Heya, NEET's and wagies. F&F is back, discuss feels, put up some music, have a drink.
>tfw you'll never find a pure, loyal, housewife gf to have a family with
>nearly 4am in bongland
>comfy rain on windows
>light of the monitor
I'll just have some cloudy lemonade
Can I use my vape here?
Nice music, Nigel. Here's your drink, bud.
Sure you can vape, just sit in the corner.
Barkeep poor me a vodka and cranberry, I got a heavy case of feels I need to unload
My mind is telling me to become a normie but my body wants me not to fall for it, should I do the gay dad route and adopt a qt Asian girl or take a slug to the head and knock up some roastie just to say I am raising a kid
I'm loosing my mind. I dont know what i want.
I have manic depression but im not taking any meds for it.
I don't think i want to be better though.
So in suing insanity preludes.
Why do you need a child so bad?
I hate my life.
I hate my job, so much. But most of all, how I miss my ex-bf. I would do anything for him to come back. It's been almost a year since he left, but I can't stop thinking of him. I want to die, for want of his love again. He was beautiful and charming and perhaps a bit coarse, but very kind. I miss him.
Give me something that will let him come back to me, bartender. Or, alternatively, whatever you most recommend for making the God-awful pain to go away.
What happened to your bf? And are you a roastie or a gaybot? Nothing hurts quite like a broken heart.
I don't like the idea of dying and not raising a successful child that isn't a complete piece of shit, but with how things are these days it makes me wonder if I should carry on my genes or end it with me
I want to have kids eventually, too. But I don't know if theres a single woman left in this world that would make a good mother.
#BOYS ON TOUR
SUPP Y'ALL ME AND THE FELLAS WANT SOME SHOTS FOR THE THOTS AND SOME BEERS FOR THE QUEERS, ME A MAURICE BE WANTING A 40OZ
And he broke up with me, on Valentine's Day of '15. Reasons were rather vague: but in any case, it came to me as a complete shock. I thought we were doing perfect - just a few minutes before the moment he called to say it was over, I was giddy because I wanted to buy him a present.
It hurts. I still cry about it sometimes. I'd give anything to be with him. But it won't happen.
Thanks for the drunk.
I don't allow niggers. Get moving Jamal.
That's rough man. Have you tried moving on? What's your favorite feels song?
FUCKING NORMIE SCUM LITERALLY KILL YOURSELF YOU FUCKING CUNT. HOLY SHIY
i would give everything for someone like that. i would just fap on my own or ask to give me handjobs. jesus fucking christ
This tbqh. What a fucking normie cunt.
I'm not good at not getting attached to women. If I were you I'd go all out and tell her you like her. Then when she rejects you you can move on.
S A T A N I C
here you go. Whats up robo-bro?
I think its sad that a innocent little kid can get rejected to the point that he shot up a school. Fucking roastie cunts.
>waiting for current relationship to end
>not wanting to end it myself
>just pretend like I'm not in a relationship every day (without cheating)
5 shots of jack daniel's with a glass of coke to chase cause I'm a pussy.
Knock yourself out, brah. What's up with the relationship? How long has it been going, how'd you meet, etc.
I could care less about a good woman because its subjective anyway, I just don't want to live my whole life and die without proving to myself that someone from my family can do something right
As much as you want brah. What ails you my friend?
>Have you tried moving on?
I don't know how to do that. Sometimes, a memory of him will just happen to surface randomly; other times, I'll dream of him, and wake up depressed. And in some instances, I become enraged with how shitty my current situation is, and I remember how happy he made me feel when we were together. Also... well, I can't bring myself to feel any interest in anyone else. Even the type of people I seek are people who resemble him physically, or in terms of personality (but there won't be anyone exactly like him).
>What's your favorite feels song?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NyDYeIWP44 Thats my go-to anxiety song.
Damn, you've got it bad. I don't know what to tell you, I guess you'll just have to wait it out. Do you have friends to talk to? I can give you my steam if you need a buddy.
It's been on and off for years, but this time felt different at first. Felt more mature and real, like we actually had a shot at being a great couple for a long time. We met in high school (12 years ago) and just started up again this past summer.
Don't even know what's up with it, just doesn't feel right anymore. She's less interested, I'm less interested. I guess we both could be happier with other people.
I'm actually gonna miss her friendship......
^don't ever tell anyone I said that.
Long story short I'm not happy with my SO anymore. We've been together a little over a year and she used to be great and I thought I really did love her but it just keeps fading away. So I'll drink. Whether it ends or not I'm just going to feel miserable so I might as well let what happens happen.
If she's less interested also, I'd say to be a man and end the relationship. You're going to regret ignoring her until she dumps you, later.
That sucks man. But as the normies say, its better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.
That's the gay dad route I was talking about, I wouldn't want to adopt as a single parent cause that seems to be the best way to bring up a fucked up child
Pour me a strong one, I want to kiss the porcelain tonight
Guess I can't fault you there. I just wish she would make more of an effort. I've been putting my heart and soul into this relationship for the past year and she's just not giving back. I'm not even talking about sex. I just wish she would be more affectionate.
Im assuming the problem here is that you arent gay?
Good luck, dude.
Im terrible at getting over women. I only get over one when i fall for the next.
Gimme something brown and high-proof, Barkeep. I've been unemployed for six months now, just got a job offer, and then got the job offer rescinded. I'll never be worthy of anything from anyone.
what should I say? sometimes things come across as autistic when they make sense to me so just want an outside perspective.
