>That guy who constantly apologizes
>That guy who hesitates before every other word
>That guy who never makes eye contact
That all describes me. I'm pretty sure I was mistreated when I was younger but suppressed the memories or something.
Really? No fucking wonder i'm friendless.
>What about him?
He's pathetic, cringeworthy and a bother to all those around him.
Just choose not to apologize so much. The next time you're going to do it without good reason, don't.
Except you don't even mean for it to happen--it just does. So it's not that simple.
There is no free will
This along with any attempt to save face is more annoying than anything. Bad self-esteem is the worst.
It's actually better to just let yourself be awkward. Be proud of who you are even if you are trash, people will be more forgiving then.
Currently working on the second, the other two seem impossible to overcome.