Ablum Recs 4 your feels.
>Liked a girl for about 4 months
>just find out she likes one of my close friends
>i've been tasked with setting them up together
this fucking sucks
how bout a feels rec for this album?
upon first listen, it's not viscerally affecting me. any japan fans know how it affects them? it's well crafted but it feels emotionally hollow and cold
>few months ago
>go to counseling
>get forced to go to mental health facility
>spend 2 hours with another guy, none of my stuff available to me
>finally meet with doctor: cleared to leave
>receive bill from the facility
/mu/ I'm pissed off.
>tfw your bipolar medicine is working well
>tfw the only drawbacks are that it takes away from your creativity and enjoyment of music
>dream about her last night
>she hugged and kissed me; we were both happy and together
>realize it was a dream
>realize that she's gone now and hasn't thought of me in years
>after it's all said in done, still hope I dream of her again because those dormant hours of splendor and happiness will more than compensate for what comes after
I just want to be happy again. I've forgotten what it's like.
>tfw out of curiosity you start reading and watching interviews with varg
>this leads to you researching all the things he talks about in detail
>begin having racist/ antisemitic thoughts all the time when I never did before, and even though I don't agree with the things I'm reading/ watching.
I get that. I mean, and this is probably how it is for a lot of folks here, no matter how much we hate it, it's probably gotten to the point where we're so tired of this that we'd be content, more than content actually, to be in a relationship with someone whom we didn't entirely like. If it meant we could just be with someone and feel wanted, I mean.
With me, it wasn't even a relationship though. Just some girl I barely knew but crushed on hard in middle school. We were in band together. I played the clarinet and she sat in front playing the flute. I'm just trying to remember that moment when I made her laugh, turn and smile at me because it felt so good.
Thanks. I was just listening to Pinkerton this morning right after I'd woken up, too.
>tfw musician who is too scared to share his music cause he doesnt want to annoy anyone
I guess I should start thinking of things like they were back in the 90s, Before the internet really was the source for sharing media, Solidify a band lineup, and book some shows
Tfw these are optimistic feels but I am not optimistic.
>"Are you alright, anon?"
>Can't tell them I'm depressed because I'm not sad, just lonely and disconnected
>Don't really know what I want anymore
>Just a general disconnect with life and the people around me
That's the weirdest part. There's still this desire to live deep down there, and I'd never consider suicide, but I just don't know what I want to do anymore.
I'll def. get back into kid a though, it's been awhile since I listened through that.
To something other than a movie? I can't remember.
The movies didn't really help.
>tfw no qt gf to hum A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut to while idly sitting with her on the swings at your local park at night
>tfw no qt gf to hum Earthmover to while snuggling in bed with her eyelashes brushing against my cheek and her fingers in my hair messing with my curls
why even live
when no gf
I plan on getting really drunk tonight and crying because i've forgotten how, any music you can think of to go along with that would be great
had pretty much the same dream last night, ruined my entire day
>tfw so crippled by social anxiety that I spend all of my time trying to avoid people as much as possible
>tfw when I decide that the way i'm acting is stupid and I try to talk to people I spend most of the time thinking about how weird and disgusting the person i'm talking to probably thinks I am
>tfw talking to people feels like something I have to gather courage to do and I'll probably die alone and no one will care
you're not alone
well, you are, actually, since we'll never meet thanks to this shield of anonymity between us and stuff, but i know exactly how you feel, when you're constantly cycling between attempts to boost your self-worth and confidence so you can try to talk to people and reverting back to self-loathing when you fail and you're overwhelmed with the sense that you're just living one great exercise of futility, and in that sense you aren't alone.
i hope things get better, for all of us. i really do.
>Every day fades into the next
>Barely any friends
>Listen to music
>After I get home, normally sleep or stay on my computer until it's time to go to sleep
>Discuss with internet friend how I'm feeling
>Lack of motivation
>Life is just so hard right now, and it's going to get way harder.
>recently started to work out
>became more confident
>today I talked to a girl out of nowhere and it went pretty well
Look bros, I get these threads are not always very positive but it's all about feeling good with yourselves, moving on etc. I don't want to bore you with my cliches but, any albums for this feel?
