whats the most autistic thing you've said in public
>whenever I remember something cringeworthy that I did I either make a weird loud noise or I swear a lot
>on a crowded bus just now
>lost in thought
>remember a really bad decision I made a few weeks ago
>get uncontrollable cringe feeling
>say out loud without thinking "I should literally fucking kill myself."
>entire bus looks at me
>get even more intense embarrassment
>scream "FUCK" and run off the bus
>walking the last 2 miles to work right now in sub zero weather
>in history class watching video about Lewis and Clark
>narrator is speaking and a mountain range is visible on screen
>teacher asks from the back of the room: "Does anyone know who's voice this is?" (referring to the narrator)
>I proudly call out, without so much as raising my hand: "Kevin Spacey"
>whole class looks at me like I'm a lunatic
>"N-no anon, anyone else have a guess?"
>turns out my teacher actually asked what the mountain range was called
>mfw the correct answer was "the rocky mountains"
>mfw the narrator wasn't even Kevin Spacey
I say that shit everyday senpai.
>kill yourself kill yourself kill yourself just please kill yourself
>anon is dead anon is dead anon is dead
>I wish I could kill everyone else
I got it bad family. It's entirely based on environmental noise, if I'm in front of you I'll cover my mouth and say it under my breath. If I'm alone I'll fucking scream it. The issue is when I'm near people with thin walls between or if I have headphones on. There's no playing that off.
It's never been diagnosed, every doctor calls it something else.
Behold the beautiful kevin spacey mountain range
do you also say "I'm gay" and shit like that? I'll just randomly start saying "God I'm so fucking gay I'm a gay nigger I should kill myself" even though I'm straight and I'm white
why were we born like this
>be me, 28, neet, obese kissless virgin and autistic
>mom calls from stairs and says tenders are ready
>tell bitch to bring those bitches down
>mom takes away 5 good boy poinjts
>flip it all over her face
>she tells me to get back in the basement, tells me to forget about tnedies
>comply for now
>now nighttime and mommy sleeping with daddy
> go upstairs to mommy and daddies bedroom
>piss and shit all over their bed
> scream "FOR THE TENDIES!!!!!
>parents kick me out
I cringe at why i hadnt gave them lacksativs and hot water so that they would shit and piss with me to.
Finally I can say I belong here
I don't really say stuff like that, it's almost always suicidal. I didn't always used to say shit, I used to just jolt suddenly, which would freak people out in class. My best theory is PTSD. Do you have a good memory? Are you an addict now? I found that I self medicated my extremely sharp memory away, but the spasms remain. I