>seeing guys kiss guys grosses me out
>seeing guys have sex with guys grosses me out
>is a dude
>is turned on by dudes
>wants to kiss dudes
>wants to have sex with dudes
>seeing guys kiss girls is fine
>seeing guys have sex with girls is fine
>don't want to do anything with girls
>thinks being a girl would be the worst possible thing and would probably just kill myself
what the fuck am I? pls help
Yes, you're gay an in a self hating period. Go to a therapy group, talk to a counselor, meet some other gay men here to chat with it about. You'll get over it.
I doubt it's self-gay hate. I hate myself for a lot of reasons but not that. I just don't find explicit acts of homosexuality to be appealing.
Not in 3DPD anyway.
vags are gross and boobs are overrated
the hips and butts are good tho
I have no idea dare I use a term like demisexual here, I only really jerk off like once a month and its normally straight hentai and I like women, but think vag is nasty so maybe I'm a chaser in denial.
My case is more common
>fap to traps/dicks/gay/shemale porn all day err day
>straight porn meh, usually self insert as girl
>not attracted to guys at all when around them
>attracted to pretty much every 6+ female, even a smile from a pretty girl can make my day
I'm either super in denial or porn fucked up my sexuality. I'll probably spend the entire night jerking off while imagining cocks in my mouth, but the second I go to the store in the morning I'm gonna be a nervous wreck around all the qt cashiers.
>>not attracted to guys at all when around them
do you find this guy attractive?
You're a self-hating gay who hates himself so much that he's sick to his stomach when he sees other gays enjoying what he could be having RIGHT NOW if he weren't such a colossal fag about it.
I don't mean to presume, but maybe it's just a matter of finding the right type of men and/or the right fetish. Or maybe your fetish is keeping men all to yourself. In any case, you're fine.
>Or maybe your fetish is keeping men all to yourself
I don't think so. The whole thing just looks wrong.
> In any case, you're fine
I also find clothed, individual women attractive but I have no desire to be with them in any capacity.
It's an abstract kind of fucked up