I was cutting earlier, got a little bit carried away and gave myself 4 or 5 cuts deep enough to see the fat, a little bloodier than pic related.
It spooked me really bad, thought I was gonna have a heart attack. Do I need stitches or should I just let it heal up by itself?
>haven't cut in a year and a half
>can't stop thinking about cutting myself
I usually love the rush, but this time it was too much. I looked at the cuts after cutting because they looked different from the rest, I realized that I was staring directly inside of myself. It was pretty spoopy.
How about you end your own life loser?
You'll get a big scar there if you don't get it stitched. It could also get infected quite easily desu senpai
Do the urges ever go away anons?
I stopped 2 years ago, but sometimes when i get particularly upset i get really bad urges to. I would if it wasn't for my fiance, but even then I still hold a razor in my hand and cry sometimes. Then back to business.
get one of these instead, punch it till you run out of energy. You're knuckles will probably ache if it's pain you're looking for.
Tape your wrist unless you want to snap them.
As far as I'm concerned, it's a weird fucking bizarre habit that makes no sense. It's like eating batteries or something.
The saddest thing really is that nobody ITT explained why they do this shit. "I just do it durr".
I couldn't really tell you. For me it was about the motion of it. I never intended to kill myself doing it, there was just something satisfying about running a blade across myself quickly.
I would also scratch my skin off as a stress mechanism because of the motion of moving my nails back and forth.
and i would pull my toenails off when i really wanted to feel pain
Sorry this got really edgy.
Disinfect it and try to keep it closed with butterfly bandages. I'm sorry I can't be much help anon, if you can try talking to someone to distract you from hurting yourself or try to gain a different way to cope. I'm sorry I can't give you more advice. I hope that everything will be fine.
People do it as a coping mechanism, I don't know if most people realize that they're using it to cope. You get so wrapped up in it that it becomes almost "normal" to you.
It really isn't so simple to explain things that others haven't experienced themselves. I cannot speak for cutting, but I was diagnosed with clinical depression. Frankly, I cannot take people who try telling me it isn't real seriously anymore.
What, you can't go read online for a bit?
It's not a "habit", biting your nails is a habit.
Real cutters do it just to feel something and possibly remind themselves they're still alive.
It's the best way to feel something that isn't the nothingness inside. It's a good thing.
Drugs don't help, physical activity doesn't help.
When you feel nothing but the pit inside nothing helps, but this does. Seeing your blood run and feeling the stinging blade slice your skin reminds you you can still feel something. You're not really empty inside, you're warm and you can feel for those few minutes after cutting. Even if it's more "pain".
Other self harm methods don't.
I punched myself, burned myself, i was on perscribed pharmaceuticals for a long time but nothing helped.
Cutting got me through it, even though it made me feel worse.
I used to make fun of people who did it too, like you, until i was driven to it. I used to cry because I knew I made fun of them, but there I was sneaking razors from my mother's hair salon to do it for 2 years.
This is going to seem stupid to you too, and you can still call me and the others retarded. That's okay, Some are, some don't do it for the right reasons.
And you won't understand until you're driven to it, that's okay too, I hope you never understand.
The "real" issue lies deeper than cutting. You need help, understanding things before telling people to seek attention themselves.
All of you do.
I'm honestly so surprised by the reaction of this board to this. Robots were supposed to understand.
You need to stitch that shit up faggot lmao, good luck stitching your shit up with one hand, fucking crazyass white people
No, I don't need help. You need actual professional help. I mean this in the best way, I'm not attacking you. Be a brave man and confess to your family that you cut, and have them help you.
You know, a lot of us here (majority probably) are just normal dudes who like to wallow in the misery of not having a gf and hate women. We don't all have serious issues.
No, but you're being seriously stupid if you think cutting is the biggest problem cutters have. It's literally nothing to get help for.
You don't fucking understand, you do need help, or else that wouldn't be the thing you think someone who cuts needs "professional help" for.
You're attacking all of us with your blatant ignorance, and your metaphysical high horse that makes you think you know what you're talking about.
I don't cut, myself, but how would YOU help a cutter? Answer me.
Stitch them up and take the razors away, now what? You "helped" them, but you didn't fix them. How would you fix them? Something's broken if they need help.
And since you know they need help, what kind? Do you know why they cut in the first place?
You don't know shit. All you can do is tell someone that's different than you to get help but you don't understand how to help them. So what the fuck are you doing telling anyone anything?