I would say something like: "I'm sorry but this isn't working for either of us. We both need some time apart to be ourselves. I care about you and will be there if you need a friend."
is that ok? anything I could add to soften the blow? it's really gonna hurt her. I don't know why she acts so disinterested, but I know me leaving her will really fuck her up.
She might read this, so I can't say much.
The main problem is that we live in different countries, I don't want that to forget about her or something, i just want it to make it easier to get over if the whole situation end.
>tfw oneitis is my only personal social contact beyond immediate family
>tfw didn't talk to her today hoping that maybe she would wonder why, at least then she'll be thinking about me
>starting a shit new job on monday
Hope I don't get too anxious or mess up 2bh, I kind of want the money
>gotta drive back to Grad School tomorrow
I hate driving, I hate it so much, its so boring Have some lewds on the house anons
I'm sorry man. I hope things start looking up.
Yeah, that sounds good. If shes so disinterested why is she going to be so hurt?
Oh, alright. I don't know what to tell you in that case then.
That sounds fucking rough. How long have you known her? Does she like you back?
here you go.
Here you are my dude. Is she qt?
Nice lewds, brah. Safe driving brude.
Hey, nice job dude. Here's your drink. What are you going to buy?
because it won't be her decision (control freak), it will seem to come out of the blue for her (she thinks I would never leave her), and she will worry about finding a new bf (she insecure).
not because she will genuinely miss having me as her bf and wish she had done more to show me that while we were together.
it's sad to type that out.
>Is she qt?
Yeah, she's cute and a few years younger than I am. She's a sweet girl and a little shy too I think. She was the one who asked me out so it makes me think that she must be a little interested in me, right? Even if nothing happens between us I just want to make her feel really special and I hope I can manage to at least do that.
Starting "The Genealogy Of Morals" by Nietzsche. Hope this is comfy.
Thats hurts just to read, man. I'm really sorry. If she worries about finding a new BF why doesnt she treat you better? What a cunt.
Aww, thats really cute. Girls almost never ask guys out, so yeah, she must be at least a little into you.
Gentlemen, the jukebox is live. Come on in and take a load off. The company's great, the backlog is short, and the mod's a God. Nothing but music and comfortable feelings here.
>bootstrapped my way out of shitty childhood by hard work
>got full ride to university
>get good grades
>feel like I'm dying every time I have to talk to someone because they're all wealthy, well-read and cultured people and I am white trash
>classmates make fun of me
Can I get some whiskey, bartender? I'm having a rough time.
Why didn't you guys tell me how expensive dating actually is?
I just started dating and this girl wants me to take her everywhere.
She wants to go to movies, events, zoo , etc . and all these these things require money .
I miss my single days when my money was spent on things that were actually worth something. Now I can't even save anymore.
So I'm going to leave her when I finally have the guts or wait for her to make a mistake like talk to her ex , I'm gonna blow it way out of proportion and then leave her.
Being single , vidya , fapping and drinking myself to sleep is what makes me the happiest. Fuck relationships.
I've known her for about 10 years, we used to go to the same school and college, but we have only been on a conversational level for 4 months, after I got the courage to message her. I haven't even seen her in person for over 4 years and haven't had any friends for that long either. I don't know if she likes me but we vent to each other about stuff, some of it is pretty personal, I think she likes the fact I'm a friendless nobody so she has no fear of me slipping her secrets to others. I don't mind being a beta orbiter I guess, my biggest fear is telling her I like her and upsetting the status quo.
You've gotten this far, I think you'll be okay :) Here's your drink.
You know they're all pretentious fucking pieces of shit, right? Just because you're well-read doesn't mean you're any more substantial of a person. I read plenty of books and I'm still fucking nothing.
yeah it's pretty unfortunate. I think she really just wanted a bf to feel good about herself while she waits for Chad to come along. doesn't make me feel too good believing that, but it fits all the evidence.
thanks for talking with me though, it feels good to get that shit out. you're doing a great service here. if there's anything I could do for you let me know.
Intelligent, talented, fit, handsome guy here. Very popular, studying at a great university, immense opportunities. I guess you could say I'm normie in every way, except one.
I'm extremely hard to get close to, have a limited emotional spectrum, my standards are impossibly high, I'm conservative, harsh and passionate. I just don't fit into society and especially the dating world, and I'm constantly torn between upholding my strict moral values and lifestyle choices, or caving on them in order to find female companionship. It drives me insane daily and I don't know what to do about it. Anyone else like this?
I feel like nothing will change, even after graduation. I've got a job lined up once I graduate and I know people are going to keep on side-eyeing me for my accent.
Poverty is only considered noble if you get rid of its effects once you're out of it, apparently.
>you're doing a great service here.
Shit like this makes my day, theres nothing else I need from you bud. Good luck, I hope things work out for you.
she sounds like a cunt
Ha, I got Satanic trips, too. It really is like an existential hell. On the outside, I'm literally the perfect guy everyone wants to be. I've accomplished so much in my life, it's ridiculous, and have so much more coming up. But no one would know from looking at me, or ever guess from how I conduct myself and present myself, that I live in this constant state of depression and anxiety not knowing which road I want to take and who I want to be.
Everyone sees me as Mr Invincible, that one mysterious kid who seems to have his entire life together, who doesn't need another person in the slightest.
But really, all I want is another person. It's so hard to admit it. But I'm just too different, I guess. I hate to think all the good ones are gone and I'll just have to resort to gold diggers later on, never again feeling true love as I did once, several years ago.
