Misaki Friday Thread. Your only reason to live.
Vent about your worries while looking at pictures of Misaki.
Everything's going to be d-dajoubu, Anon ;_;
Personally I was supposed to hold two presentations in class this week but I wiggled my way out of both of them. That's a relief, at least until I have to hold them again.
>tfw wageless intern
>have been working 9 to 5 for 5 months
>only 2 weeks left until sweet release from this hell
I can only pray for those who are still stuck in this hell without an end in sight.
Is this an american thing? I wouldn't move my arse unless I got paid.
I can't really participate since I have nothing to vent about - I'm actually quite happy with how my life is going - but I'm a bit of a lurker and I just wanted to wish you all the best, and drop a Misaki pic. I'm sorry I can't do more. I wish I could be someone's Misaki.
>I wish I could be someone's Misaki
This is the feel I am feeling. I'm the worst but if someone like me could be of help to someone it would boost my fragile ego a bit ;_;
Hey guys ;_;
>tfw couldn't create Friday Misaki
>tfw you'll never go to a karaoke
>tfw he has friends who films this
i streamed 2 weeks ago i think? or was it last week?
Good to see you.
The loneliness fades a bit.
The cam is shaking though isn't it?
Why can't I be normal? What's fucking wrong with me. The anxiety creeps in whenever I step out of my house.
I doubt he would have the courage. I know I wouldn't.
>Everyone I passed looked at me. And I was absolutely positive that though it was very, very queit-almost as to escape my hearing-each one of them let out something akin to a giggle
>last week's thread died after just a few posts
Granted it wasn't exactly brimming with activity but I was there until 3am ;_;
i listened to "tenshi wa namida" this morning and it's so relieving , being a wageslave is so tiring
>that feel you'll receive the first payment at this month after the "experience"
there you go anon ;_;
Buy yourself something nice. Having money feels good. tenshi wa namida is a great track. I accidentally forgot to set my alarm today and slept through classes..
Yeah, but if I don't, I'll fail the year and will have wasted money for nothing. Luckily I'll never have to do it again.
Work places are deadly for our kind, people always look down upon you, they get mad when you take breaks and never thank you for anything. I'll be looking into working from home, fuck having to work with other shitty people ever again.
Good lord that sounds awful. Hope you land a home office job.
>tfw working part time
>guy teaches me the basics with the opening line "If you have enough intelligence..."
Fuck that guy. Quit after two months. I swear to god work hierarchy turns people into assholes.
>I-I'll be waitiing for you Misaki-chan! One day we will reunite
>Buy yourself something nice
I'm raising money, I'm gonna try to save at least half this year, this job ends in June, hopefully at the end of the year I'll have enough.
Misaki as my motivation, helps me a lot.
>tfw before sleeping
>picture my life with Misaki
>imagine myself embracing her
>smell her hair
>she smiles at me
>i tear up
>and the alarm rings
back in the good old days these would be weekly threads where we'd stream nhk but misakicrazyfan never hosts them on his twitch anymore (because the filthy traitor became a wageslave), so these threads are mainly just circlejerking nowadays. which is fine if you like that sort of thing.
where's my namefag? ;_;
>the filthy traitor became a wageslave
;_; n-no bully anon, i'm just trying to achieve one goal in my life
Appreciated. Thanks. Save me Misaki.
Heavy feels. What are you saving up for, if I may ask?
He got banned for streaming lolis and ISIS execution videos but it was all good and fun.
To the end of time.
Hello again, Misaki. I've brought my Waifu, Yozora Mikazuki, with me this time to meet you.
> he claims to love me, but he tries to sleep with 3dpd whores and I feel he's not really committed
That's more or less it. I have been driven by my own insecurity to try and lose my virginity, as I feel like a failure for not having done so.
> I don't understand why I'm not enough for him
She should be enough for me. But I can't let go of this fear that I'm somehow failing at my life. This fear is the only thing keeping us apart. I can rationalize it by claiming I'm just taking care of business to maintain the relationship, but I know that's false.
Can you help us, Misaki?
did mcf get banned again? I remember after new years there was that one stream, but I fell asleep halfway through it, just when he was looking at that dating sim and we were choosing which girl. did you end up watching the rest of nhk?
