itt: post a feel and someone posts an album for that feel
>tfw wallowing in own self-hatred
>tfw you can't get anything you want to done
>tfw two of your friends have diagnosed depression and are doing better than you
>tfw coming to terms with the fact that you're effectively less than human
Not going to lie, I hate self-hate.
First off, there are three types of self-haters. There's those who sit there and do nothing, those who do their best to hide it and move on with their lives, and those who fish for compliments and attention to fill some gap.
I hate two of the three.
If you really hate yourself, identify specific things you want to change. Realistic things. Go work out. Go talk to friends. Go learn to play the guitar and learn to love yourself.
Also, listen to pic related if you hate yourself.
I know that feel, bro. It'll come to a head eventually. Don't try and force up the balls to end it. Let the balls come naturally.
First of all, do you like punk or hardcore? Cuz if you don't, don't listen to this.
>tfw I always feel like shit
>tfw the only thing I want is for people to truly enjoy my music
Stop fishing for compliments. Never do that ever. Ever. Attention is not a goal within itself, it's part of the reward for accomplishing another goal.
Get some goals. That'll cure you from doing nothing. Start off easy too. Start flossing every night. That's your first goal. To for a walk in the park this weekend. That's another goal. Ask a girl you like on a date as just friends. Nothing needs to come of it. It's okay if she says no. The goal is just to ask her.
I probably just recommended it because I first listened to that album at the end of a phase I was having. The phase involved me thinking some self-hate was good for me because it kept me from getting too proud. Not a good phase.
>Girl I love
>We both share music taste, have the same personality
>She's dating someone that's a complete opposite from who we are
>They're going out right now, you're still alone, and you know you'll never find another person like that in real life
Part of me thinks this sounds really cheesy, but the other part of me likes it. I'm too tired for this. Thanks
That's called nihilism. It's kinda pointless in itself. Life inherently has no meaning. You make your own meaning. If there's a God and his purpose for us was to praise him or whatever, the best way to do that would probably be to live your life to its fullest potential. Its fullest potential is defined by you in most aspects.
Anyone got any good "aimlessness / lost generation" albums?
Anything by Elliott Smith, man. This is my favorite though.
>tfw girl you love lives so far away from you and you just want to be with her. . .
>tfw you waited too long to ask her
>tfw all your friends grew up and got married and moved far away
>tfw every childhood memory is shrouded by regret and self loathing
>tfw no footage of the snack machine from zaboomafoo on youtube
>tfw you look in a mirror and have a sudden lapse of depersonalization and feel a deep spiraling feeling of insanity as you look at yourself and realize that person isn't you and that there is no "you"
>tfw starting to feel better, found qtgf
>tfw falling back into hating myself, losing interest in my studies, wanting to be alone, and inching towards alcoholism
Im actually INFP too.
>tfw always worrying whether or not they will like you
>never get around to actually being you
>they ask you what you listen too
>say general indie pitchfork core so they like you better
>still regret it later
>tfw you go to the bathroom to pee and you sit down because it's late and youre tired and you get the urge to poo but you dont wanna bother with wiping so you hold it in and hope the urge goes away
that happened to me. the trick is to just let go and forget about the world and just do whatever the fuck you want and do alot of drugs. Listened to this on loop for 4 hours walking around my street while tripping on acid. That seemed to help
>sitting while peeing
>tfw need to pee
>stalls full, use urinal
>someone starts peeing in urinal next to me
>cant pee until he leaves
>2 more people use urinal
>standing there for 5 minutes until i finally pee
This is a lot lighter, but still lots of feels on it for me.
>>51350041 here, i'm INFJ...
anyways, i find that small talk is hard, but once i know someone well enough, i can fill in the dots of their personality (Ni/Fe/Ti works wonders)-not necessarily accurately, but intuitively for sure. So if i meet a qt that I make good friends with, and I like the personaliy, i sort of develop an idealized version of her in my head-which is why i have overattachment issues at times. it's like, one person seems perfect in your head, when reality is a hell of a lot different
>tfw life is easy if you're an Si-dom
>tfw life is fucking surreal at times as an Ni-dom
>tfw she used to love you
>tfw you told her it was a bad idea
>tfw she didn't care
>tfw she hates you now
>tfw create an idealized version of myself for that person in my head
>tfw act different around each friend group
>tfw friend groups clash
Ive been getting better by doing whatever the fuck I want though. Have less friends but oh well.
>that fuckin feel when you're too good forher and she still will never like you
I'm actually really going for it, I talked to a beautiful brazilian girl today and she seemed really engaging in the convo. we talked about fashion and energy drinks...
also thanks for that album will listen
and by not good enough, I'm being retarded, my plans are miles ahead then her and her friend's aspirations she's probably not bad at all but I can't fall for someone who might hold me back.
