I'm ending it tonight, robots. I won't make any subsequent replies, but I will die tonight. Figure I should let my only friends know, at least.
In high school, I met a girl with schitzophrenia. We became intimate. One day, she pulled a knife out on me. We pushed through with the relationship. Eventually though, she left me. After two years.
Soon after, my mental health flew out of control. I was incarcerated. After getting out, I lived with my mother. She's dying of cancer. I'm now 20 years old and still, my mental health strains me. I have applied for 50+ jobs. Day one on six of the jobs I broke down. I tried. I fucking tried. If a God truly exists, an afterlife after this, I hope they show pity on me. Because I fucking tried so goddamn hard. But if I can't work, then I don't belong in the capitalist regime and basically become an outcast by default.
Thanks for reading, anon. If your life is going shitty, I hope it gets better. Somehow. Just don't lose hope and become a lost cause like me. I'll maybe see some of you on whatever side there may or may not be.
Good luck anon. Just expect this thread to be filled with normies with easy lifes telling you not to do it.
>>25564807
I hope you find peace in your choice.
Good bye anon.
Isn't it odd. There are people out there who simply, do not ever think about self-eradication. Never have they experienced being an outcast, unwanted human trash.
Almost seems alien culture to me, a distant relic of a past i can hardly remember being
>>25564807
You're fucking selfish leaving your own mother like that. At least wait until she passes so you won't break her heart.
>>25564913
This
After that, goodluck Anon.
>>25564913
Maybe her heart needs to be broken
Why put so much stock in preserving what is obviously deeply flawed?
>>25564807
if you an hero, do it after your mother passes, so you don't abandon her
>>25564913
Said I wouldn't reply, but I can't help with this one. Being alive is a burden on her. I have major depressive disorder and can't even wash a fucking plate somedays without breaking down. I know my sister will step in to help once I'm gone. I am not selfish for wanting to end my own life. Her sadness will subside when she hopefully sees my nephew grow up tp be a functional individual. Potentially even a replacement son.