Should I try to teach myself creative writing the "proper" way or just read a metric fuckton and try to learn that way?
I am a NEET who will kill himself if he doesn't write something he's happy with soon so I have plenty of time for either I just was wondering which you think is better
He meant what are you referring to when you ask if you should learn the "proper" way?
Writing a lot is the most important part. Getting honest feedback from other people is the other most important part. Also read a lot.
If you can find a good teacher that will help too but the other things are necessary.
"Read, read, read. Read everything -- trash, classics, good and bad, and see how they do it. Just like a carpenter who works as an apprentice and studies the master. Read! You'll absorb it.
Then write. If it's good, you'll find out. If it's not, throw it out of the window."
That's Faulkner. You gotta do both OP.