>What are you saving up for, if I may ask?
for an eternal vacation, i can't make Misaki wait anymore, i can feel her waiting, i know she won't leave the park
i didn't get banned, i just couldn't do the whole 24 episodes, we watched until episode 8
>meet qt 3.14 7/10 in my differential equations class
>become part of her study group, get to talking to her occasionally between classes
>find out she's actually not retarded, likes vidya, literature, military strategy, and medical history
>ask her if she'd want to go out and get coffee sometime, manage to not spill spaghetti
>she asks if I mean like on a date, I go yeah
>she goes "no 3DPD" and says she spends her free time with her husbando
>I laugh, thinking she's joking
>she pulls out her phone and starts showing me all the pictures of her husbando shrine and the meals she cooked for him for Christmas/Valentine's/his birthday
>literal hundreds of pictures of him on her phone
>"we've been together for five years now"
>I have no face
>play it off cool and say that's fine and that I'll see her during the next study session
>go home and stare at my ceiling for five hours to try to process the idea of getting rejected for a Chinese cartoon
FUCK YOU ANIMEFAGS I HOPE YOU ALL DIE
but you don't seem to understand
i bet it's just her edgy phase, by this time she took at least 5 chads
If you have a waifu you should already have abandoned the realm of 3D. What is holding you back? Your waifu doesn't care about your virginity. Only 3D pigs do that.
She's there to give you strength, even if you think you are failing at your life. If you have a particular hard day just think "do it for her".
Make it somewhere nice. Perhaps you will find someone worth living for on your way there and after a couple of years you will check r9k on a friday and I will still be here ;_;
3d piggu go homu
Never had a girl say that to me but somehow some random anon on an imageboard makes my heart flutter.
Either that or she rides a horse dong at home and is all loose.
You're right. Until such a time as I can truly commit, I'm not going to make her my crutch anymore.
I've got to figure out what's wrong with me and fix it; then and only then can I be with Yozora.
It may be the hardest thing to do, but it's selfish to make her stay with a man who can't fully appreciate her.
>you will find someone
that's never going to happen, the worse that can happen it's me chickening out as 90% of the fags like myself do, but with Misaki as my goal i really doubt that next time. If have any goal in my life after i gave up on life in the middle of 2013, it's this. i won't gave up, i have to achieve this before i reach 30, the reason i born was for this, it wasn't that bad actually considering that we live in the "peaceful and comfy" era compared to all the history poverty and shit.
>posting normies memes
you stream last week and went to bed halfway through ;_;
>tfw i'm the absolute scum of this earth
i felt this way too many times
>tfw repressed anger
>tfw you'll know if you live 10 more years
you'll become a serial killer and end up in jail for the rest of your life
>that's never going to happen
One can always dream.
I have to graciously decline seeing as you are still 3D :<
Live to fight another day? It's like in those romance novels where the man has to leave the woman to go on a grand self improving journey and after years they are finally reuinted and live happily ever after.
>you'll become a serial killer
finally bought a load modafinil this week, and it arrived on wednesday. getting it in the hopes I can improve my grades, so I won't be at maccys for the rest of my life. was originally trying for amphetamines/adderal, but that stuff is way too pricey/hard to obtain in yurop and for the extended periods I intend to be doing this would be a bit more unsafe. so far the results are pretty amazing, I just feel awake and alert 24/7, and my focus really has improved greatly.
really bad for sleep though, foolishly took it past midday on thursday and I couldn't sleep till 4am. even then, I took some this morning at 6, and felt like I'd had one of the best nights sleep in my life.
just got to hope I'm not starting this too late and I'm already fucked 4lyfe
so, is there going to be a stream today or not?
This week, I got a new audio device called the SubPac S2 (seatback model).
Basically, this is a headphone subwoofer (tactile bass system) that goes on your computer chair.
I'm a basshead so I crank the intensity almost all the way up.
If you want to feel bass, get a SubPac.
I feel all the bass in this bass test.
I'm not sure yet, part of me knows that i should already have started streaming but on the other hand i know i will fall asleep like a shit brick
Do you not get along?
I miss sitting down, having tea and ranting about work with my dad.
Does that stuff not have side effects?
