Homeless at twenty three. This is going to be a shitty journey. It's a lot colder than I expected. I'm paralyzed with fear & anxiety.
worst advice 0/10
OP post a good timestamp if you want people to believe you. Draw it with rocks or something.
After that you can tell the area and we can find the nearest homeless shelter.
Life got exponentially worse. Too a point where it got ahead of me and took hold. It was mental quicksand and now I'm drowning.
>left my girlfriend of 7 years
>regret very soon after but too late
Brought me to the edge of sanity
>lost my job due to my distress
>can't hold down a job because I'm obsessed with her.
>forced to live with mum
>she can't stand my depression, kicks me while I'm down while telling me to "kill yourself and follow through with something"
I'm scared to be quite honest. I had a decent chance and I squandered it. While people weren't great and never helped, I really only have myself to blame.
You should nab some tape and cardboard. Make a little cardboard sleeping bag, stuff it with newspapers and wrap your feet in newsprint. Trust me. At least it isn't snowing. Do a workout and hit the sack.
I have what I need to not freeze. No funds, no friends, no family.
My phone had free service so I won't sell it. It's all I have from not going completely insane. My podcast is all I have.
I want to do a time stamp but it's dark and no pen. I also don't want to be moving around because I'm next to an apartment window and don't want cops.
You are in a moment of distress now, try to calm down. Do as others said, you have some battery left so try to find a homeless shelter on google maps or google. Or tell us your area and we will find one for you.
In the morning you can think with some more quality about what to do from now.
I have my phone a charger and an extra battery. I know where homeless shelters are. This is not my fear you guys.
I'm 23. Homeless. It'll only dig my grave deeper. I don't see a light at the end of this tunnel. I live in a city with so many homeless. It doesn't matter.
Just go do something crazy till the cops pick you up. You better off in there than on the streets white boi
Not really. She was great. I just got cabin fever and tossed it away.
I am a skinny jean wearing white boy. Niggers and cholos already hate me. I'd get raped in jail and prison.
I wish I had a gun to /suicidebycop/ but no money. Not even enough for pills.
I already know this. But I'm so tucked that despite being in an alley homeless I am sitting here thinking of my ex.
I have the luxury of having the symptoms of insanity, without the beneifiet of actually being mentally ill.
This. Intrinsic part of thermodynamics.
Anyway, tmrw morning you should definitely amble to a store and just ask for spare change. The stores all have AP units but they won't respond for a good few minutes. In that time you should be able to retrieve at least two bucks. Use that on travel sized essentials. Continue begging for money, find some people and maybe you can get back on your feed in a few weeks. Homeless isn't the worst man. Good luck.
I had to get medical since my regular insurance wanted me to pay 250 for my I inhaler.
I wonder if I went to my doctor tomorrow I could lie about pain or depression and get enough pills to failure of the liver.
Yeah. But my ex would love me if I did. I know it.
Also my mom, brothers, and estranged father would be shocked which pleases me. But I don't want to give up like this. I never thought it would come to this. Two years ago I moved in with my girlfriend, got a great job paying great and i threw it away. Fuck.
I'm really referring to something like this: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Everclear_%28alcohol%29 that's nearly 100% ethanol, to distinguish from just any spirits.
if you puke while passed out, there's a good chance you'll choke on it and die.
I know this image is gay as fuck, but remember what Tyler said
I know. But Tyler had the benefit of being imaginary. I would love to be a martyr. I don't care about anything. I would see no issue being the project mayhem goon. But I'll probably just stay here paralyzed in fear in this alley.
Good luck anon, I've been there homeless at 20, I'm back on my feet now though, kinda. I spent my first night sleeping in a concrete tunnel under the highway in the pitch black, sleeping on a guitar case. It was aweful I won't lie but it gets easier, don't give up.
During the night my leg fell off the case and way lay on the stone all night, it ached for about a week afterwards it got that cold, so learn my lesson and sleep on something, not directly on the floor. I used pizza boxes and card from behind a supermarket and slept in the woods after that.
I also had an aweful nightmare that night, that a man was stood over me holding a knife and just staring at me as I couldn't utter words, then I woke up.
Best tips, wash in supermarkets, wear layers, sleep on insulation, make friends online and find a place to stay, couch surfing.org might help, EAT! Do not make my mistake and not eat I was skin and bones by the time I had finished, fucking eat as much as possible if someone offers you food don't be prideful, I wish I hadn't turned down food when people offered to buy me something, because now id happily buy someone a sandwich, if they offer THEY DONT MIND, but do not beg. Don't get involved in crime, don't make friends with other hobos and make this your life, do not get into drinking or drugs at this point it will finish you, carry a knife, always, carry a backpack with changes of underwear and clothing, brush your teeth daily and change clothes daily. Whenever you get a chance, wash them.
>she can't stand my depression, kicks me while I'm down while telling me to "kill yourself and follow through with something"
>left my girlfriend of 7 years
>Brought me to the edge of sanity
>can't hold down a job because I'm obsessed with her.
women not even once.
OP, I was homeless between like 17-20ish, and you can push through this.
Save phone battery, or have a place to sit and charge in the morning to shore up your resource list; shelters, pantries, agencies, etc.
I almost froze out my first few nights but it was bad weather in a bad location. Spent some time hitchhiking and trying to drink myself to death. Get my GED and finished my degree. In a masters program now...from eating out of trashcans.
The shit is arduous but it can be done. BTW, if your mom said that shit as an out of character statement, try to repair things when shit cools down but if that's what she says to you on a regular basis, fuck her, fuck the toxicity in your household, you WILL be better off without that shit floating in your head.
Thanks anon strangley I feel sincerity. I'm scared which is making this worse. I don't have anything going for me. It would taste a lie if I told you that I haven't given up, that I still have a fight in me.. But I don't. I'm tired and want to get off this ride.
Humans. Not even once.
^Here. Everything this guy said is spot on:
>Best tips, wash in supermarkets, wear layers, sleep on insulation, make friends online and find a place to stay, couch surfing.org might help, EAT! Do not make my mistake and not eat I was skin and bones by the time I had finished, fucking eat as much as possible if someone offers you food don't be prideful, I wish I hadn't turned down food when people offered to buy me something, because now id happily buy someone a sandwich, if they offer THEY DONT MIND, but do not beg. Don't get involved in crime, don't make friends with other hobos and make this your life, do not get into drinking or drugs at this point it will finish you, carry a knife, always, carry a backpack with changes of underwear and clothing, brush your teeth daily and change clothes daily. Whenever you get a chance, wash them.
If the weather permits and you don't go full blown hobo you can actually appear not that scruffy, especially if you supplement with the occasional "I lost my bags" routine at a local transport station, I dunno how well that flies these days but that's something I did as a kid when I was looking my best (I had the foresight to take my khakis and buttondowns rather than a bunch of random clothes). This can help land you a job rather quickly if, again, you don't wallow in self misery.
