Getting lighter at night edition
Forcing myself to go out tonight so I can imagine that I still have friends even though they were at most people I could sit next to just so I wouldn't look alone in a classroom.
Shit ain't right.
Guy afraid of leaving his house for mcdonalds here, went to bed hoping that when I woke up I might feel less afraid, it's not the case and I feel more afraid this evening, I'm really craving a big mcdonalds meal as well.
Have you considered drinking heavily mate? I'm the guy who lives on a council estate and when I was younger I'd be scared to leave the house because of all the chavs so I'd just get shit faced drunk and it would give me the courage to go to the shops.
just keep asking questions and being all "oh really" "uh huh" but don't do that too much. women love talking about themselves, she probably isn't expecting to hear much about you
When is there going to be a new OP image?
Also post waifus.
Same here mate it's going to be fun. What do you do when you're pissed? I normally listen to music then go on Omegle with the r9k tag.
Last night I spoke to this Canadian bloke for about 2 hours and we came to the conclusion that reality is just a simulation of a simulation of a simulation times infinite that will be created by inter dimensional beings (IE God) will will be created in the distant future by the Super AI that us humans will create, but that will eventually be our demise.
Basically reality happened once but the hyper dimensional beings have kept recreating it so that they can keep being created by the super AI created by humans so they can keep existing forever.
I don't really drink, I tried it when I was much younger and it just made me throw up and then suffer massive headaches the next day, no matter what I drank. Besides even if I could opt for drinking now, there is nothing to drink in the house.
Surely there is a greater purpose to life
There is nothing of greater importance that a man's love for his waifu.
The whole concept of "just do it" doesn't make sense to me, I don't understand how to "just do it". There isn't an action I take in my life without thinking it over for a bit before hand, even getting out of bed, typing this thing up, going to the bathroom, I think over literally everything in my life. I do not understand how to "just do it".
Tho technically everybodies waiting on me to do some more mock ups of the other ideas presented.
But yesterday was such a fucking depressing day I didn't feel like doing anything.
and im going to asda soon so fuck knows when im going to sit and do something.
Your post makes it sound creepy, because she's forcing you despite you not wanting to go. Like she is a controlling girlfriend who refuses to shag you.
If you were just meeting your sister for a drink, then no. Unless it's at a strip club, then maybe again.
Because that's what all the normies do. They get drunk by themselves in their bedrooms on weeknights and speak to R9K users on Omegle.
By that definition that means you are also a normie due to the fact you too are talking to r9k users right now. You bellend.
Angryanon fuck off back to your cave please. Just because your boss shouted at you today, we really don't give a fuck. Seriously, kill yourself.
Don't listen to Angryanon OP Image guy, your OP images are the best.
I'm going to go home, have dinner and maybe cry myself to sleep. I've been writing a diary for people to find for when I eventually kill myself, just to show them just how much they have failed me.
Wish I was a trucker.
>tfw wasted the best years of my life staying at home infront of my PC like an autist
>back at uni
>loathe it in it's entirety
>don't care at all about my course
>six months of shit I hate, before graduating with no experience in what was promised when they advertised the course, and no potential job prospects
>despise work anyway on top of that
>get depressed thinking about how even more depressed I'm going to be when I'm forced to work
What's an unsafe amount of codeine per day or is it too high to bother worrying about?
Got my wisdom teeth out and they gave me just pure codeine pills whereas before I've had co-codamol which I know you can't take too many of due to the paracetamol in them.
iktf, I just farted out a literature review in a couple of days and it's almost definitely complete trash.
I honestly feel like if I failed it and had to drop out it would probably be better for me because then I could just get a job at game or something and have 6 months of experience versus getting a worthless psych degree and starting fresh in summer.
