How do we differentiate between which things are worth knowing and which are not. What books are worth reading and which are not?
I'm a perfectionist. I know that you don't just start reading history, or reading philosophy, or learning a language. You have to start at the beginning. So where is the beginning? How do I do any of these things?
I keep sitting down to read, but I find myself questioning what I'm getting out of it. I tried to read about the Napoleonic wars the other day. I couldn't keep it up. Where is the benefit in knowing the names of Napoleon's marshals or the details of his battles? Where is the benefit in knowing anything? How does it benefit me? I try to read philosophy, but it's too daunting. I can understand so little of it. Feels like trying to climb a mountain without even knowing where it is. I hate myself for having so little attention span and being so fucking retarded. If I could will my IQ higher, I would, but I'M JUST SO FUCKING STUPID.
You have to differentiate between known knowns and unknown unknowns; after which you behold known unknowns and then unknown knowns. After that you dive into existentialism, and then you go.