THERE IS LIFE AFTER THIS if you get your shit together.
Do NOT sell your phone, you need access to the Internet to get out of this mess (it would at least make it easier), sell all other luxuries, invest in a hat, gloves, jacket and sleeping bag. Carry your cash inside your sleeping bag, not in your pocket. Stay dry, avoid the rain and puddles at all costs, don't linger in one place to long, don't go to the same places every day. MCDONALDS - it's cheap and high calories, protien and fat plus it has free wifi it's warm and the people are working minimum wage they won't kick you out worse they do is ask if you're ok.
I'm not scrawny. White 6' 170lbs. But I look scared and out of the element. But I'm tucked away pretty well. I used to go here when I was depressed and got high. Now i live here.
But I'm down for the latter. It'd be more meaningful and kinda fun. I won't be as big of a waste as I am now. the TOR is all talk and I find no help.
I have been homeless for around a year. First of all, chill out. Tons of your ancestors lived the way you are now basically. Humans are designed for it. Find a quiet spot and get some sleep. I really don't know enough about you, what is your goal? In my case, I didn't really have one other to survive and browse the internet. If I was you, tomorrow, go to social services and see what they will give you, automatically you will qualify for food stamps, thats all the food you will need. Then chill out rest of day and relax. But I doubt that, you seem like most normies and will probably cry to your mom and go back home in a day or two so whatever.
wow we are literally the same kind of? i was almost homeless a couple days ago.
hang in there family. sending good vibes your way. stop telling yourself you are to blame, it doesn't matter who is at fault, all that matters is shit sux right now.
MY CONCERN IS NOT WHERE TO GET FOOD SND WATER. IM NOT AN IDIOT. ITS HOW DO I GET OUT OF THIS HOLE? With no one to fall on I just keep falling and falling. If my mind is paralyzed what do I do???
This is my struggle. I wish it was just food and water. Even the weather isn't phasing me. It's the despair.
I've slept out on the street once (and another time in the woods) because I lost my wallet and was out of town without my car. Shit fucking sucked and no one would answer the phone because it was already midnight. Fell asleep for 3 hours in an abandoned house like a squatter until I finally got a phone call at 7am.
Pills have a very high failure rate. A firearm is the best option but jumping off a bridge or in front of a train have very high success rates.
You sound miserable and you're not going to do anything to change your situation. You should just kill yourself.
>i was almost homeless a couple days ago
guarantee this is some over exaggerated bullshit and she wasn't anywhere near "almost homeless". shut the fuck up whore, the people with real problems are speaking
Eh, it's less how well designed we are and more a matter of how hazardous it becomes as a member of an underclass in a social organization that has neither safetynet or tolerance of vagrancy.
But yeah, pretty much all that.
Senpai, as an actualized adult there is nobody to fall back on. Parents die and friends only have so much room between everything they're doing. You need to be able to get by. More to the point, you've got a ton of anons trying to give you some calming advice and perspectives on how THEY got out of the hole with no backup.
Shit sucks, we all feel you, we've all been on the first night out and you have no clue wtf is even going on, what tomorrow or a month or a year from the present emergency looks like.
The most important thing you can do is try to REST if there's no going back tonight so you can go through the usual public aid routine/shelter/agency routine. At least IMO.
Yeah. That was the final nail. My own mother, my last support fallen. Fuck life. Twenty three, my birthday is on February 24th and I am 100% killing myself before then. I won't ever see my ex, I won't ever go on the WSOP, so much I won't experience.
No they lived in either villages or as tribes moving around. What that guy is experiencing is more akin to dumping a monkey who lived comfortably in the zoo
its entire life straight into the wilderness, alone.
Jump in front of a train imo, thats what I will do as soon as I get kicked out, which... my parents would rather just take away my vidya than kick me out..
Think of this as a (shitty and sad of course) opportunity to summon the courage to get out of this gay Earth
i am sincere. your life isn't over, hang in there bud. mental quicksand is a good way of putting it, but maybe get on some anti-depressants or something to calm the distress.
no one is ever going to understand how you're feeling right now other than people who have been there, and kek, i have been there.
if you're ever in ontario let me now and i'll offer you a couch or something.
>she can't stand my depression, kicks me while I'm down while telling me to "kill yourself and follow through with something"
Where are you? Want to meet up and go rape that bitch?
was going to leave him with my parents
>why don't you just live with your parents
because they fucking hate me, i'm basically an orphan. 2bh my mom would probably poison my pupper so i'd probably just adopt him out to a decent family
>I used to go here when I was depressed and got high. Now i live here
Fuck man, this really got to me.
My mom? Los Angeles. I thought about murdering her to teach her not to treat people like this. But if much prefer her living in shame knowing she pushed her son over the edge.
Fuck. This is tough to be honest. No where near anyone without transport. I just want a hug and cry. I miss my ex so much even while I'm homeless. Falling in love and losing it is a fate worse than death.
your right, because its hard for someone like me to be homeless. all i had to do was reach out to a couple friends i have in a lesfem group on facebook and i suddenly have three couches to sleep on, room for my dog, and money thrown at me.
feels good to be loved and there ain't no love like another woman's love.
Your mom sounds like a cunt like mine, mine sided w/ my pedophile abusive ex like the cunt she is. Wish you were at least on the east coast
Also, seriously, go on meds. I don't care how memetier they are. Your "love" for your ex is codependent psychosis and you will be so much better functioning when you are numbed from it. Don't kill yourself 2bh.
This is what you get for living a normie life for any amount of time. The rest of you fucking normies better watch out, this is what's coming your way.
Two years best friends. Seven years best fiends second through fourth year we saw each other every day. We had an amazing story. I told her I loved her. She said she just wanted a friend. I stayed with it for another year and it finally came through. All to throw it away when I get cabin fever.
A woman will love you again one day. Your ex wasn't the only one. Just focus on taking care of yourself anon. Forget about the past. There is a reason why it's the past.
Please don't kill yourself senpai. ;_;
My parents have threatened to kick me out multiple times, but the only time where I was truly on my own I wasn't even living with them, I was in another country and was trying to leave my ex who was a pedo who cucked me. My parents had no idea at all and don't really care much about that situation, so yeah I guess of my own accord.
I am a failed normie for sure. Countless robots have it worse and stick it though. I am spoiled in the regard. I am moderately attractive, skinny, and charismatic. But it all went to shit because of a FUCKKNG GIRL I HSTE HER SL MUCH. FUUCK. I WANT TO GI TO SAN DIEGO AND CHOKE HER AND STARE INTO HER EYES AS THE ELECTIRCTIY LEAVESS FCK
Mystery, you are an awful person and I genuinely want nothing but bad things to happen to you.
