I've seen vile things that no human being should ever have witnessed. I thought nothing could faze me until I had one of the most introspective and robotic thoughts never before thought possible.
I said to myself... "I'm tired". And I just kept repeating it and repeating it and repeating it until I was on the floor of my apartment, curled up and crying.
I'm 18 years old and yet I feel as if I'm an old man who seen it all. I'm just tired.
Who else /tired/ here and why?
All my life I've foced myself to be social. Everything about planning dates to go places and organizing shit to do with friends and family never felt natural to me. I'd go neet but it just isnt an option.
i want normies to leave.
i repeated to myself
"im in hell im in hell im in hell" for a month, not by choice
then it went to "im being triggered im being triggered"
then it went to "i want my mommy i want my mommy" over and over again against my will
i would say it just to try and distract the torrent of dagger like thoughts in my mind as i slipped into a massive panic attacks.
>try at least
fuck off you piece of shit
honestly senpai, try changing your diet, force yourself to make a difference even when it feels like there's no point. Try different vitamins and stuff, human beings aren't meant to feel this way. Life gives you an opportunity to change yourself and your surroundings, don't let it go. Your life might be shit, but literally nothing is stopping you but your own boundaries.
>I've seen vile things that no human being should ever witness.
I've staired into the memes and mems staired back.