mom keeps calling me. i skipped thnxgiving and christmas. no show, no call. shes gunna ask why, and want me to come over. I cant.
>you will never have a druggie gf who had to sleep around to survive day to day, and then rescue her from the darkness with your love
She'd probably dump me later for chad anyway :./
i did. i spend my days shooting up heroin and browsing the internet. watching movies sometimes. i look terrible. its all too much
i buy my heroin from a guy who lives 3000 miles away. so i cant fuck him.
i always thought it was white lighters that were bad luck?
>i spend my days shooting up heroin
so whats it like being a failed normie?
heroin dealer here, I have fucked some qt's for H but I rarely, RARELY do it. Heroin is a more valuable commodity than sex for those addicted. I could fuck this girl, sure, but why not just bang an extra bag?
Female drug addicts always just end up in their dealers harem. Then once they fuck up and steal his shit she gets turned out for pimping. Provided she doesn't land in prison or the morgue before then.
no. but I've also never shared needles. I've never even gotten high with another person. Im always alone. Its better that way
i got hit by a police car when i was 14. got almost half a million settlement. in 11 years ive only spent about $110,000. most of it on heroin and cigarettes
Op, for fuck's sake, you are rich, go enjoy it!
And for real, invest it, because with that much money you could be making enough to live on just off of the returns, so it'll last forever.
Or at least until you od.
Go live life though, at least you aren't poor like most of us.
Go skydiving or something for the adrenaline rush.
money doesnt buy happiness and isnt the cure to crippling social anxiety.
my money is taken care of. luckily i have family investing half of it because i dont even need it. so all my bills are taken out of that account which as far as i can tell never loses money.
but seriously skydiving sounds terrible and so does almost anything. I'm fairly content in the safe, lonely, dim lit, high speed internet having apartment with none invasive neighbors. i find solace in the stale smell and raw emotion
How the fuck do you have crippling social anxiety on a never-ending supply of heroin and limitless possibilities due to having money? I've shot heroin 5 times. beats the shit out of alcohol.
start winding your habit down at 500k, youll make excuses not to but fucking do it. easy to slow down and then maintain or quit when you still have the resources to _feel_ confident about your near future
i found heroin when i was 17. for a couple years it was the only way i could go the the store or to a friends house. that was before i discovered delivery groceries and stopped calling all my friends back. at this point the heroin and anxiety live in harmony. and again money is only worth the heroin and top ramen that it buys. it will bring me no further joy.
>implying i have high hopes for my future
hopes or not its about avoiding the worst life has to offer. its about being able to keep using without being having to quit.
>my money is taken care of
>I'm fairly content in the safe, lonely, dim lit, high speed internet having apartment with none invasive neighbors. i find solace in the stale smell and raw emotion
You have no idea how jealous I am. All I want to do is fade away somewhere like that without ever having to worry about money.
Does your mother even know anything about your current situation?
You should talk to her, she loves you, and cares about you. Just call her, you have no idea how much she'd appreciate it
fuck it honestly. im fine with what ive got
because shes going to ask questions. questions i dont want to answer
she knows very little. for the most part im able to convince her that im normie
i know she loves me. but im ashamed and cant tell her the truth. just empty fleeting lies
im not sure i want to be "comfortable" around others. again, im rather content with the way things are
mom keeps calling
>talk to her then
"""that's shitty advice"""
well there really are only two options here, either you deal with what you'll inevitably have to deal with now, or avoid dealing with what you'll inevitably have to deal with later
explain to me why the former isn't better than the latter