I got DIO and the world, and it made me realise how fucking ridiculous dio's poses are because I cannot make this fucker do a single one
>live with grandparents
>grandma passed away 1 year ago
>since then grandfather has been getting more lonely
>I'm his only company
>work and have my own life
>he sits in the house all day
>don't want to live at home forever
>don't want to leave my grandfather by himself as I know he's lonely as fuck even with me at home
What the fuck do I do.
just curious how does your "own life" look? I have a job too and make money and shit but i dont live shit. i just work, shitpost on 4chan, and das it mane. yeah i have an own car and all. not an own place but i could easily afford one.
I'm 22 and never went out the past 6 years. severe autism
I was referring more to the idea of camaraderie, sense of adventure etc. Reality is it's just hours of the same motorways, all by yourself, getting fat because the only things you can eat are from motorway service stations.
Last time I was in Cornwall I tried all the weird ones. Had beef and Stilton, rhubarb and custard, all day breakfast (probably my favourite) and a bunch of other ones. I still enjoy the traditional pasty though.
>be such an autistic annoying asspie that even my dog hates me
i just want to be a comfy normie like that
instead i am a autist without friends who abuses over the counter drugs such as DXM and caffeine (rarely alcohol though)
if i would get in contact with drug normies I'd probably be dead in a few weeks
Some people dream of success
While you're gonna wake up and work hard at it
Nothing is impossible
You should get to the point
Where anyone else would quit
And you're not going to stop there
No, what are you waiting for?
JUST DO IT
>Why yes I do work in the field known as machine operation
Angry Anon, he woke up in the night,
To the sight of his father bare and unsheathed,
"Come here dear lad I've come back from the pub,
And I nare go to sleep til we've laid in the heath",
The glow of the moon lit shine to their bottoms,
Frolicking gay, til they were five hours gone,
This could be why his soul is so rotten,
This angry dark heart misses his old mans shlong
Ask her opinion as a women if Serena looks better with long hair or short.
>being this jealous
Someone did ok for themselves, why you so mad?
>he thinks I'm the one he originally responded too
are you retarded once again?
and the package doesnt tell you how much to take when you want to abuse it, it only tells you how much you take when you want to actually use it what it's intended for.
same shit with DXM. it tells you to take 1 cap every 6 hours but if you actually want some effects you gotta do at least like 5 at once or something. some people take 50 at once and trip their balls off and do this weekly for years and dont die.
nop. but also not UK fag ;)
you CAN get it over the counter in UK though.
sometimes i had trouble getting ahold of it, i wonder how freaking 16 year olds get so much seriously
There used to be a fresh pasty shop in Gloucester that made a Chicken & Sweetcorn pasty which was my favourite snack of all time for after school. Not had anything like it since they went.
Made the right call even if you were coarse .
Quite a big fan of nigger music
i love his music, his voice, the way he looks, the way he dresses
yeah, you seek social life and shit with your dog. because you're a normie. you are capable of expressing apreciation towards it. you're normal. fuck off.
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Question. How do you do it? Most people talk complete bullshit all the time and I can't stand it. What do you talk about and shit? It's hard to keep up so I generally stay quiet until I feel confident enough in what I want to say as things I can easily talk about don't come up often.
Instead of saying it, maybe we should try and learn to better our advancement.
>insert money, bitch or weed chant here
>How do I "get help"?
just bee urself
>Do I just google for nearby GPs, get their number and book an appointment?
No, you have to register, and a lot of GP surgeries aen't taking new patients so you'll have to shop around and plan how you'll get there on public transpot and wait a month for an appointment.
>Do I need to explain why I want to end it during the appointment?
If you want them to section you, sure
I have both, though.
Grew up with my cat, who's old as fuck and adopted my dog 6 years ago.
Owning pets gives me a reason not to kill myself, because who else will take care of them if I die?
>Not owning a dog to repel pakis and nogs
Cats are great, I have a little 14 year old runt of the litter 3.3kg cat with a heart murmur. She fights cats that weigh twice her size, always has, came in the other week with a massive 4 inch gash on her head from fighting, went back out the next day to defend her garden and territory.
I love you Cleo, my dear friend.
