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>Being a woman, that's something I can do on autopilot
it's not about being a woman in general or watching your mannerisms, it's about being a young attractive woman in general who men find appealing. the number of times i've had people harass me or try to follow me home either on foot or in their cars and shit....... it's a lot different. add that with the reality that if some of these men knew i was trans after finding me attractive for whatever weird reason? that's how my friends have gotten attacked and beaten. heterosexual men being offended by their own attraction to you leads to violence and lashing out quite often.
>tfw my own best friend
I'm still mulling things over in my head over the first friend I lost.
"I have to leave this group now
I can't watch a good friend
someone I care about
do this to themselves
you were a handsome, intelligent, capable guy
you didn't need to fuck yourself up with hormones
and doing so won't make your life better, quite the opposite
and if I can't convince you of that
I can't associate with you anymore
I'm sorry man
it really hurts, but I have to go
it's just really confusing that he acted like he was so affected by what i do to myself.
>I wish I could go hug you irl and make you feel better. sounds like you really need one
I do really need one. A long endless hug. I am snuggling with my foster rescue. She is traumatized too. Helping her has helped me though not as much as I had hoped.
She is. She is sitting on the couch next to me all snuggled. She can tell I am upset, and is trying to make me feel better. OMG I am crying again.
The thing is about working through a shitty life is getting better is painful.
>tfw trans bff lives 3 hours away
>tfw even your trans friends who you love from mtfg are hundreds of miles away
idk i had grey hairs on my head when i was like ... 16? 17? it's due to stress and genetics i guess. my skin hasn't aged at all really because of my racial mix and my excessive skincare regimen, but hair greying and thinning and that kind of thing you can't prevent lol
Yes it does. Mine has this stuffed bunny that she just loves, and carries around for comfort. She is so gentle with it unlike her other toys. I know that technically I am supposed to give her up for adoption, but I love her so much I never will I think. I failed at being a dog foster.
>mfw best friend also trans
Things get pretty grim, but something about the company makes it seem so much funnier. Cuddles probably don't hurt.
That is so hard to find. I have had two trans friends just totally shit on me. Never be nice to hons cause they are evil.
I did make one super great bff, but she hated Houston and moved away. She did recently pay for me to come visit her cause I was sad. I love her so much. I love you Kassidy.
>tfw headache stops after an entire day of headache
I'm so comfy
ye aves is my best friend and has been one of my best friends for the past 6 years. we transitioned together and everything. i had a cis bff who i knew for half my life but it all fell apart recently when his bisexual bf hit on me a ton.... the cis bff is in the middle, me at the right, aves at the left. this pic is likeee 3 years old now. we were all very close at one point....
>tfw your best friend left you and your last two other good friends died at the same time
That's a feel that I feel every waking moment desu.
I wish I could call this guy to snuggle. I was out with my cis bff and he totally just came up and was pretty flirty. He is giant and he was bending at the knees just to take that pic. OMG I would melt in his arms. lol
Yes I looked like a hon. That was after a bottle of wine and I wasn't too with it.
Tfw you have 10 trans friends who live in your town with one if them being from the network
Well, thanks for reminding me I'm an ugly old piece of junk and that I'll never have to worry about that again. Yeah, I know how it feels. One guy tried to corner and rape me in a dark street back when I was 19 and still trying to transition. Obviously never going to happen again, now.
thank ^-^ i love her so much still. she's always been there for me when i needed it. just sucks we're far apart yknow
ya he's cis! he's more androgynous tho. like super long nails and wore a tiny bit of makeup and purple contacts etc
it depends on your skin type, like my regimen is good for me but it's not good for everyone yknow?
there's only one trans woman under the age of 40 in the town i currently live in, pic related on the right. i would feel bad about posting her picture but i was ridiculously nice to her and open to helping her with a million things and then she went around insulting me calling me names because the guy she liked had a crush on me. so.....
why would you want that????????????
you know how shitty it is to have a guy follow you home and to have to call your friends to help you or pick you up? or having men corner you because you don't want to fuck them, and then having them call you a bitch or a cunt? it's not fun at all. men don't deal with this shit at all so why is it normal for younger attractive women? i carry a weapon everywhere i go because of this kind of thing.
