I hope I fall asleep and never wake up.

That's the dream anon.

That would be ideal. I'd hurt my family too bad if I offed myself.

>sleeping
>giving the nightmares a chance
>not drugging yourself until sweet darkness gives you release until you wake up again

>>25610514
Same.
I've been making drafts of suicide notes and I don't really know how to apollogize to my dad, I know he'll be really sad... simply dying in my sleep sounds "dreamy" lol

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>>25610499
What is it like to go to sleep and never wake up?

What was it like to wake up after having never gone to sleep?

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>>25610499
I hope my corporeal form is permanently destroyed by an anomaly in space-time.

>>25610499
>tfw if given the choice you would've chosen to have never existed in the first place
I just want out but I don't want to hurt anyone. My dad called me today and told me he's proud of me and I hated it. I'm starting to resent my family for putting so much emotional investment in me because it feels like I'm a hot stock that's about to crash but no one else sees the warning signs.

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>>25611341
>I'm starting to resent my family for putting so much emotional investment in me because it feels like I'm a hot stock that's about to crash but no one else sees the warning signs.
...How did your christmas go?

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>>25610499
I am hoping That for 10 years now, still I wake up every morning

>>25611400
I saved up my money from my wagecuck job and got everyone really nice presents, especially my dad. He offered to return his because he thought I would need the money and he has very little, but I denied him because I knew he really liked it. But the truth is I really do need the cash and I'm struggling both physically and mentally to keep my shit together. I'm the pride and hope of my family though so I don't dare open up about any of it.

>>25611491
The pride and hope.. Fuck man, how long? How long have have you been in escape gear?

>>25611535
Since as long as I can remember being aware of it, which is 6th grade more or less.

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>>25611628
Fuck I haven't been in escape gear that long. Maybe the past year and a half.

But fucking christ. Your story from what I'm making of it, is comparable to mine in the places it counts the most.

From 7th grade when they stuck me into gifted programs straight through to college on the dean's list, i've had the expectations of my family on my shoulders.

it makes the guilt of my absolute dissipated will to live even worse.
Given the circumstances i'm slowly dropping out, and having had to find ways to dissuade them from buying me gifts this year to save money they didn't have to spend because I knew in I would not be alive, soon.

There are worse factors that are catching up to me.

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>>25610616
>Out of context quoting Alan Watts
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