This man is literally at the lowest point he'll ever be in his life, and you decide to make even this thread all about yourself while bragging about the fact that you have too many social connections to become homeless. Go fuck yourself, GO FUCK YOURSELF.
You guys are all cunts.
You seriously don't have tripfags filtered yet?
idk what its like in americuck but in canada you can pretty much show up to a hospital and tell them you are suicidal and they will take you in and put you on meds if you honestly are
do americucks not have health insurance?
crying all night on the street won't do him any good. do you WANT him to kill himself? i don't, his soul seems pure and good
Aww whitey fucked himself up and can't get back on his feet! Hahaha what a fucking retard. I hope you die in the cold, nigger. It's fucking SIMPLE: save up money, hit the homeless shelter, and work your way with a fucking job out of the rut. It isn't rocket science. It isn't college algebra. It's the easiet shit.
AgainC j hope you are killed by a pack of feral niggers. Goddamn whites people squandering your fucking benefits then whining
>baaaaw how get out of self inflicted circumstances?!?!?!
over two years ago i was in a foreign country with only my passport and a few short documents after catching the man that i had wasted my entire life on cheating on me with 15 year old girls (under the A o C in the country) and watching cp
if anyone can relate to OP its me, i didn't know anyone other than him and i didnt even have the ability to contact anyone or post on fucking /r9k/. i had to be interrogated by the cops for two hours because i couldnt come up with ID because i didnt want to go to the fucking police station and stay the night in jail in a foreign fucking country for loitering you fucking fucks
i was literally on the brink of committing suicide but i am very glad i didnt because yes, now, i have people in my life who genuinely love me. op will get there one day too.
Check yourself into a psych ward, they'll keep you until they find a place for you to stay long-term. You get to stay in a nice comfy hospital in the mean time; three meals a day, a bed, and lots of crazies screaming throughout the night.
No. But it's like a mirage. I can't help myself. My life is ending and I'm thinking to myself if my ex is thinking of me. I'm ill over a girl. Not even a 10, just my best friend that hasn't responded to my daily texts for a year. All she says is "stop Aric"
>waah i have problems too PAY ATTENTION TO ME
>on the brink of suicide because you didn't want to spend one measly night in jail
You can't even fathom. I put all my eggs in one basket. I threw the basket In river. Then I put all my chips down on getting her back. Burning family, friends, and financial bridges. Thanks tho.
Dunno if this helps, but here's some advice: Check dumpsters behind supermarkets. Make sure to check the expiration dates, as it'll most likely still be passable a little after the date. Also, if you find any bakery type places, then ask for bread leftovers and/or old bread. Best of luck, OP.
>me me me me me me me me ME ME ME ME ME
You are pathologically self-obsessed. And literally no one is going to care about your sob story, because we all hate your fucking guts and WANT bad things to happen to you. You're not a good person. Hell, you aren't even an INTERESTING person. I care about Eggman because he at least makes me laugh sometimes. You, on the other hand, contribute nothing to this board or the world.
>Falling in love and losing it is a fate worse than death.
I feel you, especially when it's your first love and you've never had anyone that really cared for you before that. My life spiralled out of control after I lost her and I'd be homeless if not for the support of my parents. It still a bit more than a year later. It's surprising I'm still alive.
>on the brink of suicide because i just found out the man i moved half way across the world for cucked me with children
OP leave some way to send you some money. i have like not so much money in my account but i dont mind helping out someone who actually knows what tragedy feels like
Women cannot understand love or comprehend it like a man. Women do not love like a man. They are children controlled completely by their desires and impulses. They just move on to another boy, they don't know how to give love. They only know how to receive love, attention and praise.
being homeless is easy as fuck and you'll get used to it. that said it's debilitating as fuck, and i STRONGLY reccomend staying the fuck away from other homeless people and try your best to not look homeless. I was homeless for a year or so, so if you want any tips or anything just ask
start again, and this time put all your time into yourself
Never ever ever have your life revolve around one woman, women prey on guys who do that and take advantage of them, and by the end they have nothing left.
Women are best used as an amusement in life, have 3 or 4 at once (but make sure they don't know about each other)
Fucking this. Fuck you mystery, go to hell and get raped by a pack of feral niggers. Eggman? He legitimately wants to help people and actually tries to. He doesn't put forth these empty ass "lol Yol get through it xDDD" messages. He doesn't make shit about him. you? You're a piece of shit. Drink bleach.
The worst part I suppose. After j left her. She came to my apartment one day unannounced. Crying at the door, asked me to get my stuff and let's start over. I looked at her dead in the eyes and said "no" next day I regretted it. But I did too much damage.
Mystery is fine right now. She under estimates how easy she has it. Leave her be. I just want to keep reading till one of you say something to make me actually lay down on the train tracks
>i STRONGLY reccomend staying the fuck away from other homeless people
I've never been homeless, but when imagining it I always get the feel this is a good idea. Can you elaborate, what are your experiences?
Okay OP, here is what you're going to do
Stop being a pussy about the train tracks
Go whore your boi pussy out for some heroin
At least go out in a bang, fuck. Maybe opiates can be your new gf. There is so much to live for.
i was homeless for two years (by choice more or less). i had food stamps and would steal food on a daily basis - i was in a tech neighborhood and i'd coordinate the food heist when 100s of workers would flood into this market that had a buffet. basically i'd go in there fill up a to go box, get a drink, then walk out and only once was i apprehended by loss prevention. i said 'fuck off or either you pay for this food because i'm severely hungry or get out of my way'. one of them tried to grab my arm and said 'get your dirty mutt hands off me you shit bag' i'm yelling really loud at this point and they just let me go.
i had a sleeping bag i'd just sleep outside had like 5 different spots. all in all my best advice for you is look at it like an excursion and watch the shit out of society. see how it operates, the people, the cars, the busy lifestyle, and realize none of it really matters. just do what you got to do and try get out.
>I just want to keep reading till one of you say something to make me actually lay down on the train tracks
Either something happens when you die, or it doesn't, forever. Forever is so absurd it makes more sense to me that something will happen, seeing as how it already did once to break the last period of "forever."
Thats what I'll tell myself if I need the courage to do it
My friend sent me a link to this thread. Hope you get your shit together OP.
We aren't the only ones giving her attention.
If we completely ignored her, she would still have an army of orbiters to feed her ego. At least this way we might be able to take her down a notch and get her to leave.
OP go join the Marine Corps. You'll get really fit, get your mind set straight, become an alpha and if you want to go to college for free when you get out. That or join the Navy and travel for free.
Update. Going on a nightwalk to clear my head and stand up. Hid my bag in the crawl space. If it gets stolen I'm done.
