how viable is this?
also general drug thread
>benadryl
what a shitty drug.
>>35898611
>faking schizophrenia
You're a fucking retard. You already apply for autismbux you're so fucking dumb.
>>35898735
>dysphoric
>hears voices
>slow reaction
>jumbled thoughts
maybe it's just a /pol/ meme but I hear tons of people fake it for bucks and thats without PEDs
>tfw nazi
>tfw watch tons of anime and read lots of manga
>tfw kv
>tfw nofriends
>tfw masturbate to the most absurdly degenerative things
>tfw probably gonna fail out of uni out of laziness
>tfw dont even care where I cum anymore
>literally just piss in bottles of gatorade
>tfw considering suicide more and more each passing day
How would I even begin to explain how things ended up this way?
My younger would understand because this is the path he's on.
He was also an idiot so I wouldn't give a shit what he thought.
>>35898595
you're not a nazi you loser
>>35898595
My younger self would only hate my smoking.
Honestly I don't like it either, it's a filthy habit but the only thing that helps with my psychosis.
>tfw cystic acne
is there any point in trying to improve my life
>never running out of things to pop
You are blessed a blessed man anon
Go to Doctor and get pills for that shit, my mental state improved a ton when I didn't wake up to look at my lumpy ugly mug each day.
I have that or something similar. Antibiotics and some creams from the doctor makes my face so clear it's been wonderful. I'll happily build up an antibiotic immunity if it means I don't have to look like an ogre anymore.
Are you paranoid that someone/something is always reading/scanning your chatlogs?
Do you use an encrypted Messenger, if so which one and why that one?
What else do you do to feel less paranoid with PCs?
>>35898568
I very clearly got checked for a family members clearance a while ago, and the CIA managed to find out about money I owed that even I wasn't aware of.
It wouldn't surprise me if they still monitored me, but they seemed cool with me then, why would I be paranoid about it now?
Besides, lots of you guys have much more to worry about in terms of privacy than me.
>>35898568
Indifference with commonsense2017.
Not going to let fear run everything into psychosis and avoidance, been there, done that, fuck it.
>>35898568
Change passwords every few weeks to prevent this and use encrypted traffic.
Also don't use Windows 8 or 10
ok /R9k/
Does anybody else have this odd feeling/ belief that you are a part of some secret, scientific experiment? For example i have always had this thought that i was born a fucking retard. Not complete tard level but some level of fucking autist. The experiment is to see if the subject (myself) will mould into a normy by avoiding any diagnosis and my parents, teachers and peers are in on the fact i am retarded and mustn't know. Treating me like any other normy in order to perhaps cure me into a normy. Others out in public not in on the experiment (the entire world can't be) either see everyone else acting as if i am normal or slip through a moment of soul crushing remark to being a fucking idiot.
Later on in life, employers are warned of my tardness and cater to the experiment by making me feel like i am doing normy shit, my girlfriend is either a normy in on the massive experiment (or i have infact been cured into a normy) or is another tard in the program.
I say this as i look back on all of the autism and spaghetti i split through my early years yet none of it ever seemed to have any negative social impact.
will continue as i delve further into the wormhole of the tardsperiment
continued
imagine a Trueman Show like experiment but instead of the world watching, it is a group of scientists trying to find a cure for autistic neckbeardism everywhere.
>>35898551
Not like what you've described, but yeah.
I'm too paranoid to go into detail though.
What a fucking dumb idea.
>little sister is 12
>already dating a nigger
well... looks like the family ends here unless by some miracle i get a gf
>unless by some miracle i get a gf
Rip your bloodline
Don't feel loyal to your bloodline. That's all it is. Blood.
>>35898588
but every baby is gonna be some dumb ugly protonigger now
>tfw we all gonna make it
>>35898506
What is your endgame nigga?
>>35898532
there is no end
that's the point
>>35898532
Dying on my deathbed surrounded by my loving children and grandchildren, satisfied that I raised them right and that they will in turn have kids that will make this planet a better place to live in.
What's YOUR endgame anon ?