>tfw graduating from college in a few months
>tfw just starting to find myself/come out of my shell
>tfw wish you could stay in college for another four years
>tfw no gf
>Be in relationship for 5 years
>Love of my life, my soulmate always
>Just broke up 3 weeks ago
>Found out shes in a 3 way relationship with another guy and girl now and I havent even gotten over reality yet
I really hurt guys, itd be nice to get some advice from you guys
>Used to be too dumb to notice when girls were attracted to me
>tfw watching them lose interest when they learn I'm depressed and not interested in anything
>tfw craving romantic relationships and complete solitude at the same time
>tfw finals soon
Wow, fuck her man that's horrible. Hang in there. Time will heal things eventually but for the time being you should be focusing on yourself. Let everything out and strive to better yourself as a person, it'll feel great later on when you're successful and can look back and laugh
>first and only gf I've ever had
>she cheated on me, but ended up dumping the guy and coming back to me
>I was really hurt but also didn't want to lose her
>I resented her throughout our relationship
>convinced myself I was in love with another girl
>finally decided to leave gf
>other girl not into me
>I'm such a fucking idiot
>other than the cheating, she was always so good to me
>Freshman year at a university
>Be completely alone and basically holed up in my room for months
>Meet very qt girl out of nowhere
>Start talking to her
>She's super nice
>We mainly talk over phone calls and texting
>Eventually find out that she's a senior at a nearby high school and was just on campus for something else
>"I-I mean that's TOO weird, I'm only a freshman..right?"
>Find out that she is completely obsessed with All Time Low and even has a tattoo of one of their song lyrics over top of a - you guessed it- anchor
>"I-it's okay, T-to each their own...right?"
>Find out she decided a few months ago on a sudden urge to join the army for 8 years and is leaving in a few months
I just want a normal qt, hell even a normal friend- just anyone, to hang out with. She said she wants to see me tomorrow night for some reason I have a feeling she's going to try to kill me or some shit.
you're better off without her regardless. I know how shitty it is to force yourself to think like that but i can guarantee someone that's cheated on you is not good for you in the long run, especially if you held resentment
I know that feel. You'll find someone else eventually, don't worry. And maybe it was for the best anyway, in first relationships it usually seems like there's a lot more at stake than there actually is.
>tfw starting to irrationally dislike women because they will never have to know what it's like to be ignored and rejected to the same extent as men because men are expected to initiate interaction
>go hang out with friends
>7/10 girl says me and other friend are cute
>gives me and him her number
>talk to her a bit, says I'm really attractive
>I don't text her because I feel weird
>she sent me two messages
>find out from friend later in week he texted the girl and she sucked his dick
Of all the feels threads in the various boards, I like these the most. Hope everyone gets over their shit.
>I'm really hitting it off with a girl
>literally the enthusiasm from her has become nonexistent
>don't know if I came off to strong
>responds to my texts every 12 or so hours
>I know she has a busy week so I'm trying to not be a pain in the ass
>leaving uni soon and it will certainly fade if we don't see each other before leaving
>can't figure out course of action
I just got back from the library and one of my group member's friends came and sat with us and she was a so-so qt hipster but she had some super nice tittays. I don't think she was wearing a bra
She did it to hurt you but she still wanted to keep you. Now that sounds like a spoiled child trying to make their mother feel guilty. She took the relationship for granted, not you. Fuck cheaters. Just to be sure, you're no longer with her right?
>met a girl at a music festival
>free spirit and qt3.14
>fall head over heels hard
>stop acting like a bitch and actually talk to her
>I'm actually doing this
>she's very forward and confident, which is nice because I'm a bit of a shy idiot
>shyness manages to come across as strong+silent
>anyway, she wasn't nearly as into me as I was into her
>even when I do everything right I fuck up
>6 months later
>still thinking about lying next to her, eating strawberries and listening to the rain
>sister tried to kill herself two days ago
>whole household is completely shellshocked
>parents are used o me fucking up but there is absolutely no precedent for this, sister has always been the good kid who just goes about her business
>don't know what to do
>feel extremely awkward and in the way
>just want to leave the house and not come back
>Dad has confided in me that he feels like a complete and utter failure as a father and can't understand why any of this has happened
>on top of this I'm kind of slipping into a benzo addiction and so my instinct in this situation is to go and take a heap of xanax and not do/feel/say anything for a few days
Listening to a local band called Low Life, check them out. https://soundcloud.com/lowlife-sydney/dogging-lp-version
>tfw skinny manlet
>obviously a bit of a weirdo by pleb standards
>tfw only girls that like you are feminist chubbies that will never have respect for you simply because you are male
>have some mental health problems
>meet a girl through somewhat of a support group
>she's nice and seems cool
>learn all the shit she's going through
>force myself to talk to her
>now exchanging everything on facebook
>It only gets worse
>Admits she's tried to kill herself 4 times
>I don't want her to die
anything sympathetic towards someone who's having a shit time would be good
shit anon, sister older or younger?