Op, you managed to reach normie life once
There is nothing you can't do
I know how first love hurts, I have oneitis
You never really "get over it"
But you can distract yourself
Don't give up OP
Don't believe in yourself, belive in me who believes in you
Life is a bitch, but you just gotta learn how to fuck it
wow holy fuck. i was rooting for you before, but now i think you should go lay on some train tracks. Being homeless in america is easier than life in lots of other places. man up you cry baby bitch.
Can't shower. Long gap in employment.
Mentally unstable due to unhealthy obsession. I'm in a bad place. Even Walmart wouldn't hire me. I worked for a huge company as a sales rep. I was doing so well but I flew too close to the sun and my wings burned sending me plummeting to earth.
Thanks buddy. No homo but I just want to be held. At this point I don't care if you're a guy I just hate feeling THIS alone
All valid points. Even though I hate you for being a asshole. I don't wish this pain on anyone. To cut a hole out of yourself to make room for someone, just to have them gone leaving you with a gaping chasm. Thanks anon I'll see you in hell.
Dude you can't accept those things as part of your identity.
You can rise above, but you have to shed all those false conceptions of yourself.
You can wash. People itt told you how: supemarkets
I suggested going to random restaurants and asking if they need dishwashers
They always do. They won't care if you're scruffy as fuck.
You have to evolve
anon im a 40 year old man,i have been with this boy through 2 divorces an eviction and this kid helped me quit drinking.
and his favourite movie was finding nemo.Loved that dumb movie till he was 17,and he was psyched about the finding dory movie.
and through all this shit he just kept telling me to"just keep swimming."
one day while at work i heard he got hit by a car,fuck everyone in this thread saying kill yourself or trying to sympa-advertise with you.
im begging you from man to man,please dont do it
>tfw i realize this isnt the manchild board after all
Op, honestly. This is all your fault, stop with that " I'm so sad because I kicked my gf", stop being a spoiled little brat and unfuck yourself. First time life throw a obstacle at you, and you behave like this? Just be a man and get over this shit.
Stop being such a faggot. Nobody deserves to suffer because you are too weak to handle their suicide.
i promised myself id see that movie with him,but for closure i will.
anon i want you to just breathe.
now that you have literally nothing to distract you,cause you have lost it all.
make sure theres no one around,close your eyes and just try and meditate until you are calm enough to think out a course.
that one anon that said he was from cincinatti.reply to him and see what you can work out.
fish cant drown anon,you just think you are drowning,the only obstruction is your mind.
he once told me that we should both shave our heads and become monks.
learn how to use a staff and all that stuff.
we used to love cheesy kung fu flicks,just imagine all the cool stuff you can do in life
well if he wants to kill himself,i cant stop him nor can i hate him for it.
and i dont like how you guys just compare with him,saying that ppl have been through worse ,we all differ in mental strength.
im just voicing my concern on a bloody imageboard,i know its not much but all i can do is level with him using words.
OP Why kill yourself when you haven't even lived. Like another poster said, you're homeless in America, do you know what that means? This could be you OP
You could blog about your life, set up an ad sense account, say some stuff about being homeless. You have 0 obligations and responsibilities right now. Just spend some time up keeping your appearance, go out and about on nice days to the beach if you can, and spend time talking to people. I'd also do what another anon said about couch surfing. I'm also not sure how close you live to LAX, but you always could buy a refundable first class ticket, indulge at the complementary bar, and then refund your ticket. You also could make posts on Craigslist that you're looking for a roommate. Honestly OP I feel like you're trolling at this point
>Can't shower. Long gap in employment.
>Mentally unstable due to unhealthy obsession. I'm in a bad place. Even Walmart wouldn't hire me.
You can still get a job at a place that nobody else wants to work. Like washing dishes at some fly by night eatery, scrubbing tires and fenders at a brushless car wash, cleaning the floor and polishing body panels at an auto detail shop.
I have 1.58$ to my name. No friends. So now. I can't even get one of you to be my friend what would a blog do? I'm too robot for normies, too normie for robots. Im alone. Nothingg
The clothes on my back. Plus a pair of shorts, underwear and socks. A towel and jacket. the cycle is already half way through. Job is out of reach, im more worried about a bed or even four walls.
of course, because you're pathetic and desperate like most men
>I have $1.58 to my name
Use a free wordpress or blogger in the meantime, you can use adsense for a free blogger account but you need to make like 7 - 11 posts, I can link you/email you more info if you're interested. This wouldn't solve your problems however
>I'm alone, I'm too robot for normies too normie for robots
ANON you're going to have to talk to strangers if you want to live life. You have to make an effort to look presentable ie - go in a convenience store, open up their product, apply it on your body (think deodorant/hairgel).
You should also look at staying at a church/asking them for money, and you could talk to them about your problems which = potential friends, or at least someone that can help.
What I'm saying is anon is that if you want to live, not just exist, you're going to have to learn how to talk to people, be willing to be uncomfortable, and change OP. You HAVE to be willing to change. Right now, you're a loser, finding ways out, to lose at life. You're going to have to change your attitude, and find ways to win at life. If you can promise me and yourself that you'll go out of your comfort zone to find a way to win, and get out of your situation, then I can promise you that you'll make it out.
it looks like her only kiss was a really hard fall on concreet
But >>25783251 is driving close to where you are now. Let me guess, you don't want his help because it's not "genuine" help.
Staples was my first real job. Computer technician and salesman for two years. Left to work in a legal weed shop. Left that for a better paying illegal weed shop. Last job was at a high end dog food company that paid so well and let me travel. I've squandered being born in Santa Monica to middle class, friends, family, the love of my life and great employment. I hate myself more than any of you could. I kind of just want to share my story. Feel some sort of companionship until you all leave and I finally get the curage.
Wrong. Gf led to my mental deterioration.
>>25783516 he never said he was driving near me. One said Gardena which is far. One said saticoy and laurel crayon which is close. But he didn't offer. Just telling me.
No problem anon, these were both me. Do you have a way I can contact you? I can't really offer a place to stay right now as I'm living with my girlfriend and still standing up, I can offer advice and company, from someone who's actually been there and done that. Do you have Kik? Also my journey started in LA, try and stay there at least until the summer. Is there really no way you can go back to your ex?
Two periods. I don't know how this will help. I've told everyone in my life this story. They all say "move on" of course j want to forget. I am physically and mentally unable to move on
>There is a train very close by.
This reminds me. A friend of my traveled across the US and Canada by just riding the rails. He wasn't even homeless, but he wanted to do it. It was pretty rough and nasty, but he survived. Dude's a real adventurer though. But anyway, the point is, maybe its something that you might be interested in. He ate at homeless shelters n shit though.
