>very controlling but doesn't bother me
>she thinks it's cheating if I look at another women or think of them
>used to be free for 5 years from women previously
>had a porn collection of over 2 terabytes
>delete all of it for her
>have major urges to look at women and porn
I need help real help I want to look at women or porn but I don't want to "cheat" I fucking love my fiance.
I have not been to this site for months either because of her.
>treating women like objects
>faithful and loving to insanely controlling fiance
>literally eyeball cucked
How much more beta does OP need to be before you're satisfied, fem zealot?
start taking out your urges on her
if she won't even pretend to like you enough to take your dick before the marriage, she's going to be as fucking dry as the desert when she puts a ring on you
don't ignore this advice friendo
because once you marry it's over
do you really want to be married to a controlling woman who won't take care of your urges? do you really want to go into a marriage with her having complete sexual power over you? Your mental health? Your satisfaction with life?