if you want i can do a consultation with you right now just over the boards :o i mean i won't have like 100% accuracy but assuming you know what you want and some things about yourself i can base it off that.
drink enough water every day and don't slack on that at allllllll
yes please. what do you need to know? i want the skin of at least a 20 year old instead of 40 like i have now. ive got laugh lines and forehead lines and i don't even go out in the sun much ;3;
>you know how shitty it is to have a guy follow you home and to have to call your friends to help you or pick you up? or having men corner you because you don't want to fuck them, and then having them call you a bitch or a cunt? it's not fun at all. men don't deal with this shit at all so why is it normal for younger attractive women? i carry a weapon everywhere i go because of this kind of thing.
I am thinking of getting a concealed carry too. I have been scared a couple times since transition. I try to be safe though. I try to only roam in packs.
Like I mentioned, I know. I've been there before. Back when I wasn't a broken husk. And there you imply people treat me like a man. Definitely not young, attractive, nor even a woman. I'd better be looking for ways to die than reasons to live, at this point.
ok um here's a few questions i need answers to in order to help you. i guess this will go for you or anyone reading this if you want advice.
1) what kind of skin do you have? dry, oily, normal, or a combination of any of these?
2) what kind of climate are you usually in each day?
3) what kind of skincare or makeup do you use now?
4) what would you say the negatives of your skin are currently, and what is your end goal?
5) also, do you suffer from sensitive, or acne prone skin?
i need a gun, i just carry a giant military grade knife lmfao
tf is wrong with you??? i meant men my age don't deal with this. TECHNICALLY NO MAN DOES. just because you don't experience the possibility of getting raped or followed home anymore as much anymore doesn't mean you're a man?? why tf would you want this????? if you actually knew what this was like you wouldn't be complaining lmfao!! all i ever want when i leave my house is to get from one place to the other with as little difficult and interaction with men as possible. like that's literally my goal because of this shit.
I blame video games and anime not shitposting tbhon.
1 oily and dry
2 i live in the country
3 i just use generic cleanser/moisturizer and retin-a every other day, no makeup
3 my primary gripe about my skin right now is it feels really aged. it's got a dry patchy texture and i've got laugh lines, forehead lines and and eyebrow crease, i want to reverse these if remotely possible and get my glow back
>5 i don't know what determines sensitive, but i'm acne prone
i'm working on changing my diet too and i need to drink more water.
keep in mind how DHT blockers work. they stop the enzyme responsible for converting a fraction of your T into DHT, so
a) if you're already taking spiro and increasing your dose, DHT will be reduced as a result.
b) taking a DHT blocker will increase the amount of whatever T is left in your system
c) if you come off the blocker, there will be a jump in DHT production but nowhere near the jump you'd get if you weren't taking spiro.
to me, DHT blockers always seemed like a stopgap to stave the effects of DHT until you can get on a more effective AA. i dunno tho.
>tfw too manly and intimidating to ever need a knife or a gun to defend myself
>tfw 5´10" viking hon
Just stand next to tall people and no one will notice. I can go from being a midget to a giant. Perspective is key.
Jesus why did I hunch in that pic. I look so pathetic.
What's wrong with me? I'm old. That's what's wrong with me. My life came to a stop when I was 20 and now that I'm emerging from that grey haze of a non-life I was plunged into, I have to deal with that decrepit body I can't recognize as mine anymore. I see my face in the mirror and I want to peel off that disgusting, wrinkled flesh off my skull with a knife. Here's what's wrong. Sorry if I that makes me cry, I know that's a ludicrous sight, but it's not like I can help it. Enjoy your youth while it lasts and hope nothing happens to rob you of it.
ok, so where is your skin oily and where is it dry? like oily in your t-zone and dry everywhere else or like?
it sounds like you need a lot of hydrating products. so lotion masks are like the #1 thing to do.