You haven'y gone to car detailin shops, car washes, body shops or oil change outfits have you? They hire anyone.
Also telemarketing jobs hire anyone who ahas a pulse, within 48 hours.
Lost count of dishwasher. At least 12 waiters/bus boy
Countless retail since j have a lot of sales experience.
Can't get sales job due to last sales job firing me and huge gap in work.
Dishwashers 9/10 times say I need to know Spanish to talk to the other dishwashers / staff. Which is illegal but it's all under the table.
They are all commission and j ask people who I see work there. They make no money for months on end. It's all random. I just need a little support, so I can stand up on my own. But I wasted my chances I suppose.
>white people sleeping on cardboard and eating pizza crust out of the trash
Jeeze, listen to these first world problems you guys. Think about how those poor asylum seekers are doing in their taxpayer-funded pads, eating hot meatballs and mashed potatoes and grabbing any woman in sight for ficki ficki
It's a narrow alley. So I couldn't get the shadow. Here's a shit rabbit.
I'm there with you in spirit OP. You're gonna make it. Getting the girl of your dreams won't solve any of your problems. Girls make problems, and to date one you need to get your shit together to the point where you can handle a few more problems.
I wasn't being ironic though. Here in Europe it is literally impossible to become homeless. You will be given shelters, neetbux heck even apartments to live in cheaply if you are that poor.
Consider moving to a civilized country senpai.
Telemarketing jobs are NOT all commission. They are minimum wage draw(by law) with bonuses for sales. Nobody can pay you below min wage for any kind of work if you're an employee.
It is now that I'm actually getting paychecks.
And I will become successfulif it's the last thing I do.
I feel like shit waking up exhausted and busting my ass every day but once I'm up and running, I'm extremely motivated and constantly thinking of success.
We're going to make it god damn it.
I would really consider the idea with the mental hospital. I am not familiar with the `murican social system and how far psychological treatment can go but it can give you some hold i think
Depression can have a cause, being stuck in mental quicksand, feeling like your mind is paralized with despair and actually planning to commit suicide soon are depression-talk.
Just do it, go there, by the way you are talking right now, no one would say you are not depressed.
I have clothes and food for now. I can assure I am genuinely in an alley. But these I feel would just waste your time since it's not going to help much. Even if an anon let me sleep on a couch tonight the clock would just start until I'm back in the elements. Appreciate it so much and its comforting.
My kik is "j.lemon." If Anyone is unsure of my legticmacy.
Wow. You're so right. That comment mae me realize I'm so wrong and I'm actually very happy. Not everyone is he same. Not everyone acts the same. I am clawing the ground as I drag myself to my demise. I don't want to die but it appears my only remedy. Fuck you for thinking you have an incling of what I'm going through. I hope you feel what I am experiencing right now so you'll understand. Hopefully I'll have made it through so I can laugh and push you closer to the edge as you have to me.
The way I read it seemed like sarcasm and that you believe that because I express my concerns I am not truly depressed.
It honestly doesn't bother me they you laugh. You don't knew me so of course you can distance yourself from my struggles and laugh. Totally understandable. Just because I'm in pain doesn't mean you should get your kicks.
FUCK OxFF NORMIE REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
WHAT?? why would i do that... read it again, where on earth was the sarcasm. I told you, that you everything you said pointed towards being heavily depressed and that EVERY psychologist would believe you, so you should go to the hospital.
And by the way i survived a suicide attempt so this would be the last thing i would make fun of.
Nigga go back to your Mom's house and tell her you are going to fight depression, that you are going to get your shit together.
Gf of 5years dumped me a weak ago, she's already on Tinder, she was my first I never had sex with another woman, she forbid me to do tons of stuff with her, sometime I couldn't even touch her breast, she had "issues" for 5 years that are actually healed now and I'm pretty sure she fucks Chad on a daily basis while I'm broken and paralysed when In front of a girl.
All to say that I'm fucking broken, can't stop thinking about her even if she treated me like shit and betrayed me, the guy that loved her the most, and yet I force myself and try to move on.
It's hard anon, but I fyou stay by yourself in the streets, you are going to lose it for good.
At least talking to someone and explaining them what you are feeling and about your suicidal thoughts can really help you, i know that.
Though i would be careful in your position with Anitdepressants like Venlafaxin because you really need to take them regulary and i am not sure weither you could provide yourself with them without problems. They can really cause bad side-effects when you lay them off after taking them for a while.
>literally getting to the point where you lose your job because you broke up with someone
Maybe I could possibly understand if she died and you were stricken with grief but you are one petty faggot.
"Kill yourself and follow through with something" is actually some top tier advice.
Then you know how I feel on some level. Reading countless Anons talking about how they are remarried for twenty years and they still think about their first love.
I'm not living life a prisoner for my ex. She owns me and controls me without talking to me or being in my life.
My mom knows all of these things and my depression. She thinks I'm weak for being depressed. Especially over a girl. She looks down on me for my situation. That's why I'm here.
love is a hell of a drug nigga, I just broke up with my first love and I'm telling you that this is the hardest shit I have ever been through, a pure sempiternal nightmare.
Especially when you are the part that suffers the most, while the other part is having fun banging dudes that are better than I am.
Being forgotten by someone you cannot stop thinking about is pure hell.
Right now you sould just lay down and try to relax.This is a fucked up situation, But right now you should focus on trying to get into a more stable mental state. just lay down for a few and try to sleep to take some of the stress out. after that you have to start making decisions on how you will get out of this mess.
My top-tier advice to you is to lick my toilet clean after i take a huge dump, you malicious, sadistic little faggot. I hope everyone you love dies and you will end up as a humeless cum-dumpster.
Killing yourself with pills is harder than they make it out to be in newspapers. I've tried. Several times. You just wake up a few days later, not knowing what you have done. Most homeless people get enough money begging to support a very expensive drug-habit. Lose all your pride and you'll do better than most working people to be honest.
I don't, I just got back from the clubs with my only friend 6 hours of pure hell, couldn't stop thinking about her, checked up her Snapchat story and she was with some dude...literally broke me man. I try to do shit, started going to the gym, studying hard as fuck at uni, try to hangout with my nigga but the pain is neverending.
I hope, hope helps a lot, I just hope that someday I'll meet somebody better than her, somebody that won't abandon me like she did, somebody that would love me in a simple way. But I'm pretty sure I'm fucked, 24 never fucked another girl than my ex, I have nothing to offer.
I still fail to understand how she could possibly erase me like that, I wasn't the best boyfriend on the planet, but oh my fucking god I didn't deserved what she did to me.
You are going to move on no matter what man, no matter how hard it is, you'll have no other choice, she's going to have a new life and a new dude, probably better than you (I'm sorry it's not an insult is to help you understand) you have to fight, fight with all your might to survive this shit and move forward, you'll find someone better.