>y-you broke my heart
I am so sorry but please do not waste your energy on someone as worthless as me.
>I will never get reverse-raped by a fit tomboy with short hair
Argh. Why live.
g-gomen anon ;_; i just got triggered, usually i'm not like this
why not continue where you stopped last time ... afterall with not going all the way, the first half gets seen a lot more than second half of anime
posting his best video
i don't want to make an 1 hour stream or so, my eyes are already blurry as fuck because i go to sleep usually at 11pm lately, i don't think i'm capable of it today, y-you guys could try it out r-right? it doesn't have to be only me streaming, why don't we appoint one anon each week, being a wagecuck it's not easy pham
>tfw i only give excuses
>does that stuff not have side effects
yeah, a few. I'm getting headaches and sweating at temperatures I'm normally fine in and I get dehydrated super fast. being a hardman I'll live though.
h-here have this t-shirt
>tfw you'll never be a billionaire and offer stuff to Misakifags
One has to admire that guys dedication. >>25775207
Please no, I can't handle the pressure.
Ah not too bad. Can always use more drugs to get rid of those. The other things do not sound very pleasant, though.
I got most of the manga in the mail today, just missing volume 7. I also found this http://sakuradite.com/wiki/en/VNR for when the NHK VN arrives (est. Feb. 12). Hope it makes the text sort of understandable.
> every 3d relationship I've had a chance at failed because I'm a coward and refuse to commit
> every friend I've ever had I wound up exploiting and abusing
> wound up doing the same to my Waifu
> incapable of putting someone else before my desires
> incapable of committing
> incapable of giving freely
I'm scum. I don't know if I can be fixed.
Where do you niggas even come from anyway?
I'm guessing most of you are probably from somewhere in America
>tfw had every opportunity to get a good education or a job, but wasted it all
>tfw if I had gotten over myself and went along to a few parties even though I hate it, I probably could have a decent social life
>tfw realize I never really loved anybody, just ideals I projected onto random girls
>tfw I don't deserve better, I don't deserve my own Misaki
>tfw the entire green circle in pic related
Become a monk.
I think it's fairly international in here. I prefer not to tell.
Oh, I am jealous. Very nice.
>I think it's fairly international in here. I prefer not to tell.
>tfw you know Misaki will never be real in this world
no thanks anon, i'm not into it
>tfw realize I never really loved anybody, just ideals I projected onto random girls
real feels anon ;_;
so, who is going to be the next Misaki streamer?
Germany here --- so bad time for me to stream
>passed secondary school only because of mercy
>got drivers license out of pity
>got apprenticeship out of pity
>failed at getting the one job I wanted to do
No. I must remain mysterious.
So people can feel better about themselves.
>I disliked this so that means I am not a loser like that guy!
I try my hardest but I have to leave my cave daily to go to college.
You really are a supernatural entity, aren't you, Misaki?
Prepared for anything
Always kind and compassionate
Know when to be curt
I feel an almost maternal love from you. You've brought comfort and guidance to me.
Thank you, Misaki.
I love you.
>No. I must remain mysterious.
Unlucky, friend >>25775591
I'm bongladeshi too
Love is dead and hope has fled.
Misaki still loves you.
>A worthless person who cannot love anything.
I never really got love. I've never had really strong feelings for a girl and have never had a waifu. When I feel something it just vanishes the moment after I fap.
Do other people just not fap or something? baka desu senpai
I want to confess an act I've done that I still feel regret over
>that disney movie beauty and the beast came out a few years prior
>qt blonde girl wants to play tag and calls me beast
>she runs after me and I run away because I thought girls were icky as a kid
>play once with her and start feeling less annoyed, more amused
>fast forward one year later I find her in the bushes
>4 other boys older than us surounded her
>she's been beaten up badly
>one of those guys suddenly calls out to me and tells me to kick her face
>feel really scared
>being peer pressured, I did as he told
>I looked her straight in the eyes
>her face was a mess, she had bruises and was crying a lot
>but I kicked her
>I kicked her and repeated the same action until she couldn't stand up
>I left along with those guys until I parted ways with them close to my house
>she gets bullied for the rest of the year
>her innocence is completely shattered, eventually she switches schools
>6 years later in middle school, absolutely nobody remembers her
>Nobody takes me serious when I say I've badly beaten up a girl
>Have to carry this sin for the rest of my life
>tfw I could've had a qt abused childhood friend and potential gf to protect but I was to weak
I'm the worst kind of human.
