>thought I got over her
>see a picture of her by accident one day
There is no escaping this hell.
>5 years now since I saw her
>see her picture
>I dont love her anymore heh
>imagine seeing her in person again
>thought scares the shit out of me, would actually start running away
>saying her name feels like speaking the black tongue of mordor
>I don't love her anymore heh
>pull up to Subway in search of deliciousness
>see her with her husband talking to her dad in parking lot
>make eye contact
>flee like a Syrian refugee
>go home and make myself a sandwich
>wash down with whiskey
>move away months ago
>tried to keep in contact through text but it's really spotty and she often doesn't reply
>decided to cut my losses and haven't texted for the past 4 weeks
>texted me out of the blue today asking me how I've been doing
>I'm excited and it starts out fine, try to start a conversation
>promptly stops replying
what the fuck lady
honestly though this kind of shit vindicates the times in the past that she didn't respond to my shit. she just seems profoundly inept at texting for some reason and I guess I should learn to not take it personally, but it's not fun when it's literally the only effective way of talking to her since I now live hours away.
Some people seem to just aim for empty-headed smalltalk in just one word
How are you?
Expected answer: Fine, thanks
My answer: Thank you for asking.. i have been thinking about (blank) lately a lot. It has been on my mind because (blank). What do you think about this? etc etc..
My problem is i am quite autistic when it comes to what you are "supposed" to answer or say. I take questions quite literally.
I think I have that same problem. My experience in instant message talking is mostly from me sperging it up in chatrooms and I think that rubs off poorly on my one-on-one texting, with anyone really.
Feel the same way.
Only had one girlfriend in my life back when i was 17-18
We were eachothers first everything, and when she had to move across the fucking ocean, we never had true closure, well at least I didnt. So here I am, 4 years 7 months 12 days later still dreaming of her.
I havent felt attraction to even O N E (1) girl since she left.
>i work with her
i've come to the realization that i will never be with her, but it's hard to not think about someone you see almost daily
Fuck, I managed months with barely any texting and completely stopped caring but then she goes on vacation and starts messaging me frequently like we used to. As soon as all the god damn feelings come back she goes back to barely replying but here I am stuck on her again
I want off the fucking ride damn it
>she started dating my friend
>ruined friendship to be with her
>hooked up for 3 days
>went back to him
>never spoke to either of them again
>4 years later
>hear about Milo Yiannopoulos
>join facebook group
>she's in it
i've smoked like 8 packs of cigarettes in 3 days.