Something different - Have you tried talking to her again and telling her how big of a mistake you made and that this seperation literally ruined you?
I mean it is not like you have betrayed her, you just kind of "ended" it in peace, did you?
So as far as i see, a lot of your depression could be cured by getting back to your former state with her.
The thing is. He's not better. Just not obsessed over her which she can't stand. I know the nigger and know I have a bigger dick. She loved me. I wrote earlier but I'll say it again.
I can't move on for one reason: a month or two after I left my ex I get a knock at my door, it's her crying. She begs me "come back, get your stuff and we'll fix it" I looked at her dead in the eyes and said no.
That's why. That's fucking why
Shit OP, if you were in walking distance of me I would let you crash in my spare room.
Unfortunately I'm in the norcal mountains.
I wish you all the luck in the world m8. I wish I could help.
Also, I have anxiety and depression too, your mom is a cunt for doing that to you. I'm sorry.
Hang in there /b/uddy
OP's mom was right
She knows he wont actually do it because he's a pussy.
OP should kill himself.
He's making literally nothing into something for attention, it's probably why the girl left him, he has serious attachment issues and should see a therapist, and stop threatening to kill himself unless he will actually do it.
It's been two years since I left her. A year since I had sex with her. Every day I write her. Paragraphs spilling my soul. At first she responded how we needs space and she'll come back. Then the "stop Aric you're dramatic" now six months since the last response.
It's been two years and I still refer to her as my girlfriend to strangers. Lying to them or mainly myself.
If he's not better then another guy will be, stop deluding yourself. If there is hope with the girl, give all your remaining strenght to pick up the pieces and really try your best, do everything that you can do, If even after doing the best the relationship is still dead and burried, then It's tome to wake the fuck up and start thinking about YOURSELF. If you did everything you can, you can't do more, if so move on.
it's not that bad. Being an urban outdoorsman might give you time to stop doing stuff. The reason you are on your phone is because you are addicted to stuff happening. And that makes you unhappy. Give it a week. If you grow into someone that can handle just being, not someone doing something or thinking something or being entertained by something... Then you will probably become an emotionally more balanced human being.
And there in lies the problem. I'm not forcing myself to think about her and stay obsessed. I can't stop. I mentally cannot stop. I wake up and reach across my bed to touch her and the been TWO YEARS.
Maybe you should meet in person. Texting kind of sucks for those kind of talks that should be face to face. Maybe if she realized how you actually changed for the negative (yes you can tell if someone is depressed) it would make her feel something ... i dont know. Some conversation work out much better in person, i know from experience.
You gotta get help. Commit yourself. This problem is far more than being homeless. This will either end in your suicide or you gotta get help. I'm in your shoes rn and I hope to god it doesn't last two years.
It's time to let go man, you are ruining yourself, over somebody else, you are more important, you have to focus on yourself, she won't come back man I'm sorry. You know that she won't come back so why don't you try and accept it, try to go step by step, stop texting her, or text her less, try and meet people I don't know, you are in deep shit so keep the socialization for later, first thing you have to do is fix your shit, back to your moms you go, bullshit her like crazy, tell her that this night outside made tou think real bad and you are really ready to sort shit up.
Seriously man, we can't help you If you live for a ghost, It's time to live for yourself, she won't do it for you, nobody else is here for you, so either you do something right now or you won't see the summer
Girls are never worth it. I been through a rough spot just like you. People can have addictive properties and when they're gone you relapse. Focus on bettering you're position. Cry and scream if it helps you get it out of your system but once that's over you're done. Move on, she's out forever and you'll have to search deep inside you to make things better.
These are the times that try men's souls
Stay strong anon. Theses are the times that try men's souls.
I literally just heard about this tripfag in some other thread with some betas discussing some vocaroo thing >she did.
Good to know that mystery.jpg is par for the course as far as women and tripfags on /r9k/ are.
Step away from the keyboard. This isn't the site for you. There's this place where you can have everyone feel bad for you and attract the attention of orbiters just like you can here, it's called Reddit. There's even a nifty scoring system so you can know how much of a special snowflake you really are.
I advise you stay there a while, and can come back when you understand that having tits doesn't entitle you to hijack a thread.
>tfw you will never build a small woodland village for homeless anons.
>tfw you will never teach them a trade and form a successful business.
>tfw you will never take them as live-in disciples, teaching them martial arts and forming a private anachronistic army.
I probably could arrange this, but alas I live on the other side of the country.
Just keep surviving and find a job asap. Good luck anon.
Fuck you. I payed taxes for this very reason. I'm not the kid at 18 never working going right on welfare. I tried faggot. Also you probably contributed .52$ for all the money I'll get this year.
I've been there. I forced myself to be loyal to a girl who wasn't loyal to me. I moved away from her. 6 months without seeing her. I come back and things are like they used to be. I leave again and she gets a new bf within 3 weeks. I'm fucked. But I have to accept that I'm better than her. I made the mistakes that originally caused the first breakup. I punished myself for too long. I might kill myself too btw. I honestly would but I need a better reason cause doing it for a stupid cunt would make me a pussy. Women are garbage. It's awful.
>how hazardous it becomes as a member of an underclass in a social organization that has neither safetynet or tolerance of vagrancy
Exactly, even if you get attacked and are able to defend yourself, cops can just show up with guns and handcuffs and cart you off to prison.
just do drugs trust makes everything better man, a little bit of opium, heroin, or painkillers and your laughing good luck man best wishes! You know what break into the house and steal some shit that could work as well, btw at least you dont look like this!
>carry a knife, always
As a FMA Practioner here are some tips in knife dfense/useage
1: If someone pulls a knife always fucking run if you can
2: Always keep the bleeders on your arm inwards towards you.
3: Try to block the striking arm hard, with the ulna it will hurt but will hurt your attacker more and after one to two strike will effect the momentum of his attack.
4: When blocking almost make a L shape with your forearm and arm, if the angle is off the blow will follow through and you will get nicked in the throat or gut.
5: If you get a chance control his attacking arm and just keeping hit him with the other break his digits gouge the eyes, just keep fucking hitting him till he stops moving.
Thanks for reminding me, I gotta go out and check the mail to see if the monthly check I get just for being born white is in the mail. It's been a hectic week though, so I had kind of forgotten. I mean yesterday was the 14th, which you probably know is the designated day every month that, if you are white, you can get all the free groceries that you can fit into your grocery cart.
I am literally drowning in these benefits, it's amazing
you fucking retard
Fucking faggot If I lived in burgerland I would buy you dinner, a drink then punch you like the weakwilled faggot you are, come on anon youe are fucking your life FOR A GIRL.