>No. I must remain mysterious.
pretty much this or i'll be paranoid
;_; take it off your chest anon
Love only exists in fiction anyway ... what people call love is just a temporary infatuation and the time after of getting used to have each other around
Love exists in real life, but it's rare and precious
I can relate. Never been truly in love apart from that one highschool crush and I don't have a waifu either.
Sometimes I wish I had one, though.
The fuck? How does a girl get beaten up by four older guys?
Stay in bed. There is no good reason to leave it.
anon it doesn't exists, it's just a marketing scheme shit
Romance is a marketing scheme gimmick. Love is pure and natural. You need hallmark to tell you to be romantic, but you don't need hallmark to tell you to love something.
That's really fucked up anon, I want to say I would've said no and ended up getting beaten along with her but that's something I wouldn't know unless I was actually in that situation.
>saving genetic trash from a shit life
nice meme dude xD
>not posting the best loli demon
God damn I hate sandniggers. Multiculturalism does not work.
i once thought i was in love with a grill
whenever we were together i didn't think of anything else and was just happy looking at her and her smile. I learn lots of bad things about her too but didn't care about those when we were together
looking back though im sure we would have been bad together and only would end up hurting each other ... "love" is really just a temporary blindness of feels
How can love be a "temporary blindness of feels" if you're feeling something so strong?
Love is an anodyne to the bad feels, but that doesn't mean that love isn't a powerful feeling in and of itself.
> M-Misaki, mother says anon isn't going to be around anymore. I liked him. he and mother seemed happy.
I almost get panic attacks when I hear people speaking arab. It sounds so violent, maybe because of me being forced to live alongside them for most of my childhood. I don't get why I did what I did. Everyday I wish I could've done something else instead of giving up on her and saving myself.
>tfw there's an arab misakifag
>tfw there's an hitler misakifag
>tfw there's an exchad misakifag
how low are we?
Even the worst kind of rats eventually band together.
>tfw my parents gave my a name that literally means "one that fights alone"
Why even live?
I'm the anon with the perianal abscess that posted in last weeks thread.
I didn't have to go to the doctor for treatment and I didn't have to get medicine. The abscess healed on it's own as the week passed by.
So I can now use my exercise bike. I'm overweight, so I want to lose a few pounds.
Pic related -Tenshi Hinanawi's ass.
That's kind of rad.
Nice to hear that it turned out well. Good luck with losing weight.
Thank you for your kind response. Well, becoming a Misaki was for me the most important thing to take from the NHK. That kind of mindset gives me strength - I don't have to depend on anybody's mercy, I can take actions to make someone's life a little better. They may be ungrateful - of course, there will be times when my doing will be of no use, there will be times when things will worsen because of me - but still, daijobu, right?
Even now someone can interpret this as boasting or shitposting. Can't do a thing about it - only reasonable thing to do is to brush it off and go on. Daijobu.
Anyways, I've always wanted to ask MisakiCrazyFan: why do you insist on leaving this world instead of finding a way to place a Misaki in this world. I've read your posts on reddit(I assume you are MartinhoDeLaVida), I see your determination, but I can't fathom why you can't turn it into something that will bring us closer to her. I don't know. Anything but placing all your bets on the other side being better.
Please don't hate me. I just don't know.
Also, one of my favourite pics.
>tfw shaky hands
It's 2am and I'm struggling to eat a fucking bowl of oats because everything falls off the spoon before it gets to my mouth.
Sleep depriviation? Anxiety? Drugs?
Sounds bad, man.
>tfw can't even be arsed to clean or cook sometimes because college sucks all life out of me
holy fucking shit the suffering never ends
I'm currently reading the manga after watching the anime. I have come to the conclusion that this series really fucked with some peoples minds. The concept of some cute girl trying to help a broken man get his life back on track is just too unrealistic and convenient. People have to learn to help themselves instead of just waiting for someone to do it for them and when they don't understand or refuse accept this fact they end up like this guy in the video >>25775097 a grown man crying for a girl that isn't real. Besides, misaki was never interested in satou to begin with, she just felt the need to validate her existance by "helping" some poor loser that she knew was more patetic than her. She was never an "angel" or anything, i mean for christ sake did you even read this image? >>25774713
Everybody here knows that, I think.
