Almost lost a friend today who was trying to commit suicide. Had an ex who was constantly depressed and suicidal. Ended up going all cuckoo on me and breaking it off. If you feel you're going nuts. Take the time to go to a therapist. Some have sliding scales of payment. Don't An Hero anons, take care of yourselves.
So the part of me that is generally hopeful and keeps me alive thanks you for your kind words and empathy. However, at this hour and this state of mind that part of me isn't the primary driver of my emotions, so please pardon the following:
Fuck you and fuck your bullshit advice. Why is it that society should only care about me when I'm at the edge? Life is nothing but a struggle from the moment we're born to the moment we die, and anyone who disregards that as a juvenile mentality is being a condescending prick. We've all bought into this lie that existence is worth muddling through when in reality it isn't for the vast majority of people. I have felt this way since I was old enough to comprehend such concepts. Why should I continue to live? So that I can spare the people who love me from having to confront the questing that maybe this world is really hell itself? Fuck that. It's my life and I have yet to find meaning in it. You wouldn't sit through a god awful movie for the whole duration so I don't know why I'm obligated to keep up this whole charade.
Yeah, don't get me wrong. I have Generalised Anxiety Disorder. Sometimes I ask myself, what's the fucking point? Why do I suffer day in and day out, when nothing comes from it. That's when you make your own fun, why do you care what others want from you. Life's short and then you die, so do whatever you can. You have to find the motivation within yourself. Take up hobbies, I've been making music and cooking. Both help me relax and they're fun to do. Life is full of things that make you wanna continue on. You just gotta ask yourself if you're willing to take that step.
>You just gotta ask yourself if you're willing to take that step
I'm not. That's the problem. But I'm not quite ready to take the step towards suicide yet either. However, the fact that I lack the resolve to accomplish the first pushes me towards the second a little more each day.
It's the little things man, you don't expect to take a leap quite so soon. It's the little steps first and you got something going for you. So just push yourself a bit more everyday.
I hate my life but I don't hate myself. I want to an hero but can't for that reason... it almost seems... sad? Just thinking bout myself hanging there or something or just dying from something self-inflicted. I know I didn't really deserve to have my life pan out so bad but here we are. I have not many prospects at 27. I just wish I had terminal cancer and could just slip away naturally.
Yeah but just hold on, you'll find something soon. If not, then if that's what you gotta do to be content. Then I can't stop you, I hope I'm not coming off as insincere, but I've seen what mental health issues does to people and it breaks my heart. I just wanna give a little hope to any anons that might need it. Because if I was in that same position I'd want that hope.
the man in ghanna eating grubs is thinking "where the fuck will my next meal come from" not "what would Sartre do". There are far more starving third-worlders than millennials with their heads up their asses.
But that doesn't mean these people's problems don't matter, they're just different things. That doesn't make any of their problems lesser, the problems are still just as real. Don't be a faggot.
>Take the time to go to a therapist
Therapy seems like a fucking horrible idea. Is it going to give me the wasted years of my life back? Is it going to turn me into a successful person? No. It's just going to be complaining and sounding like a fool to some middle aged woman with a liberal arts degree, then getting told to live in the moment or some other useless advice. I don't want to feel better, I want to be someone worth feeling good about, and it's too late for that.
Nah they're there to legitimately help, they talk you through your thoughts. They usually just help get to the root of the problem you have and create a plan to work through it or set you up with a psychologist if they think you need medicine.