>owning a dog
>have to walk it daily
>have to literally pick up its shit, and carry it around in a bag
>if you ever put it in your car you car will stink and will lose a huge amount of resale value
I can sort of understand cats because they mind their own business and stay out of the way, but dogs?
>drive fast turbocharged 4 cylinder shitbox
Just got back from asda.
looking at all the hot slags as usual.
Got some nice things.
The asda hot & spicey cocktail sausages fuck me theyre yummy.
got some egg mayo filler, now everytime I go to the bread bit, the breads always one day from being out of date. wtf is with that.
parents are ordering takeaway tonight yummy.
>Shitreon Saxo W reg
>Had it for 3 years and loved it
If I could change anything it would be that it has power steering, electric windows, electric sunroof, heated seats and air conditioning.
I work at asda and starting a couple of weeks ago instead of putting fresh softies and loaf at the back of the shelf they just keep it through the back and fill it when it's empty to cutback on reductions and waste
>needing to coop your pupper up in a car
>not living in the country side
>Not walking 5 minutes to a nice quiet patch of country side
>living in the countryside
>not within easy walking distance of any takeaways
>probably no fibre internet
>very far from the post office to go and collect deliveries of "special comic books" from Japan
>real and ever-present danger of wolves
Sounds awful desu.
Who here /back on the meds/? I used to have pretty severe psychosis but after years of therapy and cbt it subsided, strange as it is i missed it, stopped my meds a couple of months ago but its been a very hellish ride, back on them today desu
got the same car but without the luxury shit (still has electric windows and power steering) and i kind of want to keep it forever. underneath all the dents, scratches and filth from 2 years of not washing it theres actually a pretty decent car.
Posties is 5 minute drive or a 20 minute walk and takeaways deliver :)
I-It's still shit, stop pretending like it isn't.
I've been at the library since about 1pm today with my m8's, drove us back home a whilemago and bought some lmaow33d. I'm currently sat doing work and shitposting waiting for my mates to get in from the gym so I can smoke a cheeky joint with them and get back to doing my project preparations.
Had a gf over 3 years ago, had girls since then but never anything serious.
>tfw trying to hide tears in a public place
>tfw someone looks directly into your eyes and they know. you can see they know.
>tfw getting bullied at work
>middle aged big chin woman keeps telling me everything that goes wrong there is my fault
>tfw trying really hard and still getting shit on
>Want to shave my disgusting neckbeard
>Don't want to look like a 12 year old
>mfw reeetards try to shit on people who bothered to improve themselves.
I want the newshits to leave.
Good thing about 6 year olds is that they're pretty low on judgement because they haven't realised how awful everything is yet. Just spend some time alone with her. Draw, read, whatever. I used to think I was too spergish to talk to my little sister but kids really don't give a shit, and now someone actually cares about me. It's a good feel.
>watch this on dxm
>the picture is moving like sort of swimming motions (hard to explain, like when u watch one of those spiral thingies for a minute)
Who /scat/ master race here?
Nothing seems hotter to me than a dominant woman pinning me down and shitting on me, then sitting on my face forcing me to clean her shitty asshole
I remember when I was 16 I first got into those brutal deepthroating videos, my first fetish, so maybe I'm a switch
Get the fuck out of here, you filthy heathen.
have this really hot porn where a girl shits under a girls nose so that she cant breath and is forced to swallow the shit or she suffocates
are u fken retarded
u can buy DXM literally from the pharmacy, no prescrition needed
make sure to research it (erowid), its not like other drugs, there are different "plateous"
Holy shit I didn't know anybody saved that when I posted it like once on I think /v/ back in 2012.
i bought this t-shirt lads, i'm officially a band t-shirt nerd
>tfw got this awesome shirt back in 2014
I don't even go outside I just love having it.
1-5 Continue playing vidya
6-0 Get stoned and watch Star wars
Raining all day today, snow at weekend. Anyone from a flooded area?