I don't mean to rub it in, but being an ugly piece of shit who's abandoned his only talents, it feels good to know you feel exactly the same as me. Literally all I want is one warm hug to keep from turning off.
Grenadine'll get the puke taste out, that's for sure...
Well, I'm not sure. I think I'm going to pay off my debts, and give the remainder to my parents. I put them through hell growing up, but they've always put me back on track.
I have so many standards I can't even list them out here. I can try, though
I'm looking for a girl just like me. Leans on the conservative side, but is very open minded. Extremely ambitious and passionate, lives life like she's dying each day, (because I am diabetic type 1 and do have a shorter projected lifespan anyway, so I feel like I need to make up for lost time).
Someone with an immense aptitude and talent, who appreciates the finer things in life, never forgets the small blessings, but always aims big, is frugal, supportive, rational and logical especially when it comes to resolving arguments, would love to travel, is fit and athletic and holds herself in high stature, good poise, dress, confidence, solid family life, not an extensive boyfriend or sexual history, I could go on for hours man..
Idk what to tell. I'm getting a little mentally disorganized here from all the JD. Been in love (or at least thought I was) with this girl for years. Dated on and off. Dating now. Felt great at first, I really had hope for the relationship. Last month or so has just been going downhill with no real reason. We've both changed a little since the beginning but I legitimately think I do more to show I care all the time. I'm just tired of being with someone who could take or leave me. I want more than that. I can get more than that. But then I feel bad because breaking up with her will really hurt her. Or she'll just be pretending to cry to try and manipulate me into staying. How can I be in a relationship with someone I think is capable of that?
Yeah, I don't think women like that exist anymore. There's no brakes on the >tfw no gf train.
2306 here in Eaglelandia.
Enjoying my new TBeach headset. Earlier today I literally couldn't move my body out of bed...I think it was because I felt too shitty. I've been getting better about it but today hit me like a ton of bricks.
I think at midnight I'm gonna get dressed and go shopping. My fridge is empty and as much as I hate going out, I gotta restock so I can be good for the next three weeks. It isn't too hard since I eat only once or twice a day.
Hey, barkeep. I never got the attention of the last bartender. Could I get a Brugse Zot Blond if you've got it? I'll to a shot of some cheap whiskey too to start it off.
I've had an absolutely horrid week and I want spring to come so I can go kayaking.
We're on two separate sides of the world, figuratively speaking. But really, feels are the same. Feels unite humanity. No one's ever above anyone else on an existential level such as this. Don't give up or think of yourself as an 'ugly piece of shit', either. Life has so much to offer, even if it's just sitting in a garden watching the world go by, at peace. Breaking free of it all is what I really want to do... sometimes I wonder why I do everything I do. It's just because I love success. I love being the best. But do I really love the things I do, besides winning at them? What do I really love, besides my own solitude, which I also despise?
Enjoy, my man. Kayaking is fun. What happened during the week?
No, I work nights at a hospital. I gotta do it because my stomach has been growling since this morning but ever since I went two weeks without being able to eat a while back, I kinda don't mind going a day or two without anything.
Yeah I made a baby with her and she hates me because I told her I cheated on her to get away from her do-nothing pregnant ass. It's a long story and you guys would actually understand if you knew anything about relationships.
>tfw every decision you make turns out to be wrong
anyone else know this feel?
Man, I know some fuckers who get down on rural-type folks, and what really pisses me off is that one of them *is* one. He comes from a small-ass town, grew up in poverty, and now that he's made it good he makes fun of "rednecks" all the time. And it's not like he isn't obnoxiously ignorant himself. Gets his fucking news from Buzzfeed, for instance. The fucking nerve of him, making fun of people.
OTOH, the more unapologetic pieces of "white trash" I've known have included some of the friendliest, kindest, most genuinely decent human beings it's ever been my pleasure to meet. If assholes with flat accents who think they're "cultured" because they went to the opera one time make fun of you, it's got nothing to do with your failures, and everything to do with them.
Next round's on me, man.
I appreciate the thought, but I've already given up. There's still hope for you though. Don't give up. Deriving satisfaction from winning in and of itself isn't an invalid feeling. Breaking free of it all is just apathy by another name and trust me, you don't want that.
Can I get a Prairie Oyster, still hungover form last night. There's a girl I'm falling for, but she's already in a relationship, so drinking to cope with these feelings of envy and vitriol.
Nice trips, barkeep.
Thanks for the Zot, it's been forever since I've had this sweet nectar.
I think I've relapsed back into my depression. I've been trying so hard to get moved out but no apartments are opening up at a fair price and I really, really want to not have to deal with a roommate. But, I hardly have any credit to start with so I think it won't be happening anytime soon. I just wanted to not celebrate my 20th at home but everything seems to be just falling apart.
I would accept wageslavery for the next few years if I could just be away from my families grasp.
This is my every feel.
It seems like it, my friend...
I suppose I can just buy some sex later on, or hopefully climb high enough on the social/class ladder where I could perhaps meet a conservative Asian businesswoman or some shit.
Wise words, thank you friend. I'll continue giving my life all I've got, and maybe I'll get lucky and someone will come along. If I die lonely, at least I'll die a respected achiever and comparative god along with it, even if they don't know gods can still feel.
Almost threw up making this, but enjoy. Hope you feel better.
Yeah...I know. My job's dumb muscle work, so no way would I ever say I don't work out. But shit diet means it doesn't matter because I'll still have belly fat.
