I deliver pizza. Sometimes people will put silly things in the delivery instructions. A lot of 16-22 girls will casually sexually objectify us by putting things like, "Send the cutest boy!" or something like that. I don't like it, but whatever. The drawbacks of living in a patriarchy is that teen girls can be gross leches and get away with it, I just try and do my job.
We don't get to pick what orders we take. So I got stuck with one that said "send your cutest boy".
I do not have very good self esteem.
I once weighed close to 300 pounds, but through diet and a LOT of exercise I've been able to get down to 230.
I was sexually abused when I was 5 years old and have PTSD from it. I've spent my life feeling beyond ugly. Sick and just repellent.
When I made the delivery, the girl made a face at me. Like not just a "Oh darn. A guy who looks about 29 and isn't a star athelete (like some of the guys I work with)." It was a full on, "UGH" face.
She tipped me and I gave her good service and was very polite despite feeling VERY offended to be judged when I'm just trying to do my job and didn't ask for this.
Later that night I find out she actually put "I ordered the cutest delivery boy and didn't get it" as a complaint in our feedback form which can both be seen by literally everyone I work with as well as our corporate office.
So my entire store knows I was called ugly. And because of my self esteem issues...despite KNOWING this girl is a sexist asshole, I have felt like I'm about as attractive as a puss filled tumor all night.
I could call this person up and let her know what her cruelty did to me. I could write all this up in a note and leave it at her door, but all it would do is make ME look crazy because a 19 year old with bad skin and a terrible dress sense called me ugly and made me feel 2 inches tall after trying to sexually objectify me when I'm just trying to do my damn job.
Meh. You should just roll with it. I think it would be funny to get a little costume for orders like that. Make yourself 10x uglier and say "you should see the others guys!"
Look man those girls can be cruel, crueler than also any man. I've seen average looking guys walk past a group of young hotties and they start gagging or saying "omg ewww haha". Its a fucked up world, but just remember to not base your self esteem off what some young retarded thots think of you. You want to talk about low self esteem, when I was in 8th grade a girl that was missing an entire ear (just had a hole there and a bunch of scars on her face) told me to my face I was ugly as fuck. A 300lb black girl said I was fucking ugly and had a big nose like a bird. Shit hurts, you gotta just learn to live with it.
>my entire store knows I was called ugly
Nobody cares, nigga.
>be robot
>move out for uni hoping to improve my social skills
>move in with shy and silent girl
>she moves out
>desperately searching new flatmate
>find 19yo Stacy
>she just broke up with her bf
>constantly fucks guys and comes home wasted
>her sister is celebrating her birthday right now at our balcony
>didn't even bother to invite me
Is it okay for me to be upset about this? I feel like this is a highly inappropriate behavior, regardless of me hanging around with them or not.
>>39369415
guys and girls share dorm rooms?
what country is this
>>39369426
This is not a dorm but a private two room flat.
And not WW3 is apparently on its way - what a great way to spend the evening and night.
>job
>pay
>if it's a good job, how did you land it
>how is your current life situation
I currently do prep work at panera, its shit pay at $8.75 an hour. I basically just turn my earbuds all the way up and ignore people for 7-9 hours a day while prepping food. I got the job as part time while in college but now I'm dropping while i can still get a full refund because I can't stand school. My plan is to try and land a job at a real kitchen and hopefully work my way up since I enjoy making food that people enjoy and am pretty proficient when it comes to kitchen work.
40 hours a week = $350
one month = $1400
that's pretty much what I get in neetbux lol must suck working and still not have it better than people who don't work
>>39369329
Currently in uni but going to do an internship in either London or New York next summer at JP Morgan. Will be payed but not that much. Around the figure of 1500 dollars per month if I get payed at all.
>>39369462
this is a thread for people who hold jobs, not for neets
begone
I dabbled in crossdressing a bit in my earlier teens, only to purge my clothes collection after I felt guilty. I'm really missing dressing up, and am planning to buy more clothes here in a few months when I get some cash.
How can one achieve the perfect trap body? (not willing to take HRT right now) I have a big butt and hips already but how do perfect it? Anybody with experience?
>>39369248
It really depends on the body type we are working with. Im gonna need some pictures
>>39369284
I'm tall (6'1), skelly (145 pounds so nothing crazy), tall and narrow, except for my hips are a bit large and so is my butt. I don't have any photos. My only issue is pectus excavatum
>>39369248
Eating food with estrogen in it can help, but it will also imbalance your emotions. Shave, use lotion, invest in skincare and bath products.
this tiem again
write something and i will say it for you
https://vocaroo.com/i/s04vfdGtqyfl
"I'm a roastie whore who likes to jump from Chad dick to Brad dick all day loooong teehee"
>>39369039
https://vocaroo.com/i/s0IpEGR5xJI3
>>39369006
russian chan has a better voice than you
Strength training is the robot's path to salvation.
