>want to be a girl since age 9
>become obsessed with it
>find out about transgender people at age 14
>realize that my parents would never approve of it
>decide to start hrt in secret as soon as I turn 18
>still havent started hrt, just ordered bicalutamide and estradiol online
>ended up crossdressing in public and being a grill part time at 18 (i kind pass with wig/some makeup but not too well)
Fuck, why didn't I have the girlballs to start sooner? I could've ordered the fucking hormones at age 15-16.
Pretty much the same story with me. Though some of my memories wanting to be a girl go back to like 6~.
I wrote a "coming out" letter to my mum and everything when I was 15 but just scrapped it because I was too scared.
I've turned out okay though, I pass reasonably well 4 years on from starting and pretty much have no dysphoria since getting the final part for me (srs).
Hooray, you're my future. Except I'm going to try and get my ass in gear before I turn 19 in 2 months. I just really don't want to self med, and my therapist is an ass. Tempted to lie and say I'm self medding just so my doctor will get me on the shit without having to deal with this quack anymore.
>Tempted to lie and say I'm self medding just so my doctor will get me on the shit without having to deal with this quack anymore.
That probably won't work with most doctors, when I told mine I was self medding the most he could do was blood tests to make sure I was monitored when buying the "spoopy black market hormones".