this will tell you some things. also you need to get a moisturizer that's really hydrating. try the clinique dramatically different moisturizing lotion, and ponds dry skin cream from night time. you'll need to exfoliate like once or twice a week as well. consider getting the cure water gel, or even using a homemade one (3 tbsp extra virgin olive oil, 3 tbsp honey, 1/2 cup of organic sugar) to use once or twice a week. because of the retin-a you might want to adjust how often you use abrasive products on your skin tho. also get a hydrating cleanser!! there's lots of them but you need to figure out which one helps you most.
this gif is like a year and a half old but it includes the knife lol
y o u t h
f l e e t i n g
i literally already said this today but i like aging. i don't like my skin aging, but i like everything else about it. why on earth would you just prioritize being young when you can be polished at any age???
oily on my face and generally kind of dry everywhere else, mostly my hands but i think that might be because it's cold
awesome, i'm asian lol tyvm.
>try the clinique dramatically different moisturizing lotion, and ponds dry skin cream from night time
got it, will write down both and look for them
>cure water gel, homemade one
never heard of the former but i've been meaning to use a homemade one before. only problem is idk if the EV olive oil i have is real or not :S
clueless on a hydrating cleanser though, do you recommend one? i just use cetaphil cleanser since my derma told me to
hot gif, nice knife, know how to use it? you should get something bigger like this. most modern knives are shit at defense, with this you could parry a bat.
no, i prob will in a few years tho. it's an intense chemical exfoliant and like... i don't really need that yet. my skin is pretty perfect without it. once i get older tho and regular skincare won't cut it and i need to go the derm prescription route then i will def need it. if i used it now it wouldn't do shit for anti-aging and it would make my normally dry skin sahara level dryness.
oh, i mean if your face is all around oily then that kind of changes everything lol. you don't need hydrating products. but definitely look into the masks, and the cure water gel, you can use the homemade exfoliator on the rest of your body. don't use the other stuff i recommended. what kind of moisturizer do you use now? the cetaphil one is prob fine for a cleanser.
like i said, dita is 43. it's pretty easy if you know what you're doing to look polished at any age.
LMFAO WE ANCIENT EGYPT NOW FAMILIA!!
i know how to use it tho ye. the top has a lil thingy to crack someone's skull open.
well is greasy the same as oily? ill look into the masks for sure. don't use the homemade exfoliator on my face though?
and uhh i just use Coloplast moisturizer http://www.amazon.com/Coloplast-Sween-Superior-Moisturizing-Protectant/dp/B0029OZ4CY
Yeah, that's what I see in the mirror in the morning.
Holy shit the interview went great and it turns out the guy interviewing me likes the same exact things.
yee :/ idk. i'll get to it when i'm like 26-27 tho i think. for now i have esthetician training and know how to care for my skin without medical treatments.
ok, so you're oily in your t-zone, dry on your cheeks. so use the moisturizer you're using right now on your cheeks, and stop using it everywhere else, and see how your skin reacts. you can use any kind of "oil-free" moisturizer for the rest of your face, neutrogena has some good ones that are cheapo. the homemade exfoliator is really hydrating because of the honey and olive oil so if you used it all over your face you would prob get extremely oily.
i don't get you, you bounce around between saying you pass flawlessly and women are so jealous of how you naturally feminine and womanly you are etc to saying you're a hon and life is pointless and you're ugly. which is it?
>be 5 years HRT
>1 year post-op
>not been misgendered since early on in transition
>walking down street without make-up
>some in a car going past suddenly yells faggot at you
>tfw this has never happened to me
idk. rub one of them to try and catch it up? Not even sure if that works.
Really you'll kinda have to wait. They may or may not even out. a lot of women have difference in size between their breasts.
No its for a sales person at a race car dealer. Which means I get commission and I get to drive some cars.
cure water gel is reaaaalllly great. it's kind of pricy on some places, but the listings on amazon for it usually aren't too expensive. it would be great for your skin type, not too harsh but would get the job done where you need it! talk to your dermatologist tho about how often you should exfoliate if at all. cause retinol plays a factor in that.
it's nice cause you don't feel so alone and they just understand everything about you
Both. And I'm afraid that how I see myself and how others see me are permanently irreconcilable views. Having fifteen years of your life sunk into a black hole can do that... I never lived my twenties.