I am so insecure that it is self destructive, I don't know if im ugly or if im good looking, it's really really fucking bad. I have been bullied my entire childhood and I never learned how to socialize like a normal person, I just learned how to feel like trash. I am so lonely but i make myself lonely because i shouldn't pollute the gene pool. Oh lord why did you make me like this, why, I just wanna be normal, God why cant i be normal, please help me, I feel so awful, sorry for writing all of this but I just need to get it off my chest
>I don't know if im ugly or if im good looking, it's really really fucking bad
This is the worst. I have so many contradictory experiences that it puts me in a constant state of confusion, and gives me false hope.
>>35898504
>I am so lonely but i make myself lonely because i shouldn't pollute the gene pool.
You don't have to fuck everyone you befriend or even get into a relationship with, you know.
>Oh lord why did you make me like this, why
It was probably your shitty parents, or siblings, or peers.
You should really consider going to therapy. It could help you sort out how you view yourself, which is obviously making you pretty miserable.
>>35898618
>one month you are convinced you are 7/10
>next month you feel like a literal 2/10
>no fucking idea what to think
>every time you ask people you get completely contradictory responses
I'm thinking about killing myself by overdosing on heroin.
What are your thoughts about this /r9k/?
I'm sick of suffering. It's gotten to the point that I'm in physical pain from it.
I'm sick of making a fool of myself every time i try to get ahead in life. I'm 24 and people still bully me, It's only getting worse for me.
I'm on medication but that doesn't do shit. I have tried everything to not feel this way including Lsd and shrooms. Like i said before It's causing me physical pain now.
I live in Aus so i can't get access to a gun, high rooftops or helium. I think a heroin overdose would be the next best way to go.
I'm asking for advice about this.
Please don't try to talk me out of it, you don't know me. I don't want to hear edgy comments like "do it faggot", I'm over the bullying. You bully's have won okay.
What do you think about all this /r9k/?
(Pic related, I'll be snorting the heroin because i can't even work up the courage to shoot up)
>>35898477
>(Pic related, I'll be snorting the heroin because i can't even work up the courage to shoot up)
Put it in your ass
>>35898492
Will that make it stronger/work faster?
>>35898529
>Will that make it stronger/work faster?
Yes.
There is an NZ thread but no AUS thread.
Fuck that.
Ausbots roll in.
I'll talk to you about whatever, how are you guys?
Hows your week going?
Unload your feels on me.
OP will give you a (YOU)
That's cool. I'll be taking my (You) now. Thanks.
>>35898306
I got you. What are you up to?
What are you feeling??
>>35898352
I'm feeling as normal as I possibly can. Not doing anything but browsing. How about you?
What does r9k think about nipple tattoos and piercings?
>>35898223
>tattoos
>piercings
Disgusting.
>>35898223
Pretty indifferent. By the time I get to the tiddies I already have an affection for the gril, few things become dealbreakers at that point.
red flags if there ever were any
Are pets normalfags?
>>35898143
No. Cats and most dogs are NEET leeches who sleep all day and just fuck around and do fun stuff. Neither are sad or depressed, but they're NEETs.
My dog is literally the best thing in my life. Not figuratively, literally. I may actually kill myself when he goes away.
>>35898143
also yeah pets are the friends of robots. they won't judge and they're always nice, happy and cute. Not like normies at all.
fapped to that black tranny again
>>35898102
and did it againI'm not gay
black trannies are all hons
and I did it for a third time
How do I stop wanking to gay stuff help me anons
If the boy is thick, give him the dick.
>>35898085
I'm going to hell.
original
>>35898400
But why, Anon?
origanl
>>35898502
because I'm about to fap to OP's picture
Any robots have experience with etizolam? Picking up some this weekend. Big fan of most benzos, just don't know what to expect from something not well documented.
>>35898053
There's an entire chan with a board dedicated just for benzo.
I'm not gonna say what it is, because /r9k/ is full of normalfags that would ruin it.
>>35898133
yeah I know what it is, it's just so hard to navigate
just thought I'd get more concise thoughts from here and not four two zero :)
it's a benzo. you're gonna feel stupid and tired. t the fuck else were you expecting? if you're gonna act fucking stupid with research chems then at least do psychedelics and opioids so we learn something, instead of this downer crap that nobody gives a shit about because benzos already suck enough without the research shit all being disappointing too.