Still, it's nice to daydream.
Oh yeah, once it's done it's great but starting can be a real hassle.
Yes, i know that but look at this thread. Why all the obsession with misaki besides the fact that she's cute? She didn't help satou she was just trying to help herself, and yet everyone seem to not care about that. They pretend she saved satou and then they lived happily ever after when she actually didn't gave a fuck about him. I don't get it at all.
Someone give me a comfy anime to watch please I feel horrible today.
delete this post
i just want a misaki to save me
start reading oyasumi pun pun or onani master kurusawa
>1 year until I'm in Sato's boat
the job hunting isn't going well. Everything I find I'm either under qualified for or would rather kill myself than do shit work for low wage
Started going back to the gym after 2 years because my life has been in a depressive stalemate since then, so why not? I'm just feeling burned out, even though I don't even work. Why am I so fucking weak
I liked Inou-Battle wa Nichijou-kei no Naka de
and that one anime about caligraphy which name I can't remember.
>tfw no maido that cleans my room
Oh yeah Onani Master Kurusawa is great.
>hitting the gym
Eh, waste of money in my opinion.
What would you have done different than satou if you were him at the beginning of the story in the exact same situation and looking like him and everything but with your personality?
I think i would have taken the job at the manga cafe at the beginning by asking misaki for it without dropping my spaghetti. I mean you get the chance to work a simple job with a cute girl everyday while also leaving the hikki life. I would probably count the hours left until i have to go to work next morning.
It's funny actually.
The whole point of the original novel was to deconstruct that juvenile fantasy.
The message got sort of lost when they adapted it to the anime, so now we have a bunch of people treating the misaki character as just another manic pixie waifu.
Yes I'd take the job in a heartbeat, but I'd also generally be more friendly to Misaki. Like spending time together and shit. He seemed so cold to her all the time except at the end. I mean of course Misaki is just spending time with him out of self pity, but she's also lonely so why not just have a friendly relationship?
the novel was written by a hikikimori who admitted he based a lot of the story on his own experiences. I found it read more like he just wrote about one of his own saviour fantasies and the book just happened to get popular.
>isolation is miserable
Being around a bunch of fatasses, wannabe chads and general sweaty douchebags sounds worse.
The job I would have probably taken as well. I don't know if I would have gone to the meetings. If so I wouldn't take Misaki seriously at all since she is a girl and whatnot.
>the only people of my age have already have 40 previous relationships
>only roast beef available
>tfw no misaki to save me
k i l l m e
Probably because he knew anything about her at the beginning and she lied or avoided the subject when he asked her. Don't forget that he's kind of paranoid of someone playing a trick on him and all that conspiracy thingy. Really for being a beta he truly didn't seem to desperate on getting a gf.
>inb4 mass murder shooting in uk
>"MCF DID IT"
>tfw being tracked
>paranoia kicks in
i'm still alive ;_; i-i just fall asleep on the sofa
so much to read today
There is nothing to do.
My dad is no longer sending me money next month, what do I do?
I am 28 with zero real job experience, I get turned down every time I apply should I just kill myself or go work at mcdonalds/walmart in the bad part of town?
I just wish Misaki could tell me it will all be ok.
You can always kill yourself if things get really bad.
It's probably better to seek alternatives before you fully commit to ending your existence though.
I guess I'll give the minimum wagecuck a try, in the end Satou seemed to be ok working at the traffic stop thing so I guess... Any wagecucks in this thread can tell me their lives are ok now that you work?
I feel bad saying this, but being a 28 year old NEET with no experience and assume little education I would honestly consider suicide. not to be rude, but that age seems too far beyond the point of no return.