Mate I haven't posted here in a couple of days. You started this meme and now you've got these faggots imitating me.
You've only yourself to blame for these threads becoming shit.
420 blaze it smoke weed everday
I watched a bit of the trial, what stuck out to me was the prosecutor grasping for straws so much. He tried to say that because Oscar didn't remember what was plugged into the sockets next to his bed that he was guilty.
>Nothing will ever beat the Trayvon trial, however.
I literally have no idea how, I've tried looking through reddit and I can't find any guides or anything. I'm a fucking retard so figuring things out isn't my strong point, I don't even have any strong points.
Go to to coinbase, get a bitcoin wallet. Then install tor browser and use any of the following sites to buy memedrugs.
Of course i have never done this myself.
Supporting the beta uprising is a worthy cause, truly better than being an hero
No fun allowed, we are all just ants building a shitty nest that we call the UK and to an extent the planet
>would you defend him or lump him in with all the other paki criminals?
I'd happily lump you with all the other paki parasites, pakiboo. You're all scum.
>"g-g-go back to /pol/!!!"
Nah I'm good.
Lads, the baby of the filthy pakis above me has been crying for i say about 30 minutes now.
Im genuinely concerned for the little curry nigger. How long should a baby be able to cry for?
Why is no one doing anything?
I would give anything to be able to work from home, I'm sure the constant anxiety of having to deal with people at work is going to give me a massive stomach ulcer or something, I'm constantly on edge. I want to just sit in my underpants and code websites or something.
>a deliveroo nigger gets more an hour than me
Here I am lugging heavy ass shopping and you get 8 quid + tips for delivering takeaways.
I sometimes get tips but it's rare to get them.
I've just done it for the first time. Its tricky to get into, I'd say install Tails and don't take risks like having Tor just on windows. Remember to use PGP. Maybe check your local area for a bitcoin ATM so you don't have to put in all your details. And remember don't send bitcoins from the place you bought it from to the darkmarket, always use a buffer.
LISTEN LADS I'M FUCKED
THINKING ABOUT ENDING IT DESU
>PAYDAY LOAN DEBT, OVERDRAFT DEBT, RENT ARREARS
>BANK REMOVED MY OVERDRAFT WHICH WAS THE ONLY WAY I COULD SURVIVE
>COLLECTION AGENCIES SENDING ME LETTERS
>ALREADY LIVE IN A HOMELESS SHELTER SO I CAN'T EVEN BE ANY LOWER THAN THIS
JUST FUCK MY SHIT UP SENPAI
WHEN WILL THIS MADNESS END?
Yeah I mean, its not bad, but it isn't great, I'm from Manchester and it isn't much better here. A lot of Chinese in Sheffield if that's your thing though right?
I was in the last thread looking for you, why do you feel so anxious about everything? I read everything you put about your anxieties about just going out and it is exactly how I was a couple of years ago.
Yup, life is cruel.
>Don't you have parents or relatives you could stay with rather than sleeping with druggies and alcoholics?
Nope, no family, no friends anymore.
I'm probably not even at rock bottom right now, it's only going to get worse in the coming weeks when shit begins to hit the fan even more than it already has
I'm just waiting for death now desu
Running tor on windows is a bit insecure, I don't pretend I am an expert on cyber security but from everything I have read then it seems to be the consensus that running tor to get on the darkmarkets on mac or windows isn't great and to run it on linux. I use a bootable USB of Tails, that OS wipes all the data every boot and comes built in with a wallet and Tor and all that.
Ahh, fair enough, sites like coinbase take all your info, so I would say to send the bitcoins through a few different wallets (or use a tumbling service) to disassociate it with your identity.
Honestly, 4chan is a great distraction. Allows you to vent completely while remaining anon.
Because the shelter has wifi. As retarded as that sounds... Homeless shelters too have to try and keep up with the times. The place is full of criminals and druggies etc and I'm neither of those but still somehow ended up here so... who knows, if i had family and friends i doubt i'd be here
I don't know why, I've just always been afraid of simply everything, I have to think through everything and I have to worry about everything. I cannot imagine a life differently, I don't understand how people can do things like leave the house or meet others without days of building up the courage and/or backing out several times.