YOU ARE YOUNG AND YOU ARE DOOMING YOURSELF BECAUSE OF A FUCKING GIRL.
I'm pretty sure one day when you passed that awful period in your life you will laugh about it
>your "love" for your ex is codependent psychosis
This is actually true. OP sounds like an extremely emotionally unstable faggot. How could you let a woman get to you this badly? If you were stupid enough to trust one it's hard to pity you.
I'm actually not clingy. I want to live with her and see her every night like j used to. Maybe when you turn fifteen and you go into puberty you'll understand. Girls are icky at your age.
Why would someone have such strong feelings toward someone that isnt related to you as a family member, this just proves that you have a weak as fuck family that sucks cock. Honestly, family will always be their to help you out a stupid cunt will not end of story, for you not to comprehend this tells me your a dumb fucker that probably had it coming lol you reap what you sow
My family hasn't been there for me since fifth grade. She was my family. She was my sister, best friend, confidant, everything. We were codependent. Then I left her. She got used to it and moved on before I could stop it.
Sound clingy to me, so much so that you have single handedly fucked yourself not only emotionally but physically as well and while your out in the cold your cunt you call your true love is getting pounded by someone who isn't yourself pathetic desu!!
shit man that sucks
have you considered welfare or a homeless shelter? those are the only things i can think of
prolly not a good idea to leave your bag but its night so it hsould be good. your moms a cunt for telling you to kill yourself and kicking you out when you needed help
keep your chin up man, shit really sucks and you gotta try to pull through! good luck with everything :^)
If you want to come out of this situation alive your going to have to take some responsibility and kill the bitch! Make her pay and to assume you know someone like a sister and end up the way you did proves your perception on the matter is fucked
Not clingy But the rest is true. She has me wrapped around her finger without talking to me or me in her life. I did this to myself. Thanks I guess for the image of her getting fucked. Suicide and >>25785576 are my only option.
If anything it would be appropriate to think of me as your brother, allow me to be the path that guides you to self redemption, KILL THEM ALL!! I will not abandon you my son, allow me to provide the path and you walk along it.....
Different guy, never been homeless, but I'd imagine the reason for avoiding other homeless is that they tend to be fucked up, untrustworthy, often with drug problems or mental illnesses, and associating with them will drag you deeper into homelessness instead of out of it.
Anon, woman are fucking death traps. They are very nice to look at and sometimes be with but they should never be the end goal. I listened to this show about relationships it's called the black phillip show, you can find it on youtube. It's a real eye opener. Woman will never fill the void you're feeling. You got to do that yourself. Woman are the just reward when you are successful at something worthwhile. Pay no mind to woman they don't know any better. They're just that fucking dumb.
Not that anon. social services were made for people in your situation, to help you get back on your feet.
But the main reason to get a job quickly is because the longer you stay on the street, the more your hygiene will decline and the harder it will be to get a job if you're filthy and ragged. Once you have a job, you can pay cheap rent and be back on the grid.
If you need a reason to live, strive to become the best walmart/mcdonalds manager the world has ever seen.
Hamiltonbot to be exact.
Surprised there aren't more robots around her because of the welfare and mental illness in the city.
>Don't believe in yourself, belive in me who believes in you
nigga u fucked up the quote
you've encapsulated her posts, well done.
she has become twice as obnoxious lately with her bullshit, "y-you robots are worthless and will cuck me" while dating a robot tripfag, and then recently she's been making every thread about her at an alarming rate.
I wish we just did away with tripcodes, they ruin more than they help.
OP, do you need a motel room for the night? Are you near a motel? If you can hold out for an hour and a half, and its not outrageously expensive I could probably pay for you to have a safe place to sleep for the night.
I was homeless for a day
Living with mom now though
Gotta agree with psyche ward peeps in this thread, it can be pretty comfy and maybe you can find a room mate or something
Hopefully your local Walmart is a safehaven for the homeless if you don't have access to a shelter. Learn to fly signs, get a good pair of Carhartt overalls for everyday wear, if you know you can take adequate care of it adopt yourself a companion dog from a shelter. You can keep each other company (also if you're busking or whatever you'll get more money if you have a dog but that SHOULD NOT be why you get one for fuck sake) and it'll help you get over your girlfriend/shit family to have a bond with a sweet animal and maybe raise your self esteem by rescuing and being responsible for it. Get a good light water bottle and a utensil you can use to fill it up in a public bathroom (sturdy cup?). You can safely sleep at some public libraries. Check out your local food bank. Keep your feet as clean as you can.
>I also had an awful nightmare that night, that a man was stood over me holding a knife and just staring at me as I couldn't utter words, then I woke up.
That sounds like sleep paralysis, granted you were sleeping in the woods while homeless so it's pretty easy for the mind to drum up horrible situations when you were in the position you were in.
Could have easily been a nightmare but if you were awake and couldn't move/breathe than it was definitely sleep paralysis. It's happen to me several times and for some people it happens every night, it's a horrible thing to experience.
Most of the time for me I see a shadowy figure standing at the edge of my bed or standing over me while I lay in bed and staring at me, it usually doesn't have a face but it looks like some demonic shadow figure. I feel like I'm underwater and can't breathe, like wadding through mud and I can't scream or talk.
It is truly a horrible experience
If you are a nigger than your post is pure irony since niggers are mostly unemployed and uneducated, I'm not defending OP but I just wanted to point out that usually black people have zero work ethic and want to live off the government, at least white people pursue employment though I can't speak for all white people.
For fuck's sake, stop with all the autistic metaphors. No wonder your ex doesn't want anything to do with you.
Pretty much everything's been said already, we've told you what you need to do to get out of your situation. You also sound like you could really benefit from psychological help.
Okay so I think we can all agree that a somewhat long-term solution for OP would be
>find/get to a homeless shelter
>ask around for work
>go back to mother and convince her that he has a job and is no longer a depressed (obviously he'd be lying), just ask if he can move back in for a while to get back on his feet
Walmart near me is the only Walmart I've heard of thst closes st 11. Not great for hobos.
Homeless shelters inLA are tricky. So crowded thst men's shelters need to get there sometimes as early as 2 just to keep your bed. So if I rely on shelters my life will revolve around homeless shelters and basically have to choose between work or shelter.
I've been away from her for a year separated for two. All I have is time to think of autistic metaphors.
Sell your phone, use the money to buy really warm clothes. If you have leftover buy small amounts of cheap food each day. Or even better buy a cheap instrument and teach yourself how to use it, soon people will be leaving money at your feet for enough for daily meals- eventually a shelter. If you get really good you'll have free time with accomodation and food so you can go and get a part time job and work your way up, eventually getting a shitty apartment. Job sorted.
>So if I rely on shelters my life will revolve around homeless shelters and basically have to choose between work or shelter.