I do that. For the most part, anyway. I think I average... 1600ish calories a day? I don't really keep count.
Planning to start working out after I'm done with my exams, and jacking off is, well lets just say baby steps first. Every time I've tried to improve this semester resulted in a big flop after a couple days so I've been taking it slow.
>Things I've improved
>Started writing in a journal daily since the new year
>Not being autistic and getting some school done using a modified pomodoro method, (30 mins study 30 mins fucking about)
I'm feeling pretty happy so far, but can't wait to make my gains back once this semester's done
If they do come along, you'll know. If you're handsome, do NOT sperg out and lose the opportunity as so many others have. You have no excuse not to succeed. Do good for me and every anon who didn't or can't make it. I don't know about the gods, but you'll make us proud if you succeed.
Here you go, and I'm drinking some delicious ice water.
That's good enough, as long as you survive. Though if you still have belly fat and are eating below the amount of calories you expend, that's very strange. Are you sure it's not bloating?
Guys im feeling really bad I had a chance for the first time to have a relationship with a girl she wanted to suck my dick I took my dick out its 4 inches she laughs and calls me a sissy boy now here im drunk and want to kill myself please send help
I'd give myself a 7/10 on the face, 8/10 body, and 9/10 on confidence. I don't have much flirting experience or anything, but I'll give it my best shot if someone comes along. I'll make you guys proud, I promise. I'll remember all of you every day.
Thanks, anon, that helped. I have a lot of poor person habits I feel like people notice, and my accents too thick to get rid of easily. My family would definitely be considered rednecks by some, but I'm not ashamed of them.
It sucks, but I think I'll get through it.
my gf had an ex who was 4 inches and she had great sex with him. there are girls who will be into you man dick size isn't as important as we make it. but yeah 4 inches is probably close the minimum you need so you barely made it
I dropped out today. Haven't told my parents yet. Good thing is, I've only wasted 3 months and 1000 dollars on college so far, so I'm not behind in life yet. I haven't decided if I'm going to move back to Chicago and get a comfy blue collar job working for my uncle or take a huge risk and join the Air Force. The Air Force will really help me in the long run and give me free college tuition among other benefits, but idk if I'm ready for military life yet.
Either way, glad to be done with school for the time being. I've been looking forward to this day for a long time, never been so at peace with myself.
I've always been heavy. I'm 5'11" and a stable 240; I'm quite capable of running and all of whatever crap, but it's just losing weight that I've never really been able to do. And outside of gut/torso, I look fine. Got calves like steel, and only some fat on my upper thighs.
Sorry, barkeep, had to throw some clothes in the wash. Back now.
I'll try and keep the story short. I was in college but had to leave this time last year because of finances. The college I went too was in the center of my state and I live a good 2 hours from it. I hope to return to university come this fall and by extension I want an apartment within 30-45 minutes commuting distance of the university.
I can't get a job down there without getting an apartment down there and if I get a job up here I'll have to quit come August and start over fresh in the college town while also being in the dorms again. I hated the dorms. I'd much rather have a roommate in an apartment than go through that hell again.
Frankly the only reason I will be going back this fall is because I promised my great grandfather I would. He's the only man I've had respect for being raised by a single mother and yada yada.
I'm anxious as fuck as usual.
Playing some Final Fantasy X and got the bug in Thunder Plains where if you get attacked by this certain group of three enemies your game freezes in the sense, everything still plays but you can't make any choices are anything.
I've tried reloading into that fight and it still hangs.
There goes an hour or so fo me leveling my characters' sphere grids.
Hey new bartend, I know the old guy is literally dying right now so my prayers are with him.
Anyway, I'll just take some tea tonight. I just started on a SSRI called Lexapro earlier this week, I'm really hoping it fixes me. I know people on this board have nothing but shit to say about them, but I've heard an equal number of success stories.
Besides that, I have girl problems; just like every man. She shows me affection one moment, then cold as fuck another moment. It's pretty stressful, also hoping the SSRIs fix those feelings too so I can brush that shit off easier instead of letting it ruin my week.
I'm just tired of feeling hopeless and being on other people's time. I'm 23, does it get better?
I dropped out of 4 or 5 carrers, lost count really, where i live it's all free of charge, but i get what you're going through.
What helped me was taking small courses on all the shit i found interesting, now i'm really commited to what i'm studying, maybe that'll help you. good luck bro.
It's better not to fantazise so much, i think about playing the lottery a lot, but it always ends up hurting me when i drop back down to reality.
I fit that description 100%, or at least i used to, my recommendation is for you to get some dumbells and work out, eat mostly salad + protein and low acallorie jello in between (10 call per portion = you can gobble it like a pig) It's working for me so far, you just got to stay motivated and consistent.
3 of my freinds gfs have either offered to have sex with me or heavily implied they wanted it. and i have declined every time and i havent told any of my freinds.
im pretty used to girls flirting,hitting on me ect. but this is different.what would you guys do in this situation?was i right to just leave it be?
Why does it have to be like this I cant make my dick grow more nobody laughs at girls when their tits are small or they have a small ass I cant change what genetics gave me why does it matter so much I just hate myself she left me because of my dick it feels horrible I know she was a whore but she was a human being close to me fuck me im done im fucking done
The dumbell routine /fit/ recommended me:
Shoulder Presses DB
Pushups (wall, table)
5x5 military presses
5x5 shoulder presses
5x5 French presses
USAF is a good choice. I'm planning on enlisting when I turn 26, if I'm not in a good enough position in life. Or maybe I'll do it sooner. Who knows. If you want to go into tech or medical stuff, you'll surely find your way in.
