>Turn 21 tomorrow
>Realize I literally want nothing in my life
>No friends or real family and don't want any since it's how I've always been
>I've never had sex with a girl
>Video games bore me since it's all LOOK AT ME LE STREAM MLG bullshit
>Music is just the same thing repackaged at different speeds/instruments
>Haven't felt I've gotten older since 15
>This site has gone to complete shit
The fuck do I do besides suicide? That's too mainstream of a choice to take and I don't want my fedora to get messy.
2 bee honest just spend your life working and living alone, spending money on some nice hookers every now and then as a treat.
>no wife to put up with
>no kids to pay for
>buy whatever you want for yourself within your means
plenty of people are gonna be waaay more miserable than you if you choose this path
If you go without food for an extended time, you will find what you are hungry for.
Go be homeless.
Go travel, even if it isn't comfortable.
Go do something to get that ^, anon; trust me.
Back in my day trolling meant something
tfw no gf ever
humans are relationships are pointless to me since I have nothing to offer them and vice versa besides sex and tinder won't work
actually no I barely eat and fapping does nothing for me now
I do and I want nothing life is all about connections and I know literally no one and have no desire to
Devote your life to one of the stupidest fucking things ever, like go out of your way to stalk the clerk from the shell gas station and get all and every bit of information you could ever possibly get from him without talking to him, got me entertained for months (excluding the years of fun I got from prison)
>tfw in the same boat
its all fucking pointless isnt it
I miss lifting but I'm always too tired to do anything plus my mattress makes my body sore
Where I live has shit gunlaws dude gun control lmao Chicago is so safe see it works
I would but I live in da hood so there is none
Tired all the time, no interest in interpersonal relationships, lost interest in all your former activities. Sounds like pretty serious depression, and thats on top of being a huge faggot. Id talk to a shrink and get some happy pills.
Nice to see you out again Johnathan Lee Riches
I'm a silver elite so this is out of the question
Not everyone has money to travel anon I'm not white
It's how I've always been I'm not really at a loss. SSRIs have been proven to not work for shit and even cause more problems.
DXM is shit from what I've read isn't not even worth it
>CAN I GET AN OP'S A FAGGOT IN CHAT?!?!
>>Music is just the same thing repackaged at different speeds/instruments
Dude are you even trying? Have you ever actually put any effort into trying to find music that interests you? Because that sounds you've only ever listened to music via radio.
Books that may help:
Man's Search For Meaning- Viktor Frankl
The Myth Of Sisyphus- Albert Camus
The Power of Myth- Joseph Campbell
The Emperor's Handbook (Meditations)- Marcus Aurelius
All are pretty good for giving yourself a mental scrubbing and reassessing your life in a productive way. Man's search for meaning is probably the easiest read and Myth of Sisyphus/Power Of Myth are probably the hardest just because they're both so deeply referential and dense, though Campbell does a much better job of giving context on the fly, Camus just assumes you've read all the shit he's talking about already. The accessibility of meditations depends on the translation you get, the one I recommended is fairly easy and straightforward. A good source of wisdom and is something I think every man ought to read at least a bit of. Anyways, these books won't give you solid answers (some in fact reject the notion that there are answers at all), but they help you think and find something to hold on to.
Learn to feel bad for yourself if you don't already. Most of the problems that face people like you (and sometime me) have no solution so it's better to accept that and wallow in your own self pity to make yourself feel good than to strive for a "meaningful" life.
Do you have a job/any education? If not go to a technical college and learn a trade that pays fairly well (ex: plumbing, hvac, be an electrician) just find a job to occupy your time so you're not constantly sitting around bored. Also try hard to find some psychedelics, 1 good trip on acid can boost your mood for months afterwards.
Keep defending your e-celebs you wannabe sorry I triggered you
I do but at the same time I don't care. Why should I feel bad because I'm not up to the society standard?
I have no interest in anything or money to get education
I know I'm better than these normies but there's no point in proving it to anyone because I don't care what they think.
I think I've realized the only reason I want to do thing was to impress other people and have them go WOW HE'S X GUY.
I have no friends and hate my family so none of this matters.
>Turn 21 tomorrow
I'm 26 today Anon. It doesn't get better, no one will ever love or care about us.
all my people that have mild depression or severe dont worry because!
theres someone that loves u!
and hes a rapper with gold teeth - Lil B
Like what? Coffee only works with me once if at all.
I get sick whenever I drink, I guess it gives me anxiety.
I feel like I'm going to vomit.
All school shooters take anti-memes
Will we ever make it?
>Don't remember turning 17
>Heh I'm 18 legal
>Don't remember 19
>Forgot I turned 20
Do psychedelic drugs.
Mushrooms, LSD, DMT pref.
They'll show you new worlds, and inspire you, make you see through the lies you tell yourself - the illusions cast upon you.
>Will we ever make it?
fuck if I know. I'm giving it till I'm ~25 before I start to worry though. I've picked up some hobbies these last couple years that -make- me feel better and even earn a couple dollars, but in terms of knowing where i'm going with college, a "real" job, relationships, etc. i'm still lost as fuck. at this point my #1 goal is doing what i can so i don't take the gas pipe
>tfw the same and 31 in 2 months
You don`t even know hopelessness feels
>I've never had sex with a girl
You can always choose to take it up the ass for men. Become the slut you were always meant to be. It's not like you're going to accomplish anything else with your life.
This is how I feel but not depressed, just accepting.
I'm pretty sure I'm not a closeted homosexual so I'm sorry to pass.
Use my situation to live out your fantasies anon!
What's worse, never knowing the touch of a woman or never knowing anyone's touch at all?
No, no, no. You misunderstand me.
I'm simply calling you a huge pussy.
You have had the opportunity to pursue women (attractive women, even) and convince them to provide full consent to explore each other's bodies.
You threw all those chances away.
Not at all actually
I do and It's all I run into, there is no gaming community anymore.
All type of genres, it's all the same structured shit once you break it down.
>it's all the same structured shit once you break it down
Do you expect some space alien magical music to be released every fucking day? Come back to me once you've learned all languages, can listen to any song, instantly recognize what's being said, and the meaning behind the words. Oh, and an ear for music like Beethoven would really demonstrate that you're too good for music, and then, you can kill yourself. Faggot.
I can speak 7 languages.
Music isn't as deep as you think it is; > Oh, and an ear for music like Beethoven would really demonstrate that you're too good for music
At least try anon.
>I can speak 7 languages.
Still a few thousand left, friendo. I wasn't trying to start a dick measuring contest based on how many languages you speak, I was just implying that there's a lot more to music than "speeds/instruments", such as language.
>Music isn't as deep as you think it is; >
I've never said, implied, or even thought of music as being deep. It certainly is enjoyable but at the end of the day, if you already have some kind of prejudice or preconceived notions about music not being deep, then of course you won't enjoy it.
>Oh, and an ear for music like Beethoven would really demonstrate that you're too good for music
>What the fuck did you just sing to me, you little choirboy? I'll have you know I...
But how the fuck can anyone be "too good for music"?
>At least try anon.
I try to try. Is that good enough? I just want to make you proud.
can u pls list the 7 languages u speak? I'm not saying I believe you, but that would be pretty fucking impressive for someone a day shy of being 21 years old.