So you're saying it's not enough to be free between 8 am and 2 pm to apply for jobs? And you can probably use your celly to shitpost from 2 to midnight if they have wifi.
It's like your whole thread is filled with excuses. And like I said before telemarketing places hire at minimum wage but you ignored that post. If I said I was beginning to doubt you I'd be lying, because I was doubting you from the start.
>gf of 7 years
lmao you deserve everything coming to you normie scum
I would not sell your phone unless you have no way to get any other food. Without a phone your chances of getting a job are going to plummet in most locations. It's also the cheapest means of accessing wifi/the net, if you have an expansive phone sell it and buy a cheap thing that does what you need it to.
No. I've been applying. Once I get the job now what? I have to leave at 1 everyday?? Think about it. What about after I get the job? I become homeless so j can work the full 40. But then j can't shower and get fired before j can get my first check. This isn't happening over a day. I've been applying for a while.
I would rather resort to petty crime than deal with that bullshit. They don't give a fuck if you are not a minority. They constantly lost my Mother's paperwork. I would take her to the unemployment office to drop off paperwork, since they kept losing it in the mail and online, and they still lost it. A while after she finally got her benefits They tried to fight her for all of it back. It's a fucking joke.
Doubt me all you want. Is my whole world balancing on your beliefs? You're right. I'm lying because you don't believe me. Sorry sensei. Kill yourself sensei so I can meet you in hell.
>Once I get the job now what?
You contact your mom and beg her to let you stay with her for a while. I know it's not cool but you don't have the luxury of having pride right now. When you get the job, tell her and ask her if it's ok to move back in for a while until you have enough money to get a deposit on an apartment or something.
Fuck man, why/how did you lose your first job again?
OP I was homeless in Los Angeles for 10 months.
FIRST OFF ABSOLUTELY DO NOT SELL YOUR FUCKING PHONE.
You fucking need it to get out of this situation.
Next, I hate to tell you this bro, but you might have to get down to Skid Row (5th & San Pedro). If you do, you need to hit up Union Rescue Mission and places that will let you sleep. I stayed at the Weingart Transitional Center for a while. Any shelter WILL make you apply for General Relief at the county though.
I got a job with a company called Staffpro. They do security at events and they'll hire pretty much anyone, I know, because I was barely even interviewed and got hired. They operate in Los Angeles, Orange County, Long Beach, and sometimes Pasadena. It's a bit hard without your own transportation, and it's shitty minimum wage on your feet the whole time work, and it's not steady scheduling, you have to call for your schedule. There are other security companies in LA, but none hire as easily as Staffpro, even though they're really all quite easy. Consider it for apply.
Was the lead salesmen. First employee in Southern California.
Was a God of dog food. I could sell Orijen (after typing this whole come t I realize none of you know what this is 100$) like it was 20$ old Roy.
But when my mental break with ex happened my fuse got short, receded into shyness, sales dropping, calling out a lot but one day my coworker who knew the whole story and met my ex told a customer for some reason. The customer talks to me about it and I say "how the fuck do you know this?" fired that day. but I got that bitch fired as well.
Maybe in places where I don't live. Solar sales is 8-4 any others are 8-4. They all say 8-4 I've never seen any others on clist or otherwise. I'm sure they exist but not near me.
Wow. Finally. First hell no would any white kid go to skid row for any help
But I'm looking up staff pro right now. I'm with two temp agencies but they only give me one day or a week work and it's bullshit.
I dont know what kind of income you have but you can go to busy nightclubs with no cover charge and find money on the ground pretty reliably, especially near the bar. Its not like you have bad clothes.
Then again, I'm talking Australia where we often use $2 coins which people are very prone to dropping.
I'm 24 and the first two years we were best friends and saw each other everyday. We considered this dating even though never had sex with her. But she caught me jerkin off to her once when I slept over and it didn't stop our friendship.
I told her everyday. I love you. She said she just wanted my friendship. I worked for thst shit and didn't have to watch Her get banged by Chad because I was with her everyday.
as much as I'd like a country that had a fast and easy welfare system, half this country despises the idea and Trump seems like he'll start WWIII, and this is coming from a NEET shut-in.
MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN, TRUMP 2016
It's not my fault I was born in Santa Monica. It's not fault all the Mexican migrate here.
I wish there was a natural disaster. Or mass shooting where I am. Or dubyadubya3
My first pic is where I'll sleep tonight. The towel keeps my face warm but even with three socks on each foot my feet are what's cold.
Not sure which. I posted my Kik and two contacted me. One was a really nice guy with experience in this, britboy in Arkansas. Another in Pasadena which I couldn't get to on foot.
Don't give up OP, if you were like this in some 3rd world country you would have been fucked up, but you have a chance in LA, make sure to take the time to walk into places and ask if they have job post available, try to look as decent as possible when doing it. The rent is expensive as fuck maybe you can find a trailer park to settle for a few months and find a job online in a near city where rent is cheaper, and move there with the money you have saved.
I have no knowledge of being a homeless or LA maybe it's not as easy at it seems to do what I said you know better, but you also know you can make it out of this shit with a job and patience until your first pay.
Former hobot reporting in.
I lived in a tomb/crypt at my local Graveyard for close to 3 months, in hindsight it was a pretty good idea due to the fact the only other people I ever came across were joggers, dog-walkers, and goths.
I washed windows at the traffic lights to make money for food.
If you have any questions about how to survive AMA
The only graveyard near me is a military one. I'm not going to federal butt pounding prison. I guess I could go to the one in Santa Monica. But that's a faaaar walk.
Pic related is the first of two giant hobo camps.
I'm sorry you're in this horrible rut anon. It'll be fucking tough. But if you keep on, you can make it out of this. Also consider applying to Securitas, which is a more steady security company, does more boring stuff like being the guard in a lobby, and doesn't hire as easily. You mentioned your aversion to shelters, but I really think you should consider it. Rape wasn't all too common at all on Skid Row. Punches getting thrown though, well I can understand someone like you having a serious aversion to that.
There are a few shelters for men elsewhere, although since I stayed at Skid Row I don't know them. You'll also want to be on the lookout for places that'll give necessities to the poor and homeless. I don't know many places like these either outside of Skid Row on a holiday, but I know they exist, California has the largest homeless population after all. That's another good thing, we also have the most homeless services. Try to keep hope alive inside you.
Good luck stealing the sleeping bag, marks my first time wishing someone succeeds in theft. Maybe try to claim a disability, I dunno. And don't worry, warmer days are ahead. Luckily for me I had went homeless in the summer, so sleeping outside wasn't as hard. Anyways, good night anon.
Fuck anon. In shocked that this board has the amount of positivity I've received. Thank you. I know about security guard cards but can't pass any sort of physical because of my extreme astnma