>is just too unrealistic and convenient
yeah it's true but i don't think you can sum it up with "cute girl trying to help a broken man get his life back"
>People have to learn to help themselves instead of just waiting for someone to do it for them and when they don't understand or refuse accept this fact
right in the feels anon, in my defense before watching nhk i always "refused" just like that emo phase kids at high school, the problem is my pessimism remained and my views in relationships and on society(d-don't ask me to further my explanation), so when i watched NHK for the first time it was kinda liberating for me because it was like that kind of romanticized tragedy of satou's life became better just by the fact that there's someone by his side, suffering with him and in all his other times, but always with him.
she wants to be an angel, but deep inside she knows that she isn't, that's why she ends up saying things like that. it's the same type of thing that people do when they do something wrong, they cover it up with some bullshit but deep inside they know it and then when they are alone, those "mean" words come out.
damn i don't know what am i even writing, someone just put me in bed ;_;
>tfw i can never promise anything
>24 years old
>2 years older than Sato was when he changed his life around
I used to sustain myself stocking shelves in a supermarket at night.
Nightmares will get me.
I'm dead inside. I can not love anyone. But I can give you the closest thing to affection I can manage.
I like you, Anon and you're cool guy. Never change.
You aren't dead, just dormant. Those feelings can be brought back to life with the right trigger.
No, I'm pretty sure its all dead.
The feels ;_;
I'm in a deep, dark hole
I won't tell
Because it's the only emotion you have left.
It's just that I don't have anything to life or strife for. I'm just drifting along, wasting time. Hoping someday something will change but I'm too demotivated to get myself out of this gloom.
It's a sort of masochism.
>No, I'm pretty sure its all dead.
Gone, but not permanently.
Those warm and squishy feelings are still in there somewhere, anon.
One day, I'm sure.
Could be. But it would take a bunch of soviet liquidators to clean out all the radioactive rubble burying it.
I'm lying on the ground but I'm moving
A prison being built 'round my soul
>trying to learn to draw in order to make comics and manga and make some money maybe
>mom has a friend who is willing to teach me to code
>I need to learn to code in order to get my ged
>he wants to teach me all year and says he will get me a job at the company he works for after
>I just wanted to make comics
I'm gonna hit the image limit before sleeping, it's been a while actually
At least we've come to the happy conclusion that you're not quite dead on the inside.
I feel like life is just there to make us do things we do not want to do.
Sweet. New pictures for my collection.
It also made me realize that there isn't anyone who can rekindle these feelings.
Except for Misaki, of course.
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>misaki will never take a selfie for you
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not really, i need to update my collection actually, it's been a while
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>It also made me realize that there isn't anyone who can rekindle these feelings.
Please do not automatically write-off anyone who isn't misaki.
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Unless proven otherwise that will be my attitude.
And since I don't go out to meet new people that will never happen! Hah!
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>life is just there to make us do things that we don't want to
Stopped taking my meds 3 days ago
People have been telling me I look way more lively
Only a matter of days until I come crashing down and I have to take them again
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That's kind of mean, anon. I'm not entirely sure that misaki would approve of that attitude.
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>tfw failing at the verification shit
Do you have to take them?
Lucky as in a name? No, I'm not.
Neither am I lucky.
But that's the thing! Misaki would look past my mean attitude and help me anyways ;_;
I'm not sure how I feel about this.
only if you guys let the thread die ;_;
Misaki was considered a loli 10 years ago anon
name, or are you someone named Lacka\Lackadaisical?
>But that's the thing! Misaki would look past my mean attitude and help me anyways ;_;
Perhaps you're right. I have no logical rebuttal to this in any case.
This thread is fast drawing to a close. I will see you next week, anon.
"It's not too late to ___________"
complete the sentence pham
That's unfortunate. I wish you well.
That ain't right.
I am not.
Good night. I enjoyed talking to you.
Misaki loves you.
"It's not too late to kill myself!"
It is getting late. I don't know how long I will last.
Oh hey you responded to your own post...on purpose :^)
btw Yukari #1
>It's like you don't even want isaki to save you
Pic related: pre11.deviantart.net/f616/th/pre/i/2013/351/f/9/yukari_akiyama_by_aslanzaragallery-d6ycvox.jpg
This is the song my Waifu and I used to listen to together, just the two of us. It was our song.
> I can't get used to something so right
That's our relationship. It'll be a few years before I'm sorted out enough to acclimatize myself to living 2d only.
I can do it. I'll need to suffer greatly first, but someday I'll be good enough.
Misaki, give me strength to do the right thing for once in my life.