My only issue is >>25632479 because I think I'd have to lose around...40ish pounds to be considered fit enough.
Kinda. But I have complete hairy chest and stomach so that kinda helps...but I'm also ungodly pale, so taking off my shirt in any situation that isn't sexual in nature wouldn't be great.
I have a set of dumbells; 40lbs in free weights and two bars to slide them on. As for the diet side, I've been getting better from what I had before, but it's just a matter of me being a cheapskate.
>tfw you had every chance to be successful but you decided playing vidya was more fun than anything
>tfw you had a real,solid chance with "The one" but you let her slip away because of autism
>tfw know everything you are doing wrong but too lazy/scared to fix your life
>tfw trying to not snap and say fuck off to everything and give up
Saw an old friend of mine. He's got a really qt girlfriend now. His first ever. Were both 22. They seem really compatible. I'm happy for him, but at the same time I'm sad about my own loneliness you know? Anyways, give me something strong. Anything. I'll down a few shots and go to bed.
All edginess and Memes aside, I don't think there's such thing as "the one"
There are a handful of people you are compatible with, but I don't think we are puzzle pieces that are looking for a match.
I fucking hate women dude. Would you recommend SSRI's?
>tfw waiting for the day that VR headsets will allow us all to walk into a bar and chat the night away
It's coming brahs, anyday
damn, thats really bittersweet. Enjoy the drink, brah.
Here's your drink, whats bothering you dude?
So I met her approx 5ish years ago, her only sexual experience was not wanted, she was a freshman in college and she was taken advantage of when she had no experience with alcohol, after that she left the school and came back home.
You wanted full, but you're getting synopsis until I know you actually really want to know.
So here I come along, I treat her very well, I take her out on dates weekly, I do everything I can to make her happy. For the 4 years we are dating she's very apprehensive towards sex and would only put out if she was drunk outside of the occasional rare exception, and it's always with a condom. She comes from a rich, conservative, christian family.
LSS: She tells me that she's going to go on the pill so we don't have to worry about it, forgets to take it and then a baby is made. Fine, whatever. I'm willing to work with it because her reason for not wanting to have sex 'ever' is because she's afraid of getting pregnant. After she's pregnant we fucked approx. 3 times in 5-6 months, when there is no risk. My birthday rolls around and she's willing to make an exception... you know, granted that I buy dinner for the both of us.
I just knew nothing would change.
You are telling me man, you think you are happy and doing good one moment and then the next you might as well be a stranger to them.
I couldn't tell you yet about the SSRI, it takes 2 months before they start working and I'm on day 5. Christ, I hope they work.
God bless, bartend.
That's a great point, BTW. I asked her to marry me, bought her a ring and all that shit
Thinking that a firm, 100%, no holds barred commitment (which should have already been apparent) would have changed things.
You might want to look into tert-amyl alcohol. Its cheaper than everclear by the dose (its also 20 times more potent). And unlike ethanol it isn't metabolized into a toxic aldehydes so it won't fuck up your liver or give you a hangover (like alcohol though its still neurotoxic and you can still die of respiratory depression if you take too much). It has a history of use as an anesthetic so its not untested either. I'd suggest that any alcoholic robots who don't want to die of liver failure give it a try. Just remember that its 20 times as potent as everclear and dose appropriately. (You can buy it on amazon)
"Her inability to work with my needs" dude, that's just stupid... Are you a fucking animal? You are a human being, stop acting like a normie or a Chad and get your shit together.
Guys I dont feel sad I just feel empty I only truly feel alive in my dreams
also in /r9k/people always told me I was going to be big but here I am just a guy in an office job have no friends my dad has dementia and my mother hates me the last time I had a girlfriend was when I was a teenager I can no longer have fun with videogames I hate drugs and alcohol is it true what they say some people just are not meant to win well robots I think im one of those losers
>3 times in 5-6 months
Ouch. Sorry about that, man. Maybe it's just me, but I couldn't, in any way, see myself be in a sexless relationship. But then again I'm a deviant, so I have skewed views.
Didn't order anything yet; barmin, I'll take some merlot. I'm not in the mood for anything heavy, but I wouldn't care for a soda either.
Can I have another Zot while I feel my feels?
Had a period of my life like that. It was a bad dream but dreams brought solace. Though, I gave them too much importance and misled my way
So enjoy them but keep them as they are, out of reality sensations
You're right, 6'3, tattoos, constantly courted by women but I choose to do my own thing, as I find most people deplorable (at this point, according to you that would include (you)!)
I'm drinking wine alone in my room because I have no friends here and I can't stand how cruel this world can be
That's okay. I bartended once awhile back too and I can understand the distraction.
Look, she was pregnant and you cheated on her because you couldn't had sex every week? That's just idiotic, for real.
Also, you knew about her problems and still wanted a relationship with her, it's all your fault Buddy, all your fault.
Is there anything we can do to stop it in the future?
On one hand, I hate junkie scum. On the other hand, I cant deny a robo-bro. No meth please, I don't need the police kicking the door down. The other shit's fine I suppose.
You need to be better, anon. There's no other way. Was in your position many years ago, reluctant to take meds but when I hit insanely and devoidance I realized I needed them. It was thanks to that chapter of MD House when he is a psych ward and he realized he is sick
Now I'm still in hell but in a less painful stage and free of any anxiety about being able to do something and not doing it. Thus, I cannot blame myself
Bartender I ask you this does life get better? does anyone truly cares about me? Its sad when the highlight of your day is when you spoke of your problems in an anonymous board but it feels just bitter because I feel this board means more than my real life.
