>Play with the thought to buy anti depressiva online
>Not sure what i have to buy
>It takes normaly a few weeks until the effect kicks in
>Stuff is expensive as fuck and i could just buy alot weed with it overall
Im weed free since one week and im dying already
>meds without doctors prescription
>taking meds at all
Holy shit, how retarded are you?
Antidepressants are quite complicated to get into.
It often takes several attempts by a professional psychiatrist to get the right one at the right dosage.
One psychiatrist let me try Mirtazapine, with the result that I got extremely sleepy, I couldn't get up in the morning, not even after like 10 hours of sleep.
When I was finally awake, I got extremely aggressive.
And that was my Mirtazapine experience.
Bupropion works exceptionally well with me.
Recently I could even reduce the dosage from 300mg to 150mg after one whole year of therapy.
But that's just me, since Bupropion does little for your mood and more for your activity/motivation.
tl;dr: You're a fucking retard, don't do it.
After i read your tldr i dropped my stupid idea for a few secs but then i read your whole post.
This would be worth to risk it