Disclaimer: This board has given me a home for some of the darkest times of my life. This will likely be my last post before uni starts and I leave this site forever. If I could give one thing back to this community in return for all the genuine laughs and sense of identity that you have given me, this would be it. The result, however, is not a short read.
>Like many of you, I reached a point in my life where nothing felt real. Any initiative to turn my life around crumbled under the weight of my own hypercritical cynicism. The shadow of failure and inadequacy lurked around every corner, plagued my every thought. It slowly eroded my will until my mind was a wasteland of incomplete thoughts and inarticulate dreams. I descended to what I thought would be my final resting place in NEET life.
>So, with nothing but endless, meaningless time on my side, I turned to an old weight set in my parents' basement in a halfhearted attempt to impress some Stacey. What I got was so much more.
>I began, as many do, with a simple 5 by 5 program; the Mark Rippetoe Starting Strength. 3 times a week, 30 minutes a session. I devoted the rest of my time to ensuring I had proper nutrition and sleep. For the first weeks, it was miserable. I hated every second of every work out, and questioned why this venture should end any differently from any other I had eviscerated with my lack of confidence and toxic skepticism.
story continued below
>And then came the fateful day, roughly 4 weeks after starting, when I caught myself in a full body mirror after a shower. I almost cried, because any semblance of confidence in my body image was an entirely alien experience to me. I looked... passable. Not good, by any stretch of the imagination, but better. And that's all it took. I quickly became hooked. When I wasn't physically in the gym, I was playing out reps in my mind. I observed sleep and nutrition religiously, and the best part was that I actually enjoyed doing all of it. Loathing became eagerness.
>For the first time in my life, I had found something that was real. It was unquestionably real. The simplicity of it all is what revitalized me; my life, which until I started was a clusterfuck of selfconcious hypotheticals, became a simple matter of numbers. And mere numbers do not deceive or lie. There was no question I could squat 200 lbs more than when I started. No doubt over the 35 lbs of muscle I would accumulate in the first year of my training. Exactly what I was doing mattered less than the fact that I was finally able to commit to something, and that made me truly happy.
Strength training gave me a basis of confidence and discipline that extended into other areas of my life. I regained interest in my childhood passions for cs and math. I've become competitive and determined in anything to which I set my mind. Entered a healthy, balanced friend group with girls that find me attractive and interesting. I've even earned the respect of the Chads at my uni, for in the gym we are able to set aside our differences and share a discussion over something we are both passionate about. Any time I feel my grip on reality or control over my life slipping again, I head back that simple realm of metal and numbers over which I am master. Strength training is both my compass in life, and the rock upon which I have built my church.
Now I've been on this site long enough to know how eager its users are to hide behind genetics. In response, I offer the following.
>The most respected member my gym for my first two semesters was a 5'3 east asian guy that could deadlift 3 times his weight. No matter where I saw him on campus, he was always with some cute chinese chick or another, and he didn't exactly have the best face genetics either.
So if you are the most miserable KHV NEET, hanging onto the threads of life for no other reason that awaiting the end of your refractory period, I implore you to try just this one last thing before you commit to wizardry. You must climb, but it will be easier than you fear. We can all make it into the sunlight, fellow robots.
>>39368795
Cardio actual is the salvation you seek.
Ancient humans didn't lift thousand pound logs, they chased their food. What we lack, that our bodies need, is cardiovascular exercise. It releases endorphins and oxytocin (same as what's released during sex and cuddling). Your brain needs these hormones to feel relaxed and be normal (or to bee yourself and be a normie).
Strength training is good but it releases much less of these hormones, and it's difficult to recover from so you feel sore and groggy afterwards. I'm not going to lie, getting your body accustomed to running sucks, but once you're conditioned you'll know exactly what I'm talking about. The "runners high" is a release of normie hormones that are necessary for your body/brain to be relaxed and not feel so anxious.
Is it true that all robots have a shitty or non-existent relationship with their father?
>>39368733
It's true in my case. He is emotionally distant.