>tfw rub shit all over your eyes, ears, and mouth
>tfw live in a dark basement of shit
>tfw the shit has been on your skin so long you have adapted to it and BECOME shit
>tfw your table is more shit than table at this point
>grandma going through some medical problems
>worried about her and about my mother
>father got caught up in some shit
>feeling like shit lately, no will to study for uni
>feel lonely because I live away from mom and dad
>a little sick
These days the only happiness I got left is music.
ITT: albums than made you cry
pic very related
being in love with someone and really fucking missing them.
pic related - both messages from her
i'm honestly so crushed
>go to take a shit in restaurant
>take the handicap stall because they take my parking spot everyday
>unload green lactose intolerant shits into the toilet
>two dudes walk in to wash their hands
>halt shit stream
>start thinking how funny it would be to ruin their conversation by fracking the mother lode of gas stored in my anus
>start laughing, shitting, and farting to myself in the stall
>the two dudes exited 10 minutes ago
>tfw you can successfully ignore the existential horror of your life for weeks on end until one night it strikes you like an eagle swooping down on a toddler and you can't fucking sleep and then you make it through without killing yourself to start the whole cycle over a few days later
why kill yourself now and enter the void when it will happen eventually to all of us regardless. Its like skipping dinner to have desert, except you still get the same shit as everyone else. Nothing.
>tfw been in this situation
>made post like this 7 months ago exactly to the date
>tfw eventually went loony and sent to counseling and a psychiatrist
>tfw only gotten worse
see a doctor before shit gets fucked up anon.
embrace the crazy
>tfw selfish cunt
>tfw don't really care about anyone else
>tfw you know you're a selfish cunt and feel bad about it but you're too much of a selfish cunt to do anything about it
Sorry if this is a difficult feel.
>tfw no IRL friends
>tfw so self-conscious that you keep quiet even in your favorite chatroom in case you come off as a retard
>tfw met a girl that made me believe in life again
>afraid to die for the first time in years
>I know I'm probably the most important person in her life right now but she still can't fall in love with me
>she's abroad right now but she comes back for two weeks next month
>we basically planned to spend that time getting closer to each other and see how it feels
>she's gone for another 6 months after that
>tfw I want her to stay
I feel like this is appropriate for a lot of the feels I'm seeing in this thread. You guys are some bleak motherfuckers.
Any music for suicidal thoughts/general depression?
I get this vibe from Oneohtrix Point Never - R + 7 and Commissions.
And VSnares - Songs About My Cats.
Wait, I have one. This is as upbeat as it gets, everything else is fairly neutral or outright downer shit.
>switching studies after christmas
>not available to do before
>waiting two months in complete apathy
>hating most of my aquintences
>everything is fucking bullshit
>People i associate with are dumb as snot
>become more and more depressed
>just want to move on
anything for this feel? i think something relatable would help i ton.
Commit suicide... IN SPAAAAAAAAACE!
This is pretty good
>tfw attracted to multiple girls at once and dont know how to go about pursuing those interests without making things awkward
I say this like I'd ever summon up the courage to ask even one of them on a date
>had a dream where i masturbated and then swallowed mouthful after mouthful of my cum
I had a dream where this virus turned beautiful women into half manta rays. Like the back of their body was a manta ray but the front was just a regular woman except that they had this like 'pocket' in the front of their chests which was incredibly satisfying to fuck. Anyway in the dream I fucked the pockets of a lot of these manta-women it was really weird
I'm not even slightly gay though. I mean I sometimes swallow one or two spurts of my jizz but the thought of swallowing another guy's makes me fucking gag
Nice, did you have a nocturnal emission?
Or if one accepts I'm always left wondering "what if?"
Truth is its been a long long time since I've genuinely had a crush on someone. Nowadays I just have a lot of female friends who I find attractive and I guess could tolerate being in a reltionship with.
>Nice, did you have a nocturnal emission?
Actually no, I was genuinely surprised when I woke up to find my bed dry as a bone. I have masturbated in weeks and get the occasional sex dream but I haven't had a wet dream since i was like 14
*haven't masturbated in weeks, I should clarify
And it's not through any moral or 'no fap' propaganda thing just haven't had the urge really. I wouldn't describe my sex drive as low though, just haven't been masturbating.
i tried the retail thing but i guess i'm not cut out for it. one manager said they hired someone else because i didn't seem comfortable enough in the position, lol. i looked at manual labour but it seems like they all want previous experience and/or some sort of certification
There's a stigma? Aside from being a shit kicker that is. I feel bad about how easy I get work sometimes, was unemployed for like 3 months after the pkace I worked at shut down. First job I applied for got filled but incidently the boss was looking to replace the houseman they had. Got the first job I applied for. And the job before that I got because both my sistersalready worked there. I've never really had to work for work, which is strange because all I hear from friends is how hard it is even with the shittiest menial jobs.
I remember my first jog. I literally couldn't walk anymore for the rest of the day.
Next time you go jogging, listen to You're A Woman, I'm A Machine by DFA1979. That shit's my jog jam.