>masturbate at least daily
>normal cis guy
>after a few days i start wanting to be a girl
>it goes away like before
T-this is normal right guys?
Does it mean that I've got a testosterone deficiency or something?
Like if it is, I'd rather get a suplement or something, cause it's getting harder and harder to fap (no pun pls).
AGP? I understand what you mean, but I've never really had a problem feeling like this. I'm pretty sure that I'm not genuine when I feel it, I'm pretty sure it's just a sexual thing. Maybe you are the same, but you are just dwelling on it heaps?
Like I used to be able to fap to literally nothing. I looked at it mostly like a chore, so I would just masturbate doing whatever I was doing before a shower, not even thinking about it.
Now it takes an extremely specific type of pornography before I can even get erect.
I hope not. The two seem sorta independant of each other, but they don't ever happen at the same time.
OK. That's a suggestion that you may have picked up a full-blown fetish, although your general relationship with your sex drive seems uncommonly ambivalent. A sex therapist may be able to give you some more I insight and assistance with regards to that.
What's the deal with "wanting to be a girl"? Would you be comfortable elaborating on what that's all about? How it manifests (since you've already indicated when)? How you feel about that desire, and whether and in what way it affects your life?
You're confusing sexual longings of being associated with symbols of emasculation, with wanting to be a girl. A pretty common emasculation fetish, albeit a pretty extreme one, where emotional attatchments will commonly be placed. Crossdressers, sissies, transformation fetishists, etc all belong to this category. Another common misconception is that you're "becoming what you love", when instead the fetish aims to make you "become what you fear". The emasculation anxiety you felt at some point in your life was morphed into arousal, thus the hyperfeminine, emasculatinf scenarios. Due to the fetush being rooted in anxiety, it commonly will take on an obsessive nature within the fetishist and can even compete with heterosexuality. This also seems to be a common fetish among shy, senisitive natured boys for whatever reason. While transition may be necessary for some, not all fetishists will see their desires this way, some may even see them as just a normal part of being who they are and integrate it into their lives as appropriate.
Did you know that transvestic fetishism is still in the DSM? That's the beauty of science, a scientific experiment could be excecuted by the most vile man on the planet, but if he still uses the scientific method, it is still science.
>This also seems to be a common fetish among shy, senisitive natured boys for whatever reason.
This is me. I'm already 1 month into HRT. how do I get rid of these thoughts then? I really tried but that just let to nothing but depression
Transwomen use excessive masturbation pre-transition to deal with dysphoria and suicidal thoughts. The orgasm releases hormones that artificially (and very temporarily) increase their mood.
You're fucking trans, bro. The longer you wait, the worse treatment is going to be for you. You know full well this isn't normal. Closet case crybaby.
You've got it backwards, you armchair whackjob. Transwomen are far more commonly shy (because there's so much anxiety involved with other people and how they'll treat you) and sensitive (because the introspective nature of the disorder and lower testosterone in general creates a complicated relationship with one's own emotions.) You pulled this whole rant out of your ass, and I defy you to cite even a single one of your wild assertions.
Sorry bud, I've heard the same thing from a number of transwomen. Seek therapy now, and figure out just how transgender you are and if you need to transition of not. You may only need a bit of adjustment in you life like crossdressing once a week, or you may need to go all the way.
The question is, did the identification come from exploring the fetish more, or was it innate all along? Does a race car driver identify as a race car driver before he learns of how much he truly loves driving cars?
I would honestly err to believing that it's an innate thing and that AGP is just an outlet for some (particularly repressed) trans women.
The analogy doesn't quite work as cars have barely been around more than a century, whereas gender is one of the core aspects of how humans relate to one another and have done so throughout our evolution.
So gender is kinda more biologically engrained in us, don't you think?
Even then, a lot of race car drivers were those kids who watched Grand Prix from like, 5 years old and just found the idea so exciting that they felt that's what they wanted to do even before sitting in a driver's seat.
I truly believe that humans have the potential to have many identities, based on sexuality, interests, hobbies, professions and the like. That's why it doesn't make sense to me when someone sais that they never realized they were a certain gender until doing x and x. Sexuality just happens to be the most powerful form of expression on this earth, so it makes sense that one would come to identify as a woman if they orgasmed while thinking of themselves as female.