>Has irl friends
>Decent student job
>Doing good in college
>Family cares for me
>Not wealthy but can live with more than needed.
>Good physical health, eats well.
Yet I want to isolate myself from everything and constantly am suicidal.
i'm in the same situation brother, i have everything i could wish for yet i'd do nothing rather than kill myself.
I look back to old pictures from last year when I was excited about my future life, I had plans goals, I was someone who was happy, and it makes me feel worst every time. The only reason keeping me from not doing it is the respect i have for the people arround me, I just wish I could get up and tell my friends im doing fine want to go for a coffee or something but I just cant, I keep rpetending to smile for the picture, sorry if this isnt coerant theres a bunch of thoughts going in at once
Do you have some goals set for the future? My life was never ideal, but I had things needed to survive, yet when I became aimless the lingering depression that has been hitting me for years got me hard.