>lying in bed using phone
>shine flashlight on ceiling
>see one of these fuckers right above me
If I hadn't looked up there, it probably would have fell onto me and bit me while I was sleeping. Fuck the summer and fuck house centipedes.
Centipedes are fucking niggers
Spiders, yeah, if they cral on me I'll jump then kill em
If i see them ill kill em casually
Fucking centipedes? On me or anywhere?
Fucking burn the house down
I've luckily only bumped into a couple throughout the years, both small
They scare me shitless
>>37881601
They're actually pretty useful. They might look creepy but they kill spider and mosquitoes. It is one of those few bugs that shouldn't be squashed.
Is its bite venomous?
What makes this place so addicting? Why do I keep coming back?
To be with your people.
But remember, don't stay here too long or you'll waste too much time and get very depressed.
/n/ is quite a good place to recover.
>>37881596
Because all posts are deleted eventually, there's no closure.
>>37881596
Because we're the only people who you can interact with.
You dont do the virgin walk anon?
do you?
>>37881589
LOOK EVERYBODY ANON IS WALKING LIKE A RETARD LOOOK!!
>>37881589
Who the hell walks desu
I masturbated and got cum all over my hands.
i told my oneechan goodnight because i got exhausted and fell asleep the entire day
VVYhY5
>be me
>26
>lvl 1 IT
>fixing computers at 8am
>start to think about buying a gun
>8:30am
>start to think about suicide by gun
>spend the work day thinking about the fallout of suicide
How did you all spend your days?
/intrusivethoughtsgeneral/
>long sigh
I just want to disappear.
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THIS IS A ROBOT BOARD AT LEAST WALLOW WITH ME
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
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I made what is probably my greatest friend really mad at me by being super down about myself.
He hasn't blocked me but he's not talking to me anymore, I haven't slept for days and I just want him to spend time with me again.
/blogpost
>>37881568
Elaborate, OP. How'd this play out with your friend?
>>37881568
Friends are disposable and fickle. They'll turn on you just because of some rumor they heard about you. Use them and fade them out, it's inevitable if you're avoiding getting tied down to one place.
>>37881630
Sounds like you've never had a true friend.
>three years ago
>filthy neet wasting life away
>decide to turn myself around and try to be someone
>get ok job, start going to gym, try making "friends"
>limit internet access severely to not fall into old habits
>family happy to see me trying to live an average man's life
>i should feel happy that i've become a "normal" person
>every night before bed i think about blowing my brains out
>life is significantly worse because i'm forced to be happy around people in order to keep my job and maintain the "life" i tried to make
>come back to /r9k/ and the board is almost unrecognizable
I tried, guys. I tried hard to be normal but I'm still unhappy and I can't change that mindset. Am I doomed to feel this way no matter what happens outside of me? All I've ever heard was "change your surroundings and you'll change too", but I'm living a normal life and I still don't want to live. What's wrong with me, /r9k/
>>37881566
nah its a lie. I did a similar thing to you.
>went to college to get degree
>better myself stop doing so many drugs
>distance self from druggie friends
>by all means have a very comfortable life now while in college
>easy job where I can sit and shitpost all night
>every day I want my life to end so that I may slip into the sweet abyss
You dont get better, you carry this with you for the rest of time. Talking might help, it might not. It might help for a while and then you're right back to where you were before. Surroundings are a huge thing within your control to help you feel better but some of us could be sitting on a pile of gold, whores, and riches and still be unhappy.
Welcome to hell. Pretty sure this was a Twilight Zone episode and it hit it on the head.
>>37881643
I don't want money or power or love or anything, man. I don't want success, I don't want fame. I don't care if I stay in this same shitty apartment working the same shitty job. I don't care if my only social interaction is going out drinking after work with my co-workers until I'm drunk enough to be social. I don't care if I sleep alone for the rest of my life. I just want to be able to be happy with whatever I have. I want to enjoy being alive. I don't know why I can't do that. I can't really talk to anyone about this, I don't trust people irl with these kinds of personal subjects and if I were to tell my parents how I felt they'd worry that I'd just give up and go back to being a loser. Am I really stuck with this forever?
All I want is to be happy, anon. Why can't I have that?
>>37881895
Your brain is broken. See a psychiatrist.
it just wont get any better i give up
>started wearing glasses for blind people because I thought it looked cool (daredevil)
>actually got a girl to wrote me down her number
>went out on a date once
>told her I lost my eye sight to sound edgy and mysterious
>she's really cool and likes vidya and anime and shit
>she wants to go out again
>don't want to lie to her anymore
WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO
>>37881533
>wrote down her number
>proceeded to contact her with writing
>wrote down her number
>not blind
I think she knows you're a lying faggot already. Otherwise she is incredibly fucking stupid, also plausible because women
>>37881563
She wrote it in braille
>>37881533
You're the guy that made the eye patch thread aren't you
>you will never have this
>you will never be her champion
>>37881524
>you will never be her champion
Too far, Anon.
>>37881524
>doing shit for women
>not doing it for yourself
You won't ever succeed like that beta
Why would I want to be the guy that's gonna get blown the fuck out by Floyd "Money" Mayweather?
>tfw took an rc benzo 2 months ago and still feel high on it every day even when totally sober which is almost 2 weeks now from weed and kratom
While that sounds pleasant it also sounds kinda scary. Did you just fry your brain?
>>37881523
maybe anxiety is causing you to disassociate
>>37881523
You're just retarded, it wasn't the etizolam
try taking some DMT and watch how that effects sobriety
who else here is /b/lack or /n/egress and hates cumskins but at the same time wants to be loved and share companionship with one?
All i want is a big white boy to show me it's not so bad
>>37881517
I'm convinced 99% of racism on 4chan is misguided sexual tension.
>>37881517
10/10 bait OP,
Gave me a slight pause because an honest black woman would actually say something like this.
>>37881612
what's bait about it?
>tfw addicted to podcasts
>>37881516
I've been listening to a lot of Joe Rogan lately myself.
Which ones are you into, anon?
>>37881516
>tfw addicted to self-flagellation
>>37881516
Get a life, dork.
Fuck traps
Fuck roasties
2D is where it's at
>>37881502
2D is superior to 3DPD in every way.
original
>2D in bikinis
My weakness.
bump for truth
3D women are NOT important
>Yum, Anon! This is some fine ass goat semen you got here. But how did you get it? My grandpa used to own farms for roughly half a century, and he describes goats as some of the most stubborn fucks he's ever worked with.