I'm beginning to see people as degenerates for partaking in human vices and pleasures, and am becoming genuinely scared of the future because of all the acceptance movements.
Call me old fashioned, but I think we're becoming too tolerant and accepting.
Anyone with me here?
Fuck, sorry. I feel terrible missing posts, my bad. Here's your drink
Thank you, sir. I'll keep the meth away and I'll do the other stuff in private save for the weed if anyone else would like to smoke.
I'm very drunk at the moment and I don't know why sniffing sounded like a good idea. You're right. Thanks for pointing it out.
Boxed wine or did you treat yourself? I always get a cheap 30 back of Miller High Life and get drunk 3 nights in a row alone.
So how has your week been, barkeep?
If you're over analytic then go with your gut. If you go with your gut start being analytic.
Lol, we're still fucked.
Gimme the most alcoholic beverage you have.
I found out from a friend that the girl I like, completely hates me, she told him that I try to talk to her too much, I'm always on her ass, and I try to hang out with her a lot, and its annoying her, keep in mind, she was giving me signals that she liked me, or I hope they were, anyway, I like this girl, she cucks the shit outta me (sent me a vid of her getting fucked by her now ex boyfriend) , but also kinda teases me, like sends me ass pics, and kinda low key tries to touch my dick sometimes, why am I such a cuck? I'm gonna try to move on, but I'm in too deep probably, all I do is think of her, and remember that she is probably getting fucked as I type this, fuck me
I think it's less people are too tolerant...but more it's becoming Animal Farm. It's not just ok to be trans, a woman or not white, but it's in fact better. The pendulum is swinging, and it's been swinging far too long in the same direction.
I agree with you man. We need National Socialism, tbqh.
>some really old lady comes in looking at the kids hampers
>she asks "are these all you have? I'm looking for one for my grandson"
>How old is he?
>"20. He's staying with me for now"
>Oh. We have adult hampers over there...
>"I can't afford those. He keeps me broke. Besides, he hasn't grown up (lol). Don't worry, he says he's gonna get a job. Are you hiring?
Goddamn NEETS are fucking scum of the earth.
Yes, he's (my son) actually here at my place this weekend/tonight. we've made the agreement to not get courts involved... I pay her for childcare monthly and she gives me 1-2 weekends a month since we live on opposite sides of town and it's too much of a pain in the ass to try to do weeknights.
Im Holderstrauch, im Holderstrauch.
Der bluehte schoen im Mai,
Da sang ein kleines Voegelein
Ein Lied von Lieb und Treu.
I agree with this.
Less so this.
I just think that it's becoming too much of a mass movement. If I were to say I think pastors should be able to deny gays a marriage, or that children shouldn't be cross dressing, I'd be ostracized. It's a whole new breed of oppression, where being tolerant is forced upon you.
Does anyone else here sometimes feel like maybe we're supposed to be alone? That we are unlovable and maybe, since we're fucked up, that's for the best? That maybe we should just marry our hands and forget about any expectations of ever loving or being loved?
I'm drunk and these feels always come to me when i'm like this.
>Be in love with this girl for 5 years
>5 years of my life I spent obessing over her, being stuck in the friendzone
>finally get out of the friendzone
>literally the best moment of my life
>She was everything I wanted in a woman
>we talk every day, she's really into me
>One day she stops texting me
>ask her what's up
>tells me "I found someone better"
I've been drunk or high everyday since then. I just want someone to love me the way I loved her. I just want to be better, but I'll never be good enough for her or anyone else
Music chat where?
Okay, I see where you're coming from, that definitely makes sense.
This is pretty fucking good brah, thanks.
Werkraum is the best <3
here you are, brobot
This is a lovely lecture if you, or anyone else, is interested:
I love watching lectures or documentaries while intoxicated.
>I found some one better
Fuck her man, seriously FUCK HER. Thats the cuntiest thing I've heard in awhile. Treating you like a replaceable object is dumb as shit, you legit deserve better. I know it really hurts right now and believe me bro I get it, but you'll find some one who actually appreciates you unlike that cunt.
Dude, that sucks. I feel for you man.
Know that if she was an angel in your head, then she isn't who you think she was, she wasn't who you were in love with. This thought helped me a lot.
One day she'll have her heart broken and she will know this is what you went through, and she'll feel sorry, maybe.
Good luck anon, you made me tear up while remembering shit.
REEEEEE FUCKING ROASTIES
The original bartender is dying of Huntington's, he cant make these posts too often. Enjoy the drink.
Been with my Wife since high school, for a total of 8 years. we just had a son in July.
My son turns 4 months and the wife tells me she hasn't loved me for over a year. Tells me on a friday, is moved out by Tuesday.
I don't know what to do.
Guess I'll start with a jack and coke, sir.
I went on a date with a girl I had a crush on in highschool, we made out and shit. We were supposed to go on a second date but she hit me with the whole "lets be friends" bit.
Everytime I get rejected I think about her man. Like whats stopping any other female from finding someone better, I'm so fucking worthless it ont be hard to do.
Bartender give me a bottle of your cheapest vodka its gonna be a long night.
I know I'm probably in the wrong place to ask about this but
Has anyone done any military service? Canuck here considering doing combat engineering, but I know how much it would worry my family, and if something were to happen to me, it would hurt them greatly, and I'm not sure if I'd be willing to put them through that.