>>39368733
me and father are much too equal
we hide our feelings, we don't trust anyone
because of this our realtionship is quite "distant" and yet somehow close
he's the only one who knows what i'm thinking and vice versa
but he being in the marine doesn't help, only see each other on sundays
t'is quite sad to have someone who's so alike yourself, but not be able to have a descent relationship
i wish to make my old man proud before he dies, at least
>>39368733
>Tfw that picture was drawn by that blonde loli
I'm not gay but I'd like to feel a dick in my mouth. I'd like to suck some dude off. I'm not sexually attracted to men or anything, just curious. Does anyone else feel like this?
You aren't gay. You just like penis in your mouth, that's all.
>>39368636
>Does anyone else feel like this?
Apparently dozens of other guys, judging by the sheer volume of married men trolling for anonymous gay blowjobs on craigslist.
I don't think most people necessarily fall under the umbrella of exclusively gay or exclusively straight.
OP here. I don't want to suck dick cus I like men, I just want to know what it's like. I will probably hate it (you know, being straight and all) but I want to cross it off my bucket list.
>falling for the name brand jew
I sincerely hope you don't waste your neetbux on fancy names
>falling for the american brand meme
I sincerely hope you don't consume things that are such an unnatural colour as the drinks in the OP
>not just making your own goddamn soda pop at home with good ingredients
Whats wrong with you people
>buying flat soda
>you will never be Jewish
why would you want to be?
>>39368562
They are good at chess
I sometimes wish I was a Jew so I could join IDF. You're basically set for life at that point.
But still, fuck jews.
>Hanging out in my mom's room on her bed
>I hear her call me from her closet as I'm on my phone
>"Anon can you come help me?"
>Just grunt and ignore her
>"Oh anon..."
>I look over and my mom flashes her massive tits at me, looks like pic related
>Immediately get up and run over to her
>Her tits are still out, she grabs a bottle of lotion
>"Ok Anon, I need you to get behind me and hold my tits"
>My dick goes through the roof
>I step behind my mom, her big wide ass pressed up against me
>I reach around and get my hands under both of them, the first time I've ever touched tits
>Nice and heavy, they feel like heaven
>My cock feels like its about to explode
>My mom begins to gently press her bubble butt against me
>My mind begin to scramble as my cock feels incredibly sensitive
>All of sudden everything is moving incredibly fast
>I grind against her ass until....
>I wake up just as my cock begins to cum inside my boxers
>I don't even bother trying to keep the boxers clean, i'll just throw them out
>My last wet dream was only a WEEK ago
What the fuck did my monkey brain mean by this? I swear I don't want to fuck my mom. Also, sadly my mom isn't nearly as hot as she was in my dream. Barely any tits and no ass at all.
iktf, 100%
Mommy dreams are the best.
>>39368693
If I could have dream's like this every night, I probably would. But still man, it makes me feel weird.
>>39368496
First guy to make a safe pill that practically garrantes vivid dreams will make $$$
>2nd week of college freshman
>still no friends
>eating lunch alone
First two months is where EVERYONE is looking for friends. The dumbest, most mundane topics will get excited reactions from people because everyone is so desperate to make friends. Just make sure to reach out a bit
>>39368375
wow anon, your life is really hard! :(
>>39368375
unless your first time on /r9k/ was 2 weeks ago you must have seen the 'don't fall for the college meme' threads and you said "not me, I'm smart and cool".
you fell for it
How many of you fem"bots" self-harm?
How many of you have tattoos?
How many of you have piercings?
How many of you were associated with a subculture like goths or emo?
>>39368202
>How many of you fem"bots" self-harm
Me
>How many of you have tattoos?
No
>How many of you have piercings?
No
>how many of you were associated with a subculture like goths or emo?
I listen(ed) to emo music and I dress all black but I'm in no way a part of a group
>>39368295
Are you a virgin or some kind of concert whore.
Im a guy but I've done plenty of self harm all over arms and thighs i have huge scars all over them.
I always wanted piercings snake bites specifically and tattoos too but never got around to it
And i was a massive emo scene kid growing up i still kinda am Scene
>no /mbti/ thread
Blame S fags
>>39367891
We don't need to make every single thread for you intuitivefags.
>>39367891
6/10 image, would have been better if you knew how to spell and use grammar. I'll just assume you're not a native English speaker. Rate my image.
>>39367891
>I/ENFP
this is pretty accurate. Prose book over diary but same diff
Which board has the highest and lowest iq?
>>39367879
I would say that the most intelligent are /sci/ and /g/. The dumbest being /x/ and /fa/, while the one with biggest difference inbetween members is /pol/. Some really sharp fellas on /pol/ and then there are the complete fucktards
>>39367879
just ask /b/. why would this post even end up on /r9k/ we're all brainlet. stop please it's physically painful
>>39367879
>I would say that the most intelligent are /sci/ and /g/
lmao