I always viewed traps as just fuck toys, then I saw one I'd actually date, I leaped out of the closet into his arms only to be rejected, well really I'm just not his type, oh well, at least I'll be dead someday.
They have to dress and act a certain way for me to even be attracted to them in the first place, so I never looked at them as a practical dating option seeing as how they wouldn't be attractive to me walking around as a guy, but he was cute period, no illusions.
He says hes not, but he has all the preferences and tendencies of a trans person, just seemed too happy and sure of himself to be in denial, but you never know, I thought the same thing in retrospect.
>tfw don't even have anyone to name in these threads
I'm not sure even if I am in love with her.. I just. I dunno. I miss her you know? I keep feeling that I'm romanticizin' her and really that's the last thing I want to do.
[Spoiler] I wouldn't mind if we dated though [/spoiler]
I thought I was alone. I'm gay, but first kiss was to a girl, and I lost my virginity to a girl although I have no attraction emotionally or sexually to women.
I'm a kiss less virgin when it comes to guys though, never had a kiss or even a crush on a guy IRL. It makes me really sad to think about all the formative experiences I've missed out on over the years.
He's everything I want in a guy and he's completely straight
It doesn't matter. He'll never like me back because they're straight
>It makes me really sad to think about all the formative experiences I've missed out on over the years.
Don't ever dwell on this. It'll only bring you pain. It sucks, I know, but move forward. You'll be so much happier.