Hello, that's the first thing I'll ever written on the internet (not a native english speaker, don't know how this greentext thing works) so please be patient.
I'm 25 and I had a girlfriend for 5,5 years. I'm a solid 3/10, sometimes maybe 4/10 if the lighting is good. She's an objective 7/10, coming up to 9/10 when she smiles. I've had depression and social anxiety for at least 4 years, but some symptoms started to show up when I was still in college/highschool (I didn't know what's happening with me at the time).
My gf supported me all these years. When I failed my uni studies, partialy because of depression (I've noticed that I'm getting more and more stupid, I had troubles with my memory and complete inability to learn new things) and partialy because I was forced to study by my parents, my gf was still by my side. Unfortunately, I was a NEET and running out of money, so I decided to work in Nehterlands (a common choice for young people from my eastern european motherland).
I was there for 3 months and I earned enough money to go with my gf on nice holidays, buy some stuff and not feel like a complete waste of skin anymore. My depression was also getting better, it was still there but I wasn't an insuferable human shaped piece of turd anymore. After that, I went for another 3 months to work in Netherlands.
When I came back, my gf hated me. Like literally hated me.
She said that everything I was doing was making her angry. She said it's because of all these years when I was doing nothing except complaining and making her life miserable. She said she wants to break up, but somehow I managed to convince her to do the separation thing.
She also got a job offer to work in Japan, as a waitress on a japanese cruise ship. That was a once in a lifetime chance for her, she always wanted to go to japan (she can speak 5 language fluantly, including japanese). The plan was that she goes to work there, I'll go to work in the UK and that'll give her time to think about us.
So she went there, and I used that 6 monts of her absence to get better for her.
I found a permament job in the UK (shitty blue collar job but I'm not complaining, my firts real job in my life), I lost weight (I was fat all my life), I made friends (for the first time ever), including 1 best friend (one of the mates even said that he endures the work because he can speak with me and if I leave that job he'll leave to), I started to cook by myself, I rented a nice room in a good neighborhood (to live in a flat is still to expensive for me) and I did all of this to get better for her.
When we met up again, she said that I don't gave any chance to be with her and she knew this all along, even before she went to Japan. She gave me false hope. She said that she doesn't want to see me anymore and that I should leave her alone. She still doesn't believe that I've changed and said that it's too late, she had enough of my shit.
Couple of wors about her - she's smart as fuck, she can speak english, italian, german and japanese fluently, she works hard (her day wjen she was studying - get up at 5 am., go to the train station, 1,5 hour ride to her uni, stay there for 7-9 hours, another 1,5 hour ride home, go to work as a waitress in a restaurant, go home at 11 pm., study, go to sleep). She was also working on weekends, sometimes up to 16 hours a day. She can do all by herself, if she wants to learn new stuff, she just does.
Now the most important aspect - she alway told me she's asexual. Over almost 6 years we've had sex less than 20 times. I'm a fat robot with unquenched sexual drive and this was torturing me but I've tried to hold on becasue I love her so much.
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>>34163522
Sauccy??
>>34163771
tranny from eggman's discord
>>34163783
She's a tranny?
Dayyyyyymmmnnnnnn, I might be alittle bit gay... :3
If you like/ have ever liked or had an interest in trains you are autistic.
hmmmmmmmm what did I mean by this
Fun fact: Trains are the most efficient form of transportation by far, in terms of fuel consumption in ratio to cargo capacity. Only the air in front of the first car needs to be displaced, so total air resistance is extremely low; and the coefficient of friction for wheels on rails is almost zero, so minimal fuel is needed to actually keep the trian moving, as momentum does most of the work.
>>34163503
well CHOO CHOO MOTHERFUCKER I'm having lunch at midnight
I have a girlfriend and you don't, robots. How does that make you feel?
Feels good man.
IDK why you'd want one.
>>34163501
you're a faggot.
MOOTBLMSHIT
>>34163501
Am I supposed to feel jealous? Good for you, man. I hope you're happy with her.
One will be chained in your sex dungeon forever
The other you will treat like a queen, and will become your loving wife
Which is which and why
>>34163491
>3d
no thanks bubby
I'll take the right, you can leave the left one desu she doesn't look like she provides anything the right doesn't.
