Are you a pretentious person?
if no sure you were.
When, why, and how you stopped?
What changes you noticed when you stopped being pretentious?
In my first year of college I tried being pretentious in order to fit in with everyone else. I pretended to be interested in philosophy, politics, and so on. I wrote papers about "The Other" and used words like tautology and teleological.
I couldn't do it. It felt completely fake and disingenuous and retarded. I don't know how people can actually carry themselves like this, it takes a hell of an inflated ego and total lack of self awareness.
These are the same people who speak slowly and emphasize their words like a speech in a movie because they honestly believe that what they're saying is important and that it's an honor to even listen to their wisdom. Fucking cunts.
Now I'm in my second year of college and I'm failing and I'm going to kill myself soon. I don't know what I was expecting, honestly.
I realized a lot of my issues stemmed from me just being a condescending, cynical person. I just made it an effort to tell myself to stop being an asshole and that I'm not better than others. I then forced myself into small social situations and it was painfully awkward at times.
I got a gf within a few months and for the past year or so I'm the happiest I've ever been.
I don't really feel like I was alive during my teen years. I was just completely clueless about pretty much everything. I was ostracized everywhere ever since first grade and just spent my time working through existentialism until I found an acceptable reason to live.
I was you for two years on college too...
It improved my game to be honest, used to include French words a lot (2nd language in my country) and speak about shit I have no interest in, and try to act cool... it was just retarded...
Good for you anon