>a lot like love
yeah, when you feel like you've found your best friend (regardless of whether they really are or not), their existence feels completely different to everyone elses. i fell in love with my best friend, but it turns out they weren't actually my friend in the end. when i thought it was real though i based all my ideas of love off of my extreme appreciation for them.
i can't see my derma atm because no insurance :/ i don't think he said anything about exfoliator at all the last time i saw him, but i did get an information sheet ill have to look for from them. his assistant did tell me though exfoliating once a week or two would be fine.
i haven't actually used the retin-a in a bit, i keep forgetting to, and i was prescribed it for acne by my derma. the clear water gel is 28 bucks on amazon >.< but im willing to drop some dollar at the moment to be pretty lol
>it's nice cause you don't feel so alone and they just understand everything about you
so true ;_; i miss that comfort so much. no one in the world understands me now, not even half of me let alone half as much as my friend once did
What signs should i be looking for if I think my best friend is down to fuck when I'm further down the line with transitioning? I can't tell if I'm just seeing what I want to see or if he not only believes in me but would like to date. I'm too autistic to just ask him and he's too autistic to just say it so here we are.
thinking about it always makes me cry, like now
i loved them so much. they were a massive shining light in my life. the whole time i thought i had found the realest thing i ever would, they were just lying the whole time. even though we related more to each other than anyone else in both of our lives, it meant nothing to them, but more than everything to me.
okieee. well good luck with the skin stuff, tell me how it all goes for you!!
ya, kind of same. i mean i still do have one of my best friends but idk, my other bff that i don't have now knew me since middle school and idk. it sucks, but i have plenty of other people in my life who mean a lot to me and help me a lot in my life.
We already do drugs, drugs have brought us down to this base level of autism where suspicions of each other can be had but nothing else.
I think he wants to wait until I'm a bit further down the line with this stuff before sex stuff so I wouldn't want to rush him. Plus I'm KV, what if I was wrong about things and my first kiss is just a drunken disaster that costs me my best friend?? It kind of feels like we're already dating; just not doing anything explicitly romantic. I can't tell if it's just me or what.
ew gross, nascar is so fucking lame and this has nothing to do with that. Think trophy trucks, open wheel racers, off road bikes, and on track road race bikes, and some new and old exotics.
i dunno, it's a constant throbbing pain i don't think i'll ever be able to get over. solely because i thought, not being understood was a problem id never have to worry about again after meeting them. now i can't stop thinking about how no one will ever even come close, even if that's not true i can't help but think it regardless, and i don't want to.
it's the past but it hurts every day freshly, as if i'm getting stabbed in a different place every day
i know moving forward is all that can be done but i'm afraid i won't ever feel half as human as i once did. i envy you so much. i know exactly how you feel about your best friend too, and i just wish to god so fucking much i could go back to still having that. no one loves me anymore.
>tfw will never be able to do this
and honestly it doesn't even end there. i have only 2 close friends left in this world and i know i will lose both of them within 2 years. one will go homeless and lose contact with me because of distance and the other will most certainly wind up in jail or dead.
you ever like, fall so in love with an album that you listen to it like two or three times in a row and you wanna listen to it again but that makes you kinda disgusted in yourself?
i was thinking of watching it for a while but at this point the tumblr fanbase has ruined it for me. i don't think i would like it anyways tho, it looks like genderfluid propaganda.
>i won't ever feel half as human as i once did.
>i envy you so much
i'm going to assume you don't know that being an unfeeling, autistic robot is the only thing keeping me from constantly wanting to kill myself, right?
i look around a room, and contemplate how i could kill myself with the things i see
i walk along a road, and imagine jumping under a bus
i waste a considerable amount of time anticipating the next opportunity to see a creative way to die
i just don't do it because it's not worth the effort
yes, I think its a pretty great show
the first half of season one is a little weaker than the rest so if you can dont give up there like a lot of people do, and the episodes are only 10 min long so it wont take as long as you think
ignore all the memers saying its tumblr the show, almost every single one of them havent actually watched it
i don't know what made you think i wasn't an unfeeling autistic robot either. i've tried to kill myself twice, every day i think about it and regret over the fact i got revived last time. you still have that wonderful thing between you and your bestie to cherish though, without it life is even more hellish than it already is for you. i didnt think it could get worse but i was wrong, wrong for thinking things could ever be permanent.