How old are you pal? You seem to really hate yourself that's the main thing. In the earlier thread you seemed to think that everyone would be looking down on you, have you had a lot of that in your past? Have you done anything like been to college or worked?
Everything you posted earlier hit home, and it sounds fucking retarded and cliched but I thought the same about not imagining life differently but it can change and things can help.
It isn't too hard. Someone posted that reddit link, the site is a shithole but they have some great guides, just follow them. Beware of nucleus (a popular market) at the moment though, they locked my account with a bit of money in there, starting to think it could be an exit scam. I'm sure you aren't stupid, but even if you are there are always people stupider.
Already seen 3 times
Not sure what to save up for lads, I have a mid tier pc, and decent sound system + turntable, maybe I could upgrade my monitor as it's only a 22" so I could get a 40" for about 200bong
I could always save up for driving lessons and a car but then I would never have any money, same with moving out of my mummy's, paying over 250 a month to rent is a chumps game I might as well stay at home
Left my phone on with grindr up. I can't stop cringing, tried telling her it was just another version of tinder but she wouldn't drop it.
She's promised she won't tell my dad though but has encouraged me to "be more careful".
24, used to get bullied in school a fair bit and even teachers treated me like shit. I dropped out of college and I quit work at the same time because bullying happened in both those places, been a recluse ever since.
What job were you in? You know more than anyone how shit people are from your experiences, so why do you care what they think of you? Like with the McDonalds, say you fucked up the transaction and people had to wait two minutes longer (which wouldn't happen, the worst doesn't always happen), so what? Even if people got pissed off at you then why does it matter what some dickheads think? You know how people bullied you, so surely a part of you knows that you are a better person than them?
The incapacity to work, I'm not autistic or aspie just 0 friends, 0 social skills and a very sad individual. Went to the doctors and they didn't think I had anything wrong so they put me on fluoxetine and CBT but that's not enough to get bennies
Anyone ever been on a meet up with meetup.com?
Anyone ever been salsa dancing or speed dating lads? This shit is really out of my comfort zone but I will never improve otherwise.
>tfw 30 and time is running out
Maybe I could have a break down at work, or piss myself I don't think I'd have the balls to do it and live with it
My sister has quit her job because she has "panic attacks" but she's a normie, she's probably just realised that life is a big joke and what she does is meaningless
>not having money saved for just this scenario
i could 3 years without a job no problemo
>check local meetup.com groups
>group for single mothers
>at least 3 mindfulness meditation groups
>2 yoga groups
>group for divorced people
>group for people who ride motorcycles
And I am none of these things
you have to actually pay to declare bankruptcy, and quite a bit too.
Also, it stops you from doing things later in life (If i fucking make it to that point, that is)
I'm essentially in freefall right now and have accepted it. I'll crash eventually, and then start over.
Well lads, after having a word with my boss today about how I'm only given shit work while my coworkers are given good stuff he told me I'm my own worst enemy because I'd done so well at the shit stuff and they need me on it.
Then he gave me a long load of bollocks about all the potential I have, the high visibility of what I'm doing, the chance to progress etc.
Was that just managerial bullshit to get me to shut the fuck up?
I feel like it was.
I was expecting it to be chad types gloating about breaking the speed limit with /sp/ tier caps spam but I was pleasantly surprised.
Looking through the catalog I can't identify any blatant meme shitposting, seems like it's contained in >>>/o/14184498, overall it seems quite focused and orderly compared to a lot of other boards. Lots of good quality discussion. >>>/o/14184357 sums it up well.
It's nice to see a board generally doing what it should be doing.
Having money to save requires actually having spare money. Even when working full time I had nothing, it all went on expenses, rent, food etc and I didnt and don't buy consumer shit or even have ''luxuries'' other than a phone. The only ''expensive'' thing I owned was a pay as you go smartphone.
