I don't want to be a male but I am not a trans. I'm not interested in women's clothes, living in society as a female, coming out etc. At the same time I experience body dysphoria and hate when somebody is referring to me as man. It is painful to even think about my gender. For the record, I don't jerk off imagining myself as a female and don't watch sissy porn either. I am not really interested in sex. What should I do?
I'd suggest bringing this up with your therapist at earliest convenience. You have many things you don't want, or aren't interested in, or dislike.
Try to work out the things you can going in, and they'll be more helpful. What *do* you want your body to be like? How *do* you want people to refer to you, interact with you?
You don't have to have feminine interests or personality to be trans. A big part of it is discomfort in your body.
Find a professional therapist or something to help you get it sorted out. DON'T use this place, it's basically just shitposting central. You'll only find a bunch of bs misinformation here.
Instead of transitioning to be female, transition away from being male? You can do your own thing, you don't need to go along with any particular stereotype about how this or that kind of person must act.
I'm similar (Except I love girly stuff). I completely hated my body and always wanted to be a woman, but I fucking despise the idea of living as a women in society.
I really wish I could just make these thoughts go away, because it honestly feels like a step down. I can't think of anything good about being a woman. They're weaker, shorter, fatter, objectified, treated like retards, contribute very little to the world compared to men, etc.
Even "female privilege" sounds like shit. I have no idea why anybody would want to be babied and treated like they're an incompetent moron with no value other than looks and sex, but some people seem to like it.
I ultimately gave in and have begun transitioning, but fuck.