I've never been gendered female and I look old as fuck and i'm also ugly.
Listen, we've seen each other. I'm sure we can agree that I am the hon out of us two.
i'm not envious of your life. just that you still have something i once did. i am unsure if i have the ability to connect to someone as much as i did with my lost person to make another best friend so yeah
you are going to scream your head off the first time you get doodled by a real man
how do you feel about phalluses in yo butt
I did but it kinda felt terrible, between the head patting thing, and the guy buying me corsets thing, and the guy hitting on me thing, and all the big talk about me being trans all the time. Retail isn't for me desu
god dammit not fucking that bitch again
>life was so hard even though my dad worked for Microsoft and paid for my ffs and srs and my posh apartment in the nicest part of the state and my BMW
>tfw you could have started at 13
>tfw there was no hope then either
>tfw looked like 20 when I was 15
>tfw look like a 30 years old man now
lain, you are talking to someone who has seen you. you are talking to someone with a simmilar face desu. i mean if i can't be top hon then you can't be either. that means that i am top hon, and you need to go and check your passer privlige
gj, at 3 months you get a discount on a new tranny at Kaylas dealership
Good luck with the emotional rollercoaster from puberty that makes you partially retarded.
And remember that nothing physically really happens the first 6 months if you aren't a teenager
>"now class, rank these values from 1-18 in how accurately they describe you"
1. Freedom from inner conflict
3. Health, physical and mental well being
>"the point of this exercise is to see what you lack, as numerous psychologists have found that people rank things the highest when they don't have them in their life"
>lives in LA without paying rent
i'm glad it's not my first time then!! the last two times hurt a lot
get a tiny dildo and work your way up to a normal sized one
Holy shit I want to bite a boy's chest just like that.
i tried fucking myself with a sharpie but even that burned a little and felt like i had to shit constantly. when does it feel good and make me cum
i kinda just wish someone would fuck me from behind and jerk me off at the same time
No! Only qt hairless boys.
Hair is gross gross gross
Well I can't pass after this long and I have an awful man face.
You'll be okay I think.
>mfw guy sucked on my nipples so hard they start peeling
this is literally the grossest thing
I think you find those "apish brutes" intimidating hence your preference. And this is not an attack on you just an observation.
I don't have a lot of porn that's not full of blood and I don't want to be banned again, sorry.
Or I just don't like hair and only like cute boys my age? Anyway the way you phrased it sounded hostile and I'm already struggling with coming to terms with my sexuality. It's awful having other people bring me down for it.
>you will never watch tentacles tickle torture Elanna's soles
I just want kayla to go back to cuteposting about tomatoes and stop taking the bait
>why your bathroom isnt covered in the fragments of your brain and skull is beyond me
i dislike kayla like 85% of the time esp when i'm in a bad mood but that's kind of over the line. when she's doing stupid shit i just want her to go away i don't want her to shoot herself in the head a bathroom
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what do i do?
>while I'm at school
why haven't you got one of those remote eggs you can put in your vag and control with your phone? If I had srs i would turn it on in class and no one would be the wiser.
>making it with my face
Pls, not everyone can pass.
You know how bad it is.
>people getting e-bfs while I wallow in my own misery
There's a lot of reasons I got SRS, and using vibe eggs in public wasn't one of them. I don't think there's any way to make the phrase "if I had a vagina I would use a vibrator in class" not fetishy sounding.
The way to do it is to post unsolicited pictures of yourself in a cami. And numerous webms from porn. Also some of that porn should be mtf on mtf.
Then you can talk about the things you would do with the srs vag you don't have without sounding fetishy.
>tfw you fart and feel the gas bubble slide up between your labia
It seems like only when I bring up anything sexual its somehow wrong and agp but no one else here ever gets made fun of for it. This pisses me off. Stop fucking making fun of me and thinking only post ops are allowed to explore their bodies, its fucking bullshit.
dude you know I'm totally fine with my junk despite wishing I wasnt born with it. like, you've been around this community for years so people enjoy teasing you or whatever, don't feel bad. =l