>its currently 5:41 as im typing this, im laying in bed with my gf of 3 years
>snug as hell, our kittens between us alone in the house i bought for us.
>tell me robots, why am i not happy? I have everything you guys beg for, but im not happy.
>im lying here dwelling on the past, past romances, past lovers, past almosts.
>i feel like im setting myself up. I feel incomplete.
Whats wrong with me? Can i fix it?
Its basically my nightly ritual, i think of alternate routes for my life that i should have taken. Maddie was perfect, but i stuck with the girl im with.
Victoria was the greatest, yet i never had the balls to ask.
Life has no meaning and as much as we progress we head nowhere. The only objective goal that one human has is to survive nature, and we went well past that. I personally think that more primitive living, such as having your own farm where you take care of everything, is more fulfilling, as it accomplishes this one objective goal.
It is because you feel entitled to an even better life deep down, even though you don't realize it. You are fantasizing about alternate paths you could've taken, feeling regret, which feeds into more fantasizing.
You're fucked up tube-E-honest.
Well, if that's the case then you should reaffirm your current decisions and stop comparing the women as if they were objects. No many can predict the future and dwelling on the past will only lead to more questions.
>even though they are objects.
>this was useful
>fuck this I'm going to sleep for like 15 minutes.
also a bit of this
Ive thought about calling them up, asking if there ever was anything, if the hand holding and the sleeping together ever meant anything.
Maybe if i knew how they felt i would move on. Only reason i havent is if what if they still have feelings. >What would i do?
Do it then, your thing could go two ways: they feel the same way you do, you break it off and get a new better gf, you win for now, as they could easily leave you and then you are left with no gf.
2. they feel differently and tell you no stay with the current gf and know how to feel now.
This make sense I'm pretty tired.