Everyday I think about killing myself in front of friends classmates and enemies. I don't think I will do it but the amount I think about it tells me otherwise. Should I admit myself into a mental hospital or go on with life like it doesn't exist
Mental hospitals are terribly boring. I wouldn't want to go. Just ignore it or see a therapist.
Focus those thoughts into killing someone else.
You can make a strong warrior against normality.
You must learn the way that suits you best, but remember: any percentage of normie loss is a worthy goal~
Op here again, probably would have been worth mentioning that in class all I do is stare the peers around and wonder what would happen if I just stood up and slit my throat in front of them all.
Mental hospitals arent meant for treating people. They're meant to keep liabilities like yourself in check. I'm prejudiced towards the mental health system because of my own experiences, paranoia, and distrust, so experience what it's like to be treated as less than a person, to have your rights stripped of you and your freedoms taken away, experience the boredom inside, and patronization by social workers, psychologists and psychiatrists while the dementia patients shit themselves in the bed next to yours. Experience being watched as you sleep, experience no privacy, experience shitty handlers who have no more patience for patients who have lost their minds.
I am never going back for mental health help, even when I "need" it.
Why is everyone obsessed with killing themselves? Its the rest of the world that has led you to this point, why not kill them instead?
Not sure what country you are in, but mental health treatment in the US is purely focused on getting one from crisis point to crisis point. If you like repetition, go ahead and give it a shot.
This was my experience. Upon entrey they take everything you have, including clothes. They give you one of those open ass gowns to wear. After a day or two you are allowed normal clothes, but they are all in a pile, and anyone can pick from it, so the clothes you were wearing are likely gone. They have various group activities, but frown upon anyone standng out from the crowd by being better at fingerpainting or whatever. I was on a 72 hour evaluation hold, so I only saw a "doctor" (usually not actually holding a PHD) twice, on the first and last day. Most if the people their have no actual disability, but are homeless, on drugs, other bad societal situation, and the hospital looks the better option. The actually crazy ones can be pretty funny. It basically like that movie "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest."