Ambient, Drone, Post-Punk, Techno, raingarridge, Melacholic Folk, talk about your fucking feelings
Currently listening to a remix of Ryuichi Sakamoto.
A little drunk, a little stoned.
This is the only time of day I feel so free.
>getting out of bed in the morning
slept in until 1PM today. it's a lot better than where I was a couple months ago, but I feel guilty as soon as I get out of bed and I can't explain why
i prevent myself from love
there is nobody to hold me at all; that would be nice to have
i am lactose and i cant eat Halloween chocolate
I want to talk to this girl everyday but I never can and now I'm still up thinking about her
You should. I was in the same position 2 years ago. I'm still lonely and miserable but I now have one person to talk to and that means all the world
When I think back on my memories and life it feels like they aren't mine. It feels like I've lived a different life than the one I have. Kinda like in a dream, but it's happening every day.
I talked to a girl I really liked for a few years for the first time just now.
It was very awkward and forced. I hated it and myself for doing it. Mad Tao Lin vibes.
Wouldn't recommend doing anything like that.
Someone I was charged with caring for died and I discovered the body when they did not report for duty. It's been like 8 months and every night my mind turns to his family, his children, who have to grow up without their father. That's when the guilt and feelings of powerlessness overcome me and bring me to tears. Won't seek help because I don't want to deal with the nightmare that is the Veterans Administration.
Music is the only comfort that isnt booze or drugs i can turn to in these moments.
Well this killed it. I was planning on talking to her on monday but now that you mention it I don't really want something like that happening. I guess I'll wait.
See the thing is my friends all say she's into me but I can never muster up the courage to talk to her because she never really shows it. I'm convinced they're just fucking with me.
Just talk to her anyway. If it doesn't work out, don't worry about it, you'll spot another girl sometime. There are so many people out there, and so many chances to form connections with people because of that. You won't connect with everyone, but if you see someone you want to you may as well give it a go.
Worst case you get rejected and you never speak to her again. Speaking from experience, it's better than pining for something that never existed in the first place. Pain fades, but the anxiety of not knowing lasts forever.
Don't wait man. There's no time like the present for action. Also, women are fickle, if you don't make a move, her mind will sway.
I speak from experience, and i still think what would have happened with one girl.
>my friends all say she's into me
If that's really the case then you have to try to overcome that self-doubt.
Like that girl I mentioned, I was -way- into her. This cannot be emphasized enough. And we had this day together that I still think about, and I'm pretty certain that we could have ended up dating if I wasn't so much of an idiot. Now she is backpacking with a guy who is like...a far better person than I will ever be and I'm doing what I did a year ago: shitposting on 4chan at an unholy, dead hour of night.
I take back my recommendation against talking to her because I don't want you to regret it like I did: I assumed the situation was different. You should go for it.
Come Share the music here, and talk with other denizens of the night.
currently listening to pic related
it sucks when you fall in love with someone on the other side of the planet, even if they reciprocate the feelings
love that album, and eleh in general. i wonder if POLARIZER will ever make it on the intetnet