>>34163491
Girl on the right has a blurry face but it looks a little better, her legs have more muscle, and her tits look great. I'll take her as the wife. Left can be the sex slave.tfw a few months ago I would've been more aroused by the sex dungeon prisoners but now I just want a mommyqueenwife
Was he framed?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OyR04r7_G8I
>>34163490
No he wasn't framed he raped a bunch of black women in the ghetto knowing they had prior arrests and were afriad of cops. He's a psychopath and watching him weep like a bitch when he gets sentenced to 263 years in prison was gorgeous.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ImX003hG54
>>34163581
Nobody wants to have sex with nigresses, you retard.
He had a decent white girlfriend and a great life. You are perpetuating the conspiracy against hapas and WMAF. Kill yourself.
>>34163638
>thinks rape is about sex and attractiveness
Top. Fucking. Kek.
What's your opinion on people with anime avatars?
>>34163439
It's cute as fug :3
Keep it up.
>>34163439
dead giveaway if I know you and your picture's of some goofy looking fuckwit
...
that means you're weird
>>34163439
I love them and I love cute anime posters.
>>34163541
This
>woke up slightly during a wet dream
>felt myself cum befoe drifting back to sleep
This doesn't count towards my nofap streak, right?
Also /nofap/ general.
>>34163415
No it doesn't.
How far along are you, anon?
A chastity cage is the way to go, that way you can't cheat, not even if you want to.
>>34163427
Day 14. My dick felt like it was melting, I feel better after experiencing the dream.
this guys has a son.
very nice pucci
>>34163408
how did he make one with a boipussi?
>>34164661
This
I would really like to know.
>tfw no black trans weeb gf
>>34163368
What's it like to be black and a weeb?
>trans
when will this meme die?
So when you fuck this thing does it chimp out and murder you, or does its family?
How old were you when you gave up on life?
I think around 12 or so. I realized that I was never going to be successful.
Nothing that happens on this board is anything to be proud of.
13 or 14.
Got my first depression diagnosis around that time, at least.
>Awaken
>See this
How do you handle this?
>>34163363
chow down and dig in.
Breakfast. Good, I'm hungry.
>>34163363
If this is not my house, stand up, dress myself and go away.
If it is my house, politely ask her to leave.I'm gay.
FPM HAS BEEN CHOSEN BY CHARON TO LEAD /R9K/ INTO A NEW ERA. WE WILL DISCUSS THE REBIRTH OF THIS BOARD IN THIS THREAD.
>>34163352
I think we should allow all trap and femanon threads with open arms. It's the only way to revive this board.
>>34163352
R9K, united behind FPM
>>34163352
FPM successfully killed the 'unkillable thread' by riding it into Page 10 and Taking the reigns at the last possible second. As per our rules, FPM is chosen to be the Anon that will lead /r9k/ into a golden age.
I'm tired of this life man. Gonna go off myself.
I hate the French with a passion too.
the world needs every french hater it can get, op
>>34163348
W-what do you mean american friend!???
>>34163413
i am not american. but continue to spread the word about the filthy fucking frenchies. you're doing a service for humanity as a whole
>be me
>29yo neet
>sadvirginthemovie.mp3
>get inspired one day
>decide I can have anything I want if I just work toward it
>tell parents I am cooking for dinner because I have a "secret decision I wish to share with you"
>they look at each other and smile
>dad claps me on back and says "Well I look forward to hearing it, son. I love you no matter what."
>oh shit
>they think I am coming out of the closet
>I only wanted to say I was going to go to the gym and get a six pack
>go look in oven at pie
>I put a set of dumbbells on the top
>I thought that "top of the crust" was an actual thing that people say
>it was supposed to be a visual pun
FUCK
I put it on to stay warm but what do I do?
>>34163285
[ = D
Is all I see anon, where's the dumbbell? Good on you for that decision tho, hope you'll save your motivation for quite some period. Good luck!
>>34163285
>it looks like a poorly drawn penis
good job OP this will convince them you aren't gay
>>34163285
Perhaps your road to self improvement should start with a job rather than going to the gym.