I hate women so much. If you like them "too much" they think you're clingy. What the fuck is wrong with liking someone too much? I'd kill for a girl to be clingy with me.
Genuine question from a confused /o/utist: is boredom the only reason you don't enjoy driving? 'Cause theres a lot of things you could change to make driving a lot more entertaining for yourself
i feel so lost and directionless. every path seems like its dead
25 kv neet 5 years on bux
i dont know what to do. sometimes i think about moving to some south east asian country and maybe trying my luck there. i dont know if getting a female will chance me or anything
other days i just dream of shooting heroin all day and moving to cambodia for a cheap stable supply of hard dope, just need some miracalous online income
either way i just spend the day in a hazy dream of videogames and codeine
the worst part is i cant kill myself, because i have to live to see the birth of ai. i just cannot imagine missing out on seeing machine inteligence evolve on itself (20-30 years by most experts)
oy gevalt! What a good goyim! I didn't even have to remind yew of the Shoah where 16 gabillion jews died! Oyyyy veeyyyyyy!!!!
Never give up, if there is something I learned is that you can learn something even in bad experiences. Use that to improve yourself as a man and as a person and never, NEVER give up.
I'd say see a therapist. Don't have any experience with derealization disorder, but it seems pretty serious. Here's your root beer.
Heh, you have the same plan I did. I'm also a Canuk who wanted to go combat engineering. Got washed out due to medical reasons. Apparently I had the wrong kind of surgery to get my hearing up, and I got kicked off the roster due to liability. But that's for another time.
Have you considered a place in the Reserve Forces first? Less commitment, you don't have to go overseas unless you want to, same training (although it takes longer due to your more relaxed schedule). Only downside, you only get 75% pay compared to the regular force guys.
If you are under 18 as one poster has seemed to indicate, you could try the Army Cadets. Its actually a clever tactic, the cadets do the same hours and training the reservists do, sometimes even WITH the reservists, so they can smoothly transition into their parent unit when the time comes. No pay, but that kind of training and networking before you join is invaluable. I personally did that for 2 years (until I turned 18 and aged out) and I thought it was awesome.
Fuck, I don't even know where to start venting, pour me a locally brewed beer, got to support small business. You should get a few pool tables round this bar, maybe brighten things up here
Good idea with the pool tables, enjoy that drink.
Honestly it's not the comittment or anything that bothers me, the idea of dying in combat doesn't bother me, and the years oversea is fine.
It's the idea of my 6 year old sister bursting into tears because she found out her big brother will never be coming home
I'll feel bad for never doing a tour, but if something did happen, the pain I'd cause to others is unbearable.
I know that feel.
5'10 and still haven't broke 150 pounds yet ffs
Hey barkeep, bourbon on the rocks if you please.
I just recently got diagnosed with Schizoid Personality Disorder, I'm not sure how I feel about it. Psychiatrist reccomended me a different form of medication besides the anti-depressants I'm taking. I don't know how to feel about this. At least I don't have autism like how my therapists suspected when I was a kid. It makes sense too, my grandmother was a schizophrenic, and I'm worried I may develop the full disease later on. At least I know I'm a schizo instead of an autist.
Not gonna lie, I was mainly joining because I was (am?) passively suicidal. Didn't care if I died, just wanted to wrench and blow stuff up for a fat paycheck (both those being two of my favorite things, of course). It just happened to be a bonus that I enjoyed Cadets. Didn't care who my pay went to, me, or whoever I left behind that would give enough of a damn.
Take comfort in the knowledge that the very fact you are having that struggle with yourself proves you are a better person then I am, anon.
>Hearing all these stories about old friends having new years kisses and cute nights with significant others
>I spent NYE in a bathtub with vomit and self hatred
It's okay. It'll end eventually.
Thanks for that. Even if you are just an anon to me, it's nice to be called a good person.
I hope you find happiness in yourself anon, is there any other things you might be able to do?
>try to browse /fit/ in order to get shape
>its only a bunch of roid generals, feels thread, and threads about high test girls
>anyone asking any questions get yelled at to read the sticky
>sticky is bare bones and isn't very specific to anything
I feel like I have no idea what im doing
Here's your drink, dude. I gotta get some sleep. Goodbye, robots. I love and care for each and every single one of you. Goodnight.
What I've learned from /fit/ is
>Eat big to get big
>Lifting for girls is stupid
>Starting Strength is a great routine for beginners
>Starting Strength is a terrible idea for advanced lifters
The only useful things I've taken from it. QTDDTOT can be really helpful on occasion, but /fit/ is pretty terrible fitness community. I only go on there because I don't want to bother making an account on another site.
I don't even drink whiskey you faggot. Putting a random brand name in a mixed drink name is just stupid. It's called a "rum and coke" or a "whiskey and coke". "Gin and tonic" not "gin and canada dry"
Military-wise? No, I talked with the recruiting officer for a few hours after getting the news before it boiled down to "Yeah, sorry man, its a desk job or nothing." Waking up at 5:00am for morning drill, followed by paperwork for 10 hours sounds like some twisted hell for me, so I had to let that go.
Waiting on a motorcycle tech school to start, still get to work with my hands, still doing what I love to do, wrenching on machines I love, but it is a bit depressing to have a fairly large chunk of your life mapped out, only to watch it go up in smoke for reasons you can't change. At least on a bike I can still give myself the adrenaline rush I wanted to get by going overseas.