So yeah I'm guessing you grew up middle class, living at your parents rent free or maybe you went to college and then uni and eventually got a degree and a good paying job... That kind of shit requires support from family etc mate... not all of us have that.
So fuck off on your high horse
No? Buy living in overdraft and getting payday loans. Literally all of the debt I have is from needing food to eat. The food banks can only do so much, which is understandable. Seriously, I didn't realise before how fucking easy it is to get into debt and used to think it could only happen to idiots... I was wrong. I lost my job by chance and my whole life implodes within a month...
who /establishment/ here? I was born to middle/upper class parents who got me work experience with the local MP, I went to a grammar school in Kent and currently go to Cambridge for engineering. Still a social retard but at least I can be one with money.
I don't drink or do drugs, infact... The only time i've ever thought about getting blackout drunk was literally after this happened. Numbs the pain they say
>You've got a negative attitude anon.
What? Lol. If this comes across as a ''negative attitude'' then you wouldn't fare well if you ever found yourself in any sort of trouble mate
I never said I wasn't pathetic, cunt. I'm still socially retarded and never been kissed but I am good at maths and economics but I want to focus my career on the former. So I'm taking civil engineering.
>working class family
thats my point you fucking retard. you can't go to uni if you're already on the streets by 15.
Family is everything, if you have one and they're even somewhat supportive... be thankful for it.
I was but overdraft debt swallowed it all
no worries mate, hopefully i'll make it out alive and turns things around and maybe it will instill some kind of different perspective to life in the future
Me too, too bad I have a phobia of driving.
>Rub some of that fancy oil on my chest to alleviate chest cough
>Start to fap
>Residual chest oil gets on cock
>starts burning harder than a Vietnamese jungle during Operation Rolling Thunder
CANT WAKE UP
kebab meat and chips + beer + that icelandinc night shift thing another anon mentioned
hope you lads are having good nights
>that icelandinc night shift thing another anon mentioned
I watched another episode of that tonight, will probably carry on even though I feel like a pleb watching a TV show on youtube.
As you can see from >>25573110 I'm in a bit of a do or die situation.
At least I can look forward to watching Netflix in my pajamas whilst ignoring my responsibilities tomorrow though.
Downloaded the lot from kickass torrents matey, only about halfway through the first ep but it seems like a comfy show.
If you can deal with jap stuff check out Kodoku no Gourmet
Notherner in London mate, they just don't do that shit down here. Looked at me funny when i first moved down and asked for cheesy chips.
Hope your cock feels better lad
OG Night shift poster here.Glad you lot are into it. It was on late night on BBC Four in 2011 and i fell in love with it. Black Comedy at its finest.
There are 2 further series set in a hotel and prison respectively; Dagvaktin and Fangavaktin.
ordered some legal high once but it was just this shitty fake weed that didn't burn properly in the joint. Seen that research chemical site the other day on it though and it had something on which was pretty much LSD, might order a load of it.
>"Couldn't feel anymore different feeling in one go right now, hurt, angry, heartbroken, annoyed, fuming, fed up and drained"
>women think hurt and heartbroken are 2 different things
>women think fuming and angry 2 different things
>women think fed up and annoyed 2 different things
Hah, I didn't even see it further up. I just googled the subtites on the screenshot to find it.
It's a long thread, I didn't know it had been mentioned further up and I wasn't going to start hunting for it. Nor was there any indication of that screenshot being related to the other post.
mcdonalds anon here, I fell asleep and had a nap because I got too tired. Before I went to bed I said I would go to mcdonalds.
I'm awake now and I'm trying to build myself up to going, but going fairly soon so they don't end up with their breakfast menu.
I'm not complaining about the menu, I'm just saying the reason I've wanted to go to mcdonalds is to get certain things, I've I can't get the certain things then there isn't much point in going.
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I know I'm late, but I normally come here because I can't sleep.