>tfw today is the guy I've been in love with for wa too long's birthday
>I want to wish him a happy birthday but what's the point?
>Also I'm sacred as shit of doing it for some reason
If I were a girl I could just slut it up a little and he'd ravage my girlpussi, but noooo, I had to be stuck with this inferior boipussi.
What do you hate about being /lgbt/?
>First day of college
>Got there early so I was one of the first people in the classroom
>See super handsome guy walking by and sitting at the back
>Have to keep myself from turning my head and staring
>Decide I have to talk to him
>Fast forward a week
>Finally get the perfect chance to make small talk
>It goes well. It becomes a routine before every class and during breaks
>Talking with him makes me feel tingly
>Fast forward a month
>He ads me on Facebook
>I hadn't updated it for years but it was a good reason to go back at it
>Chat every other day through there
>Fast forward some more
>Start thinking he might actually be bi from some things he said
>Too scared to ask though
>"I guess the subject will come up eventually if he is."
>Fast forward some more
>Way too obsessed with him now
>"I have to say something!"
>Never get a good chance because we only see each other at class and there are always other classmates around
>One day after class
>"Hey, anon, you take the subway, right?"
>"Great. I have to take it today too, let's go together!"
>Internally screaming like an excited little girl
>This is it
>Take the subway, but it's too crowded to talk
>Wait till we're off
>Walking towards the stairs
>"So, [his name]"
>"I... was wondering... if... I mean, hehehe... if you'd like to go out sometime."
>Suddenly we're not walking anymore
>"Well, like..." *stupid smile and shoulder shrug*
>Feel my soul leaving my body
>Suddenly eldery lady appears and asks us if that subway can take her to [place]
>We have to explain that it doesn't and tell her how to get there
>Suddenly we're walking again
>Complete silence. We're outside again.
>"Well, bye, anon."
>Later that day
>Get text from him
>"Sorry for today. But I'm not into dudes."
>"Don't worry. I should have known."
>"You're a chill guy, anon. Too bad you're not a chick!"
>Send "haha" but crying irl
I did even worse the other day
>added a friend of a friend of mine on Facebook
>he is openly gay
>spoke to him for a while after i added him
>havent spoken to him since
>be a few days ago
>he posts to Facebook "I'm offering $300 to anyone who can help me with a small favour"
>literally have a $300 incentive even if nothing comes out of it to message him
when will I stop being a social autist?