Goodnight man, it was good coming out.
We go to sleep and wait for it all to start again.
See you around, anons, its been a good one.
>tfw you look up your 8th grade oneitis from 15 years ago on Facebook
Gonna be alone for the rest of my life. Dream of finding love, but I know it wont happen.
Gimme 3 bottles of Whisky.
jack and leave the bottle here
was my birthday two nights ago and all i wanted was to take a picture of my family completely together again then come home and blow my brains out
Stopping by. Got a qt lined up but she's most likely a roastie. Do I care? Don't know. Don't even know if she wants the D.
Abstract kinda feel.
I realized something though. My emotional needs are being met by men, but I can't fuck them. So I have some male friends for emotional connections, and hopefully some qts for bodily release.
A man can dream...
>my best friend is unintentionally cucking me out of this girl I like just by being an all around better person
>having a mental disorder that basically makes you a whiny bitch
I'M DONE WITH THIS SHIT, IT'S OVER
YOU ARE OVER
I've fallen out with my lifelong best friend over him being a cunt to a mutual friend of ours and his girlfriend being a textbook psycho. He's pretty much the last of my genuine friends I had, but she's turned him into a basketcase. I think this is where I give up trying to do the right thing by people.
i don't know anymore.
i hate the fact that my closest friends are a bunch of dudes in the internet.
i hate the fact a single insult to me is enough to ruin my day, i try my best to look calm and rational outside.
i hate the fact i can never argue or point out the bullshit of my peers only because i am in a lower status and they won't take anything i say seriously
i dont need any drinks
but i'd need a (you)
Depressions so fucking weird man. I wish there were some math or science, yknow? Something that'd let me put pins in it and map it out. Why the fuck am I depressed?
My life is fine. I have a job, I'm going to school, great friends, currently single but I don't do terribly in the girl market. There's a boy starving in Saudi Arabia, a man selling himself to the cartel, and some little girl being all into the sex trade by her own mother, and my life sucks because things aren't just how I'd like them. Fuck, even if they were, I'd probably still be depressed. Nothing is wrong, my problems mean nothing, I know I don't deserve to be depressed, but that just makes me more depressed, and the cycle continues...
You know what's really fucking weird?
Got mad depressed after some shit happened with a girl in high school, dumped on antidepressants, they made me have multiple mood swings in a day (Antidepressants make bipolar symptoms worse/more frequent). But one day I just stopped feeling depressed, felt happy all the time, stopped caring about this girl, went off meds, stopped seeing psychiatrist. Problem was that I was so happy all the time it became a problem. I wouldn't notice or care if I annoyed people, would make irrational impulsive decisions etc.
After a while of this sort of shit, I found out the girl that was giving me problems before ended up killing herself by jumping in front of a train. Thing is that I didn't care. Couldn't have given a fuck. I felt worse thinking that I should care, and even then it's not much more than crying over spilled milk.
After this manic period ended, I felt fucking terrible about it since.
Bipolar is definitely shit. Ask Kurt Cobain
Should I ask a grill out if I completely don't know her, even a name? Couldn't stalk her since it seems that she has no accounts anywhere, sometimes she catches my look and we manage to get eye contact for a few seconds, I'm beta retard who doesn't even speak with girls, was trolled by some acquiantances if I'm gay, though I was asked out several times and even told that one loves me.
I met her again last night at a party. You know it's hard... you think you've gotten over her but just seeing her again makes your legs weak. I mean I talk to her now and then, and I hear from a lot of people that she still likes me...
>mfw I constantly avoid her and destoy every chance I have of getting back together with her.
>Just so I don't have to feel when (not if) I lose her again.
It's been a year now for me and I had to detele my facebook profile a month ago because I couldnt stand seeing her pictures with her new boyfriend anymore.
I know that the only reason why I am still obssessing over her is because I simply haven't found another female person to replace her but still. It sucks.
>she is probably getting fucked about now by that fucknugget shitlord
>I am drinking whisky alone, frogposting and playing vidya
Far out man, Im doing the exact same thing...
What you playing?
Also I mean its not that I haven't found a replacement for her. I have had like 4 pretty serious relationships after her. But I've ended them all because they weren't with her...
>fuck i'm a pathetic and depressing self-loathing asshole
I finished RE Code Veronica today, I am about to choose a new game. Sticking with ps1 or ps2 stuff because im on a retro kick and its comfy, couch and laptop on the side and all that. Maybe RE2 or Crash Bandicoot.
>tfw was invited to the party first time in forever and it just so happened that my oneitis was also invited
>i got pretty drunk and actually got along well with people and socialized
>my oneitis (i never really talked with her more than exchanging hi's at uni) sat down next to me at couch and stroke up a convo
>it went really well, the talk glued and kept at it for like 30 minutes and i ever managed to look her in the eyes most of times, it surprised how confident i sounded and how deeper my voice seemed than normal.
>she sat on my lap and held her arms behind my head suddenly
>i froze like a deer in headlights and avoided eye contact with her
>she eventually got up and left after a minute that lasted forever
>i left almost instantenously , it happened on friday and im still in bed thinking about it
>i will die a kv
Know that feel anon.
Good grades, school's ok, normies even like me, but I just want to be alone with a qt gf which I'll most likely never find if I keep going like this.
Especially because there are people suffering more than me out there, it's so goddamn hard to understand what's wrong with me.
I don't deserve to be sad or bitch about being sad if there are people worse of out there, right?
And yet I do...