with no future or job prospects. I dropped out of community college more than once due to depression. I have no friends and I'm afraid of leaving my parents house.
This is my first post on this board in over a year btw.
That will never happen. You know that right? Your brain has already developed. It would take years to change your electrical pathways.