When she comes home, you should just go and lie down next to her or something so that she feels more responsible for the family's emotions. A spontaneous act like that can give someone a lot of purpose and would show that you care.
>tfw spent so much time on the internet as a kid/teenager that i've completely alienated my self from most "normal" people
>tfw I live in a small town with no real scene that I fit into
>tfw I have pretty much nothing in common with the people i'm friends with and feel like i'm wasting the best years of my life
Younger. It's weird because the other day I was saying to my mum that I'm glad that my sister has finished school because now I can get to know her as I haven't really had any sort of relationship with her for a long time. I think this is going to properly fuck my parents/ family up. I can't see them recovering from this.
Lol okay what festival?
the sweet qt redheads anon, its so hard not to get attached ;_;
where are you and why Canada?
I'm in Toronto. Its pretty good, but the progressive politics circlejerk is distracting and annoying
I used to fantasize about meeting a girl like that when I went to support group meetings
I'm not sure what kind of music you like but you might like this
>not making a move in that time
>Eyed this qt3.14 half-Japanese grill
>Found out everyone wants to fuck her
>me having a cleft palate discouraging
>finished all my classes and assignments for the year
>first exam is in 9 days
>will probably do fine on it
>just had a secret santa gift exchange tonight and received a really great gift (craft beer and nutella)
>just went to get McDonald's with one of my roommates
>sitting in sweatpants playing Civilization III while listening to some great music
montreal dude here, born and raise
love it, it's a great city when you come to find all that's uncovered
people bitch about the winter a lot but it's great motivation to stay inside and work on your music or writing
plus there's a lot of cool young people, seeing as it's a uni town
Maybe it would be different for you/maybe I feel the same way about here as you do about socal, but i'm sort of just fed up with the industrial buildings and living in small towns with nothing to do. Montreal is an exciting city and and is different from the pretty much identical southern ontario area
>i have better friends then i could wish for
>i go out and meet grills weekly
>on my final 6 months of a m.sc. in engineering
>semi professional hiphop producer
>i look alright (i guess) and dress well above avrg
Honestly though i just want to sit at home and waste my time (playing dota and shit). I sometimes fall into depressions and nobody actually notices, though some people suspect it from my sleeping patterns (i sleep very irregularly). I don't know what my problem is I'm just really fucking depressed. Sometimes i'm thinking of an hero, and somehow it scares me that I have no fucking idea if I'm being serious about that.
>tfw ultra beta?
the language barrier, and the people I've encountered are more bitter than Torontonians even.
I haven't had as much time to explore it as I would like though, so I still have hope.
I wish there were better options for getting there than mega bus, surely the plebbest coach busses ever. Via is cash tho
>currently with first gf ever
>we're a great match
>we love each other a lot
>4 months and we've been through a lot, sorted through many obstacles
>I just don't want any of this to end, it's amazing.
I gonna marry her, what's the worst that could happen, anyway?
>tfw 20 and doing well in college
>despite success i've had this urge to run away from everything
>like buy a one way plane ticket to California bringing nothing but the clothes on my back and sleep in parks
>digging away at me slightly but i can deal with it
>fast-forward to now
>running a 70% in calc, one small fuck-up on the final means i have to retake it
>fantasize about failure and can live out my homelessness dream
I don't want to fail but I'm really scared success will lead me towards a mundane, soul-crushing life of office work, but I know running away will hurt my family and friends.
hah, yeah, there are bitter people here
hanging around the plateau / mile-end area is cool though, that's where all the cool record stores and venues are
plus it's a relatively low income area, so a lot of ethnic communities have sprung up, making it a hive for different cultures and tastes of the world, it's great
you'd definitely have to stay here for upward of a month to truly take in the spirit of the city though, and it's not really the right place for everyone - i've heard people say its too small and dirty
but it has its charm, and is definitely worth looking into
I feel the same. I think that no matter what I will always find something to complain about. There isn't shit to do here either. The cities are only fun if you have friends and something to do. No one ever want to do shit around here.
My feels are that I want to have a good band to listen to while I drive the girl I like to a show. I need an hour of something she hasn't listened to, but I've given her most of the music I'd think she'd like. She's pretty big into Owen, Red House Painters and other acoustic stressed albums.
>Convinced myself that there was not a single soul in the opposite sex that would ever desire or want me, the way I have for them. ( More specifically, a former friend )
>Tfw your spirit has been smashed multiple times you no longer feel attracted to anyone
>One day you meet someone, and they remind you what it's like to really long for a women...
>But you know nothing will happen.
>Vicious cycle repeats.
I share these feels with you all, and if nothing else we have solidarity