who /noreasontolive/ here?
When I think about it, literally nothing would change in this world if I died. Nobody would miss me, etc
I got hit with a lot of depressing thoughts today, I had to go into "zen" mode to keep from letting it get in the way of my shitty job. Then it hit me, my life will never get better in any substantial way, ever. There's no real reason to believe so. This is it. I will never have a gf, let alone one I'm attracted to. I will never be talented or smart, I am a born loser. I am tormented by women, especially when they give attention to other guys. I don't blame them, I blame fate I guess, and myself for being me.
Yet I push on. I have to accept I will never get with a woman, and my life will be utterly dissatisfying nomatter what. I am just waiting to die at this point, my life has no purpose, just internal pain.
Going to die tonight. Join me on the other side, OP.
I gave myself a reason to live. I told myself I needed to be a good person, and to make him happy.
It didn't work, so now i'm back with this mindset again.
Life is ultimately purposeless. We are all Sisyphus, when we reach the top we die and our boulder rolls back down to the next wave. Objectively the only true reason to exist is to reproduce so the cycle can continue.
There is one God and Mohammed is his prophet
Holy shit. Okay yea we are all fucking worthless. Literally nothing you do will ever matter. You could change the world and it wouldn't mean shit. We are a blink on the scale of the cosmos. And that's a good fucking thing too. Nothing matters so you can do anything. Anything you fuckin want. Go get a pack and travel around. Buy a Hooker do some drugs. Your thinking of killing yourself any way right? So then the world is yours. Besides you'd have to have a pretty big fucking ego to think that the universe is paying attention to you.
I have been struggling with these questions. I'm very lonely, I ultimately feel useless and a waste of space. I've thought about suicide multiple times but I don't think I could ever do it.
For me, my life has got better after I joined the church and started exploring my faith.
I recommend studying the bible. Read The Gospel of Luke 15:11-32
>who /noreasontolive/ here
>not talented or smart
>5'7 120 lb
>baby faced, look like i'm 17
>people constantly undermine me, push me around, assume I'm incompetent
>working minimum wage
>never had a father
>went to school with kids who were affluent and had better success that i ever will
>living at home
>single mother fucked me up as a child
i fucking hate myself. i want to die. there is no reason for people like me. life is a cursr
I'm absolutely useless. Always was, always will. The only thing really keeps me from killing myself is my mom, but i can see the sadness in her eyes from seeing me being me. I'm the textbook okay guy. I'm so weak and passive I rather die than stand up for myself.